i'm sorry if my words are true
everything i said
i meant
to you
everywhere you went with me
people mistook us for family
though we are as far from it
as a horse and a frog
but nobody sees it because our family's a fog
the memories are nothing
our lives are a mess
so go back to England

**i'll try to miss you
i guess

i stuck around for a while
but nothing keeps me...

God put everything in you
That you need
To conquer anything
But what you need to add into your own mix
Is humility

if i decided to let you break
how fast would you leave me?
if i told you not to
how fast would you hate me?
if i gave you a choice
would you choose to have a choice
or would you choose to try to explain to God
why you wouldn't let him help you?

and expect him to make an exception
because you had a bad life
and i would see you in my dreams
because i gave you permission
but i won't give you permission
to hate God
or permission
to love death
or permission
to fly into a house

My lady
can i saw i have loved watching you sleep for those nights
i have always wanted to wake you
just to say goodnight
but alas
this body is not mine
you will not love me
for i am
not real
the only thing that feels real about me
is the feelings i feel
when i am around you
so hush
don't worry
it will be fine
i love you forever
until the end of time

that is fair my lady
that is fair
now i am off to hell
see you all
after the war starts
and ends
leaving only blood shed
and to my fair lady
i will love you
even past the end
as my old friend said
forever
and always

i don't have much to talk about
i thought i would just write
knowing that never really turns out right
just not thinking
i don't even know if i'm really making words
i thought i would just type

i could talk about how stupid i am around my friends
but how serious i am in my mind
but i'm just writing random words
and i really don't have the time

i could talk about how little poems
about nothing
end up on the homepage
and my serious ones are left in the dust
and then i wrote one
and it was really fun
but my friend told me it was dumb

but i don't take it seriously
even though i blocked her for two short minutes
she didn't even know  
but then i thought to myself
that's not where i want to go

and thought my life lacks years
i know the world around me
i know of two
what isn't spoken
and the reality
and that's me

i look at a happy person
and see their broken heart
they don't even speak to me
they probably wouldn't know where to start

and though freestyle isn't really my thing
you don't even know how much joy it brings
except for the spell check
it can be unbarring

a face is somthing we can't take off
so why do girls have to put it on in the morning

Should I tell you that you can fall
just so we both can rest underneath it all?
Should the ice overtake us?
when we jump from cloud to cloud
running out
falling down
just to bruise and come back now

should you die to know that i could have saved you anyway'
or should i go on with the plan that i have known since that day
and i know the demons won't take you away
but i don't know what God wants me to say

when the world is darkest
the hereos see the stars
but instead of blocking the light
take someone else out of the dark

one great moment
can change a life
one great mistake
can change a life
one great thought
could destroy a nation
but one great action could save them
so what do you want to be great at?

because one great mind
could end great thought

one great key
*could unlock

all i am is my memories
the good and the bad
if i try maybe i can be
the dreams i used to have

who are you to show me the light
when you pulled me into the darkness?

i broke every wall in my life
except the one that matters
so people can see i'm afraid to be seen

i'm mean so people can see i'm nice enough to do everything
i'm whole on the outside
to remind people there's nothing left within
(but you're not the source of my pain)

i hide
so people can come out of hiding

i don't fight
so people know
if i go down
i go down fighting

i hurt
just so i can stop the hurting
but the pain i talk about isn't yours

my bones are weak
because i give my strength to all the other people
my brain is fried
because my only knowledge of my country is evil

i break
so other peoples hearts i can mend
i would fall on my knees to pick my family up again
i would cut myself
just so my best friend would stop cutting but it doesn't work that way

i will never give up on a world i still hold in my heart
i will never begin to let a piece fall apart
and no i'm not 12 anymore
even though my birth certificate says so

and yes i act like i know better
simply because i do
even though the things i know about
i never have gone through
experience isn't the best teacher

and maybe i do hate myself
doesn't mean i'm suicidal
i just work to be better
and maybe one day i can be

i don't know why i talk about myself
so don't ask (lol)

and even though this poem is long i have so much to say
*but it doesn't really matter

new year
same me
because god didn't make me to change annually

welcome to the world
where blindness is but a shadow

holding back the tears i tried to shed before
1 step 2 step 3 step 4
falling back because there's more
trying to tell you what i've been thinking about
all this time
all this time
but i'm stalling
stalling
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i never wanted it to be this way
but i have to stall to save the day
and while you waste your time
reading this little piece of mine
i can't bring myself to ask
why i haven't brought up my task

when the family is cold
everybody fights for warmth
in the corner of the memories we all had together
but the time is running out
and it's time i'm running out
if thats the only way to bring the summer back

My brother holds on to too many things
How do I know this?
He was driving my friends home
And he was so caught up with
The light being left on
That he couldn't realize
I had opened the window

middle school
when you pull her hair in class
everyone is laughing then
but when the same is done to you
is it just a game then
when you're the one walking down the hall
with everyone looking at you strangely
then YOU find out
there was a sign on your back that said
"kick me"
high school
you start out just making comments
"did you see that girl's outfit"
but then you come up to her and say
"did you even try today"
she runs home crying
but then the next day
she walks up to her locker
and what does it say?
"go drown in a lake"
but what did she do?
what did she say?
then rumors start spreading
about this new boy in class
she was just trying to help
because she knows what it's like
to be like that.
muted with no power
no speaking
not aloud
so she whispered in his ear
"it'll get better, somehow"
"are you flirting with the new kid!?"
her friend didn't hesitate to say.
"i was just helping him pick up his books"
she became a reject that day
walking towards her locker
one look
her heart dropped
then she screamed into the air
"YOU THINK CALLING SOME A ***** IS FUNNY?
IT'S NOT"
"who are you trying to convince"
said the girl walking in
"YOU USED TO BE MY FRIEND"
"but you dumped me for him.
so have fun starting from the beginning again."
bu wait.
whatever happened to them?
the boy and the girl?
the used to be friend?
10 years later*
girl has a child
boy still her friend
they walk towards there building
laughing
towards the company they brought in
looking through the applications
"that girl popped up again"
"i'll take care of it"
and the boy wrote
it was "just a game" you said

T.V**
Taken
Visually

taken by your words i promise
you said that before

i can't see the regular imagination of a 12 year old
i can't see the brightness of the sun in the middle of the night
i can't talk about suicide
i can't think right
can someone help me
find something to write?

What is real poetry?
John 3:16
*for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son
So that whoever believes on him shall not parish
But have eternal life

hello poetry users
no matter whats going on
we all have something to be thankful for
so lets share thanksgiving with the world we live in
i'm thankful for my God who made me the person i am today
what are you thankful for?

i took that knife
on that rainy night
and forgot about the good
i bled the insicurities
as a perfect girl should

i remembered everything you said to me and swollowd it
as you tought me

i looked into the sky and saw no reason to live
but i had to wait
God told me to wait

the morning came
the rain was gone
and all that i could see
a rainbow in the sky
smiling just for me
and in that very moment
i was finally set free

If you had 1 hour to change the world
Would you rather fail
Or die in the process?

if you don't stand for something
you'll fall for anything

brace yourselve
oh people
of fairytales and friends
it's time someone told you the truth
the face of you
oh people
who talks on your behalf
will never talk to you
there comes a time in your life
were people think they know you
but the truth is they speak for you
and never speak to you

tell me why i'm never good enough
why me being "good" is just too tough
for you to understand
and lending a hand of love is not in your plan
because you wanna be right?
but what is right when your on the wrong path?
like the mad hatter
all you do is laugh
and chaos is right
so you try and create discord
make it seem like i fight
and i do fight
i fight for what's right
and the day that you win
is the day i give in
so i guess you should sit back
it's going to be a long ride
before i tell you what you want
and give up the fight

i woke up with a smile
my first word was a laugh
i don't deserve that

6 people in my family and i'm the only one who likes to make them mad
this is the first day i haven't woken up sad
i don't deserve to smile
i deserve to cry
all my life i've been living a lie
and i can't change even if i tried
i'd probably make things worse if i tried

drained into a sewer of numbness
an angel blinded by it's own light
red walls of purple lining
find it and you'll be given sight
a meaning hidden in tears
a wail of ones reflection
a mirror
your on the other side
to this dream you say goodnight
and finally go to sleep
for a poet lives in a dream

once upon a broken soul
there lived a girl
i while ago
who made sure everybody knew
her life wasn't her own
she took away her face
and that face she replaced
and put on what everybody else
was fit for her age, gender, and race

she did what she was told
she had the perfect amount of bold(ness)
and she tried her best
every day
to just
hold her own

but behind closed doors
even closed from her father
she knows she can never be the perfect daughter
she takes away her face until it's impossible to cry
and thinks every night
of how good it would feel to just say goodbye

but once upon a broken soul
there lived a God who still is so
who told a prophecy of her end

and in that God's holy being
he knows she will not completely cave in

once upon a broken soul
there was a heavy heart
and all this beautiful girl would need
was a chance to restart

once upon a broken soul
there live a chance for all
a chance for her
a chance for me
a chance to hear God's call

once upon a broken soul there live a purpose for freedom
and the chains you are forced to hold
will be freed again

I can't help the fact that my mind has control

my friend is in pieces
her life a broken as the knife in her hand
and somewhere deep inside i know she understands
she's broken

I've never seen her mind snap
but last night i did
i don't know if she's getting worse
but last night it got better

i wanna believe that you’re alright
but i’ve never been able to see sadness in your eyes anyway
i wanna know that you’d fight without me
but you were never a fighter anyway
i wanna know you won’t give up
but this isn’t why i’ve been so pushy
i want to know you are ok
without having to take from what i gave

a person who feels alone is a brain without the confidence in tears

i went searching for God
while he waited at the starting line
i thought he left me
when i left him beind