They say look alive sunshine
try to fight, sunshine
but they've been gone for many years

They say don't ever let the sun set angrily looking for a darkened sunrise,
awaiting mornings of forgotten fears

Reminiscing on the old and lost
throw memories into the garbage, unnecessary, stopsign goodbyes.


We understand the world they never had
struggling to reach out to the past to things that didn't last,
resurrecting the heart of long forgotten fads

Searching for scraps to bring back
desperately piece life together
everything in us blown
society stressing on what we lack
like an ugly quilt we are all stitched, mismatched, and sewn.


Constantly feeling like my heart is in tatters
always so worried
as if any of this matters

When all the walls come down
where lost hope is found
the deep sky above where we'll maybe someday go
where we can live peacefully
no longer meeting loveless ground
no longer trapped in our own defeating bounds.


The key to living is to throw away all of your shameful ways
all your dark yesterdays
toss them into the deepest waters
and watch as they become forgiven, erased
or all together completely replaced

Bring back your happiness
just let yourself exist
dont you forget that you've got the hidden strength if you're willing to try to persist

Be cautious in your wandering, no one else knows what your past is
dont let yourself be a sad and lifeless meance.


The days can be gone
but at night you'll see the stars,
you can dream or walk along
if you pay any attention you might find out what truths you've been moshing on

In the city streets
empty save for the echo
a long forgotten song
something a torn and apocalypse ridden world will never ever decide to let go.

we'll carry on.

For every time I tell you I love you
other things come to exist.
Tiny miraculous things begin to happen in other places.

A flower then begins to grow,
A calm surrender to smile is given,
A fresh start is approached,
A new beauty in nature found and untouched.

The world is filled with glorious things my dear...
So, how many countless beautiful moments share the same time frame, the same seconds as these words we share right now, "I love you"?

I know there are things in me to change
but I am slowly making my way

will you wait beside me?
Day, night, and all times?

to make sure we dont give up our faith
to make sure we don't lose out on our fate

I know we all want to pass through those gates.
I will try with you, I'll be here if you fall, please know that your start, it's never too late.

will you work hard for him?
can you do what he needs you to do?
pass on his word, love, and there'll be a home for you.

throughout the hurt, we fight
though we are tired, we'll take turns keeping watch
for the rest of our lives can we just live with peace and be kind to all He knows?

together under heaven we will stand tall
let's not betray him, the one who gives us all

Lets be what he created us to be
His love for us unfailing
his work calls upon us, it's up to you and me
lets make it our mission
to bring more beside him
those who, like us will do justice to his heart

it may not be easy
but he doesn't ask much.
to love others and be loved
to give freely and be blessed.
we all know it'll never be easy,
escape our own raging mess
but with him beside us,
help free all from their inner darkness

it may not be easy
we all know our paths are not that clear
so kneel down beside us
help make each darkness disappear.

you know he won't hurt you
you're just afraid and not used to love
but there's someone up there, his is deeper, I promise its enough.

and I'm right beside you
I'll be here until I die
so reach for us both please
we'll never say goodbye

and as for those tears, lovely,
they hold words you cannot scream
I promise we're with you, not only just in life, but we'll heal you in those dreams.

I know you're sick of the nightmares,
forever wasting headspace away
you dont need to forget rest, ***
your life will last another day.

you know I support you,
but love it's time to stop them now,
they'll only stay if you keep them
and now its time to let them go

you know he won't hurt you
you're just afraid and not used to love
but I promise you, He's waiting, his eyes look at you from above

you're his beautiful creation
forget flaws and embrace who you are.

I'm right here beside you,
I'll be here for you
but I cannot heal your soul.
do your best to live your life,
dont spend it digging a hole.

He'll be always with you,
He'll see when you're hurting
and it's ok to make mistakes,
look and he'll find you
he'll do all he can for your heart is at stake

He loves you beyond all,
no wondering why
so reach for us both please,
or if you just reach for one at least,
we will never be able to say goodbye

Open your eyes,
put down your disguise,
humans may fall for it but God will not.
Haven't you had enough?
Of running to keep up,
with the lie you told yourself?

Don't you know you're beautiful?
Don't you know you're worthy?
Don't you understand that He wants to let you feel free?

And when will you realise
that each time you hide,
a piece of you dies?
Just let Him come home,
into your soul
so you can feel like you finally for once belong.
He will never leave you even if you leave Him.

Things can be "fine"
but depression always lies.
Maybe the goodness only feels wrong because of something bad attacking your mind.

You can't see the invisible, but still, it betrays you.
Isn't it about time you tried putting hope into something new?

It's alright to pray, to give in, scream, to cry all day,
but don't let it hold you there forever.
If you do nothing, depressions chains may hold you as a hostage for your whole life.

There's things you can do,
I promise, its true,
take a look at all you've been through, all you know, all you've seen.
A happy life isn't just a dream.

I know how it hurts, I've been there before,
many times I wasn't alright.
I went through years of being alone
but one day God told me I am welcome in this world,
and it gave hope to last each night.

I've got scars, I've been burned,
I've felt hate and thought I'd learned.
But if you keep letting it consume,
the better life you could have will fall into the tomb.
Along with you, and everything you could have become.

And it just seems so endless,
walking forever on the same road,
but that's not where you must continue to go.
Even though you have told yourself it is.

So let in hope, wave out the dark smoke, let in a light through all the cracks.
"It's only chemicals"
they all promise that you lack.
But it's seriously so much more,
we know inside you theres a soul,
and souls can't be touched by medication nor poison.
It takes something deeper,
something unearthly, to give life or take away.

When He reaches inside you,
what He needs to complete your heart can't be obtained through a syringe.
So look deep within, and just give your control,
He who heals all things, please look upon my soul.

Don't forget why you're here,
You'll change the world someday, my dear.

Do what you can to make it alive
He already sees what you'll do,
He already knows the truth.
He understands what must be done to survive.

I'm in love with an angel
I'm in love with his smile
Shed his wings for a mission
How he got here to me I'll never know
His eyes are alive
Like the fire in his soul
He walks through the danger
But he doesnt walk alone.

Don't waste your gift on a worthless jinx
your voice was meant for greater things
there's no one like you, my angel without wings
I swear to God that the sirens are jealous whenever you sing

457
But I don't look like a tiger
they call me fierce
but I feel like a liar.

Only I can see
the damage done to me
457
and it didn't have to be.

457
But nobody knows
everything's faded so it doesn't even show.

457
Can you see the discoloration?
in summer heat, jacket halfway off,
notice my hesitation?
I've been conditioned,
"scars are ugly"
457
but you can't even see them.

457
That's where I draw the line
not again
no more pain
"I promise I'm fine".

All this hiding has been in vain.
it's been such a long long time,
how much happiness did I feign?
Just to get through?
Just to survive.
Doing what I can just for
one more, only one more day.
I didn't believe but I looked up at God and begged for another way.

He told me to be brave
He told me He'd make a way
He promised He'd shed 1,000 tears of forgiveness for 1 single mistake.

But I didn't believe Him,
I didn't do my part
so 457 lines I've made.
Crossing the line away from real life and stepping into the darkness within and hoped I'd fade.

457
Not as bad as it could've been,
but forever it seemed, it took that long, 5 years to come out.

5 years to give up and look for another rout.
But it's a battle I still fight.
I remember myself and Gods promises of life,
I have to read it all back to myself every single night.

Do I carve away at skin or erase all of my sin?
I can try to look for Gods face but I know that I'm only human.

457 cuts on my body
but the words you gave somehow felt worse.

I messed up.
32 more, an unforgiving night, devastated and once again alone.
But God understands and knows
He sees my mistakes and woes
457 cuts on my body.
but 457,000 healings on my soul.

I'll look forward to the day
where the razors wont get in my way
I'll live life, Gods promises fulfilled
I'll try to do my part,
praise His name, look ahead
no longer making grotesque red art.
I'll let it fade, let the memories decay
I won't have to lie about being ok.

457
457
5 years of my flesh punished for experiencing sadness and existing.

Sure those who may know me may call me a tiger,
mocking memories of the old broken skin.
They could call me fierce, or weak, or strange, or a cutter, like I'd been.
But if one thing remains then I know that it doesn't matter.
Only God can forgive my sins.

You can hate me,
but if you haven't been there don't blame me.
I don't have time to listen to lies.
You have a problem with my past?
Speak ill of how I had to cope to last?
God forgives you too, yeah, but I know you didn't ask.

Yeah, I'm a tiger, a lioness, bird whatever,
freedom under God will allow me to soar.
I'll reach new heights that they never expected, and they'll never forget the roar I've perfected.

457
All that my agonies were,
but I won't let it continue to happen anymore.
And one day I wont even remember that number...
I won't even realise what it was for.