I don’t know when it happened,
Somewhere along these fleeting days,
I lost my heart without a warning,
Falling in such unexpected ways.

I fell so hard, it shook my soul,
A love so pure, it made me whole.
Was it your big brown eyes, your amazing smile,
Or the crinkle of your nose, so beguiling all the while?

Perhaps it’s the way you say my name,
Soft and sweet, igniting in flames.
Or the way your smile lights up your eyes,
A glimpse of heaven beneath earthly skies.

Whatever it is, it’s all of You.
A love so deep, I never knew.
You’ve rocked my world, my heart, my mind,
In you, my soul has its home to find.

I miss your touch, soft as a whispered breeze,
A warmth that calms, puts my heart at ease.
The echo of your voice, sweet and serene,
Is the melody that lingers in my every dream.

Your smile, a sunrise breaking through the gray,
And those dimples, oh, how they light my way.
The laughter you spill when my jokes fall flat,
Turns every moment into a treasure, just like that.

Though 1261.63 kilometers may part our skies,
It's nothing more than numbers; love never lies.
A mere plane ticket, a two-hour flight,
And I’d cross the heavens to hold you tonight.

My love for you stretches beyond the stars,
Boundless, infinite, no distance too far.
Whatever may come, whatever life weaves,
Know this, my dear Kayla, I will never leave.

You are my forever, my heart’s guiding song,
In my arms, my love, is where you truly belong.

Fifteen hours, and she’s on her way,
Bringing light to the edge of my day.
The love of my life, so close, so near,
Her journey whispers, “She’ll soon be here.”

Each mile she travels, my heart takes flight,
A beacon of love in the soft twilight.
The open road carries her closer still,
Fulfilling a promise, a dream, a will.

I ache to hold her, to feel her near,
To banish the distance we've known this year.
Her smile, her laugh, her gentle grace,
Soon to light up this sacred place.

I’ll make her feel like she’s always belonged,
Like her heart has found where it’s been drawn.
No need for maps, no need to roam,
When she’s in my arms, she’ll know she’s home.

And when she arrives, the world will ignite,
A love everlasting, burning bright.
In her embrace, the wait will be done,
Two hearts united, finally one.

And when she arrives, my soul will sing,
For she is my everything.

Kayla, my heart speaks in whispers and thunder,
A love that sees through, with no need to hide under.
Your flaws, if they’re there, are treasures to me,
A map of the soul, as vast as the sea.

Your monsters, my love, are mine now to keep,
I’ll cradle them gently when they steal your sleep.
For every dark shadow that haunts your sweet mind,
I’ll stand as your shield, leave no fear behind.

Your secrets, so deep, you might think they would break,
But trust me, my darling, it’s a risk I will take.
No crevice too hidden, no truth too unkind,
I’ll love every corner of what I might find.

The world can be cruel, a tempest, unkind,
But I’ll stand between it and your heart and your mind.
I’ll weather the storms, take the brunt of the fight,
So you can walk safely in peace and in light.

So here is my vow, as steady as stone,
With you, my sweet Kayla, I’ll never stand alone.
No matter what comes, or how far we may roam,
You’ll always be safe, my heart is your home.

In whispers soft, our laughter flows,
Through shared ice cream and playful prose.
A giggle here, a teasing jest,
You’re the one that knows me best.

Your smile, a treasure, lights my night,
A beacon warm, a guiding light.
In every word, in every glance,
You set my world into a dance.

Through forehead kisses and silly schemes,
We'll build a life of love and dreams.
A world where nothing feels too far,
Where you’re my moon, my sun, my brightest star.

When burdens press, when hearts are sore,
I’ll hold you close and love you more.
For you, I’d burn the world and set fire to the skies,
To just see the joy within your eyes.

So soon, my love, the wait will end,
And Cape Town’s streets our steps will blend.
Till then, in whispers soft, I’ll dwell,
Forever yours, my Mrs. Bell. ❤️

It kills me softly, this knowing ache,
Her world feels fragile, like it just might break.
She walks through storms, her head held high,
While I watch helpless, heart askew, nearby.

I see her struggle, her quiet fight,
A spark in shadows, a flame in the night.
I long to lift her, to ease her load,
To pave her path, to smooth her road.

But trust must bloom where doubt resides,
A battle rages on both sides.
For she is strong, though burdened so,
And I must trust the seeds she’ll grow.

Yet my restless mind won't let me sleep,
It spins and spirals, tunnels deep.
What if she falters, what if she falls?
What if she needs me and never calls?

The silence screams, my thoughts take flight,
Waging wars in the dead of night.
I dream of saving, of holding close,
Of fixing wounds that only she knows.

But love is patient, though patience burns,
And faith in her is what she earns.
So I will wait, though it tears me apart,
Trusting her strength, though it tests my heart.

Still, the urge to save won't die away,
It's a whisper that haunts me every day.
Yet I'll stand steady, her rock, her shield,
Until the weight she carries is healed.

Through storms and shadows, you’ve walked so far,
Carrying wounds that burn, hidden scars.
Yet in your eyes, a fire still gleams,
A small spark of hope, the true stuff of dreams.

Yes life has been cruel, far more than it should,
Yet you’ve turned every pain into strength, as only you could.
Every tear you’ve shed, every silent fight,
Has shaped your very soul, a radiant light.

You deserve soft mornings and laughter's embrace,
A love so deep that time cannot erase.
No more battles to face on your own,
You’ll never again have to stand alone.

I see your worth, your beauty untold,
A heart so rare, more precious than gold.
One day, I’ll vow before all to say,
“I choose you, forever and a day.”

I’ll strive to give what life has denied,
A partner, a haven, a love unified.
For you, my love, deserve so much more,
A world of peace, a love to explore.

So let’s dream together and build something new,
A life where your happiness finally shines through.
Yes the road has been harsh, but the future is bright,
Because I’ll spend the rest of my life making yours right.

If you'd let me, I'd kiss you until I knew every part of your soul, even the quiet places you think no one could ever love. I'd hold you close, not to fix you, but to show you that your burdens don’t have to be carried alone. I’d love you with a depth words can’t capture, a love that grows deeper with every stolen glance, every smile, every moment spent in your presence.

I’d cherish you as you are, not as the world expects you to be, but as the beautifully imperfect person you’ve always been. I’d be your shelter when the world feels too heavy, your quiet strength when you need a reason to stand, and your greatest admirer in all the little and extraordinary things that make you, you.

Loving you wouldn’t be a choice. It would be a necessity, as natural as breathing, as infinite as the stars. And if you'd let me, I wouldn’t just love you; I’d honor you, protect you, and build a life where every day is a new way to show you how deeply you’re cherished.

When I am alone, the voices won't leave
When I am with you, I can feel the silence . . .

You were my best friend.
When no one else was there.
You always listened to all my problems.
You never left me sad.
You always trusted me, even on my bad days.
You spent your life revolving around me.
I miss you so much.
You were truly Man's best friend.
I'm sorry I wasn't there at the end.
I pray you rest in peace.

The places where the demons hide
The voices that always lie.
The deepest corners of my mind
The darkest moments of my life

All stuffed
Into
one
little
room

I don't Drink.
Not because I don't want to.
I don't Drink.
Not because I don't need to.

I don't drink because of you.
because of what you did
because I swore that I would never be like you
because you were the monster I feared

I don't drink, because I fear.
I fear the monster in you, will become the monster in me.
That monster is something I never want to be.

There’s a darkness inside all of us
It starts out pretty small
But in everything we do, we feed it
Let it grow big and tall

This darkness is our truest self
The face we try to hide
A monster deep inside us
That simply just won’t die