When you try to be sweet and kiss me ever so slowly

You want to see something majestic
I'll tell you where to find it
Look in the mirror
Its beautiful and majestic
For all eyes to see

If you only had a moment to live
What would you do

Would you you stand in fear
Would you feel sorry for yourself
Would you ponder on life

If you only had one moment to live
What would you do

When you kiss me
Do you taste
The words left dead on my lips
A mouthful of ghosts?

When you breathe me in
Do you fill your lungs
Then choke me down
Like a shot of whiskey?

When you touch me
Do you trace your fingers
Along the signature
Depression left on my arms?

When you hold me
Do you feel all the pieces
That won’t ever be put back together
Can you tell
That’s the way I was made?

I’m not broken
Because I was never whole
In the first place.

I can't figure myself out
I hangout with thugs
I dress like a prep
I act like a blonde
I read books
I write poems
I dance like I'm in a hip hop  video
I listen to punk rock
I have different hobbies from my friends
I love them too death
They love me too death
Yet they don really know me
I feel complicated