8:52 AM sitting at my local coffee shop. Looking out  into the overcast sky. Strong breeze knocks my napkin onto the ground, and I go to pick it up. Look up and down the street I see her, yellow dress white skirt the most vibrant person I've ever laid eyes on. She lights up the street, without doing anything out of the ordinary, just walking, but I find myself staring at her in awe of the beauty set before me. Beautiful amber eyes, long brown hair.  Shining ray of sunlight pierces the gray clouds of my boring life, swiftly illuminating me and wrapping my heart in the warmest comfiest blanket.  Still being crouched over caught in a situation I've never been in before I attempt to get up and return my napkin to the table. I won't probably ever see that girl again, but those few seconds of absolute radiance reminded me that there is a life worth living.

I started writing this "Poem" at 5:26 pm. I don't know what I should write about or why I should write it or what I intend to achieve out of it but I feel as if I should share it. I have had a rough week, I'm sure a lot of us have. I was walking back from the store and a I saw an elderly man on the sidewalk shooing away some birds and he didn't look to happy but then he fell down. Naturally I walked over to help him up and when I did, his expression changed from cold and mean to bright and happy. I felt something today in that moment that I've never experienced before. It was surreal like something out of a film or book, time literally felt like it  stopped And in the same time it continued almost like it didn't happen but I know it did. After that he said thank you and I said your welcome and started to walk away with this overwhelming feeling of just happiness. I felt something urging me to turn around some slight feeling, tingles on the back of my neck. So I did and the man was gone. I don't know what happened to me today. But I encourage everyone to please help out anyone you can whether it be as small as doing a slight favor for a friend or something that costs you something like giving a stranger 5 dollars for a bus ticket. The feeling you get out of helping someone can't be bought with money. Thank you

I bring with me today, a saying from far away.
In a place where love triumphs over any and all evil.
This saying goes as follows.
"Forgiveness is a warm kindling, in this rainy cold night we call life. Each act of love being a campfire to warm us up. It is not where we are going that is important, but what happens on our way that is, for if we forget the in between, the ending has no meaning."
In this place oh so far away, people live by this statement.
You learn to love and live and give the gift of happiness to not only others but yourself, for if you make others happy but not yourself, then what is the point?
Everyone deserves happiness, no matter what mistakes we've made.
Thank you

they're out of control
my feelings for you
i just cant take it
there's nothing i can do

i suffer in silence
just to hide it
im in love with you
i cant deny it

i cant accept it either
because i know its wrong
im just trying and trying
to stall and prolong

the inevitable sadness
that comes with this
its gone to a cold pain
from a warm bliss

but in the end
i accept whats true
i only know love
because of you

my best friend
is what you are
even if things are
the way they are

and even though
i lied to you
please bare with me
through the black and blue


please forgive me
for how i feel
because when you do
i will begin to heal.