Letters become words
Words become a line
Certain words put together
Can cause pain for a long time

Tattoo

The skin on my body a canvas
An artform with needles and ink
It was my choice and my decision
I don't care what others think

The images express who I am
It represents moments in my life
A koi, a dragon, a geisha
The names of my children and my wife

It's an ongoing project
So many hours on the artist's chair
Yes of course it did hurt
And no I don't mind if people stare

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
And beauty is what I see
If you don't like it keep it to yourself
I didn't do it for you, I did it for me

Unable to control my feelings
I struggle to every day
They ask me how I'm doing
I smile and look away

How can I answer honestly
If I don't know the answer myself
I'd like to say that I'm fine
But even I question my own mental health

It affects every corner of my life
My work, my family and my friends
The depression has taken over
It will be with me until the end

I'm not as young as I used to be
But not old enough to be mature
I do realize now my mistakes
Hurting my parents, many times I'm sure

So many emotions growing up
Love, happiness, sorrow and pride
I thought I knew everything about life
Not realizing how long it's ride

The more I grow older
The less I know
Life and it's lessons
My parents tried to show

Stubborn and bitter
The feeling of resent
Now that I have children
I know what my parents meant

Unconditional love
Looking what was best for me
When I look at my children
With my parents eyes I now see

To my parents I'm sorry
For all the pain that I caused
If I become half the parent you were
My life I would applaud

I'm jealous of the sun
How softly it caresses your skin
Your loving touch
Clears my conscious of its sin
I'm jealous of the moon
How your eyes look deeply into its light
Your laughter a soft breeze
On a warm summers night

I'm jealous of your words
Intimately falling from your lips
The definition of passion
The passion from our first kiss
I'm jealous of life
I can only live but one
It's a gamble you take
And yet some how I've still won


So many times I've asked
Why did you picked me?
You answer always the same
You and I were meant to be