I AM BEAUTIFUL

I am beautiful;
but my heart is locked
from the pains of yesterdays
in knowledge, I do have
the good and the bad
I get happy and sad
I get overwhelmed with emotions
of feelings that cut so deep within me,
oh, how my heart
bleeds out in ink
for all to read about me
what it is that I feel
and what isn't seen
on the eyes of hate,
from my own hatters
I stand up for who I am
no matter the pain
that comes my way,
I am Beautiful within my soul
I am elegant yet brave
but at times I am afraid
I am a woman of knowledge
I know I have so much more to learn
as this life keeps on turning,
I will keep doing what it is I love
even when I am aging with time
I will keep on writhing
and fighting for me
while the old pen bleeds the ink of me.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1990
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Our Love Shines Like A Diamond
In the night
your Love shine bright like a diamond
Whose herds with milk
whose fields with bread
with the sight of Your light that
shines so bright
Your Love shines a cross the
Mediterranean Sea with summers breeze
the moon glistens over the sea
I choose to be happy and that is when
I found you in June
with you in my life I am on high
You and I this Love will always shine
We're like diamonds in the midnight sky
flying on high for others too see
what true Love brings
too see we are running free
The knowledge I see in your eyes is an ample
Your Love holds me keeps me clean
You're a shooting star of ecstasy
that runs right into me
you are that star that my heart needs
When you hold me
my world starts to comes alive
for the first time
You given me a reason to keep on living
We're like diamonds in the sky
sing our Love on high
in that big beautiful sky
Your Love to me is like one of a kind
You light my heart like a burning star
beaming from far right to my heart
in the night sky we will fly
Your Love is like a dream
A dream that came true
In times of my Life it was hard to find
Mr Right
Your Life
your love takes me places I never been
I never seen or been only in dreams
Your Love is the applause to my heart
I knew that we'd become one
right from the start
I felt the energy of your words
lite of my soul like the sun rays
I saw my life changing
when you came in it
inside your eyes I seen me
The knowledge You given me
given me strength to believe in Love
  Your Love shot a spark right in my heart
like a blaze that hit so deep within me
This Love is beautiful
It's like diamonds in the sky
Singing love song on high
just for you and I
You are the noble one of my heart
I was froze lost at sea but you saved me.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Satan's Hotel

The waiting land of better days
just faded away just like that
the fields of righteousness are few
the fields lie in darkness
after the flame died away
Loneliness and darkness filled the soul
Drugs and cheep woman and men
That are selling their souls
Life had no meaning to them you could
see it in their zombie eyes
they live in Satan's hotel
the coldness of their souls is out to take
another young life into drug world
understanding the ways of the Life of
Darkness and gloom
Kids are walking around
thinking they are doing just fine
Just to find their
Mommy and daddy's killing of there
Souls to another blow
of the drug pip
oh, just look at their lives
look what they have done
they are walkers of the night
words has been spoken
Will **** one's life
If you would walk by
Satan's hotel you could feel the control of
the lost souls lost in the eternal blackness
never to be seen again.
something new has come
into another life
taking the demons in their mind
and a pipe in their hand
the young and the old under
the control of Satan's world
Parents looking all over town
wondering how to find their kid
then they hear there
Kids learned a new trick
for the angel of death
has arrived in that
cold sad lonely night
when another has taken a life
broken down of the drug world
Satan's world
when you check in to Satan's Hotel
the way that they act
is no way of coming back
to the way of better days ,
You can see the evil
in there eyes's an urge to ****,
the desire is a thrill
to **** the good in another Soul
once upon a time
they had Jehovah in their lives
walked in the light
all of that had changed
when they said goodbye
and they let Satan's
in their lives by taking the drug pipe
Dark angel is all over
the place hunting for new souls
to take into their control
the broke word
that  killed dreams of the young and
the old nobody there forgave sins
they just keep making them
The Drug fights take a blood bath of the knife
Behind the walls you can hear it all
The cry's of the night when
a baby cries to be fed why it's
Mommy is out doing what she knows best
So now the baby's grow up
to be the victim of prostitution
Of preconception and true damnation,
the young minds
Reaching out into a world
that is lost every time ,
They can no longer see
the twisting emotions that they live in
they will longing for
the person they once used to know
But that was long ago
Know they live in Satan's world.


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

To My Haters

People look at me and laugh,  
They walk around like clowns wishing they  
Had what it takes to walk my way ,
What a shame to still someone else name ,
They go around and say bad things and
Get others to believe something that isn't true  
About me how crazy but I will never let you  
Bring me down don't you see you could never  
Be me God made me the way I look and that  
Will never change my DNA ,
They make fun of my every move,  
But then I must say look in the mirror and what  
Do you see is darkness in your life ,
Not to pretty is it ?
What I want to know is what is it about me that people hate,  
Could it be the fact that I have nothing to prove,  
People are just ignorant for no apparent reason,  
I love me that is just the way it is ,
They talk about me every season for whatever reason ,
If they see a hot man look my way thing can get nasty
That will tell him bad things about me for him to look  
Some were else as long as it was not at me ,
What for, I don't know, this war has been going on to long ,
I don't really care, and my attitude shows it,  
People are going to talk if I like it are not ,
But, that's okay because I know how to walk,
And how to be myself ,  
They are wasting their time talking about me,
I'm using my time to walk away so free in summers breeze
On easy with my happiness I am me ,
I don't have time to play little childish games,  
My life is so real I don't need to play the loser games ,
At least I can I say I'm happy in my skin God gave me ,  
But I want to say thank you for taking your time out for me  
Because it means I'm doing something right I'm always on  
Your hateful minds ,
I feel life is going just fine :)
I really don't like to fight I love me you must see :)
People are only looking at me because they wish they was me ,
They spend hours looking on the outside of me,  
Wow they would hate me, even more if they see my big heart
Of what makes me ,  
The part of me they should talk about is what's in the inside ,
How God loves me and gives me peace even in the life I live  
Of hat and shame of child play ,
They also look at the downfalls of themselves ,  
I know that must really hurt but don't give me your dirt ,
Sometimes, I just have to tell them,  
There's no shame in my game ,  
I have a lot of love for  myself and I don't want to take time out
To put your nasty ways in my heart ,
So, people can take their opinions about me and stack them on a shelf,  
And take the book down and write down what you have learn ,
For those who look at me and make fun of me,
I know I'm all in the game of being me ,
I just have to ask you something,  
Are you really looking at me are your nasty self ,
For those who are laughing at me,
I bet you cry in your sleep
wishing you was never that mean ,
I want to tell ask you something,  
Is it really me you're laughing at,  
This is a poem for my 'Haters'
to think about not me but at themselves
Love to all my haters. :)

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

CHILDHOOD DREAM

I have secretly left you a note
upon your bed side;
but only in dreams you could only see
what it is I have written
in a place of the forbidden,
this is how we meet
you came into my life while I sleep,
you seemed so nice and very sweet,
You’re my child hood dream,
I had left you some time ago
I want to say sorry,
But, I must ask
how did you make your way back?
into my mind another time.
I never understood that
I thought you suppose to stay in the past,
I see your writing on my page  
where others could read
what you are wanting to say to me,
but, you are starting to get mean
and yet a little scarier;
when you write about me
you had taken all my words
I wanted to say right out of my mouth,
You would write me to tell me
You wanted so badly to be kiss me,
But I must say;
Get off my page
Because I don’t feel the same way
You are only something from a darken past
A childhood dream
that always made me scream,
It’s so funny what words can do,
to make me feel so ill about you,
I could never love you or want too.
I felt I known you all my life,
maybe I did;
But only in my dreams you see,
So, what does all this mean
for you and me?
again, how could this ever be?
If we were only a childhood dream.
I started to feel overwhelmed by you,
If you are only someone of dreams,
Every time I sleep,
Your eyes are looking back into mine
It’s like I could read an ancient story;
I had to take a deep breath
and walk away from all of this,
Your starting to mess with my head,
I’m starting to feel old wounds
of another time;
something doesn’t feel right
this left me so confused
how could all of this be if your only
a childhood dream?

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

COOKING ***
I looked around me
everything was dark
as if my own eyes where completely shut,
that the would had come to an end,
my eyelids where very heavy
like I had a sleeping spell on me,
I was seeing things that were given me
very bad dreams;
the stars are all on dim
while they skip around the sky,
upon the sea, I seen the reflections of he
standing over me;
the colored moon beamed upon the land
upon everything my eyes could see;
I tried so hard to open my eyes
But I couldn’t it was as if I was dead,
I dreamed many dreams in my head
I see things of an ancient time,
I felt I have been bond to my bed;
As if I was quite insane of true madness,
In my mind, I seen different set of eye
Looking back at me from another time,
I see slaves dancing around me,
Crying out to a king that stands before me,
The sky was dark; the fair is hot;
I could see a big cooking ***,
Words of their time wasn’t of mine,
you could feel the evil all around;
While the anger browed in the ***,
Words of truth wasn’t in their mouths,
Lies and so much hate with not faith,
Witches are casting out their evil spells,
Giving a queen a life of a living hell,
Their face turned to me
as I started to scream,
I seen many things that come to me
like something of darken dreams,
they were very old holding no youth,
I forget your name they would say
In a cloud of smoke;
Frogs are being tossed in the old cooking ***,
a chicken tongue, black bird eyes,
bugs of the desert land,
the thunder in the ancient sky roared while
the storm moved on by;
I see holly ones being persecuted;
The words of accurate knowledge
Was told to never be promoted on the land
Where the old witches stand
on blood, stained sand, that was a command,
words of truth are forbidden;
enemies casting names of thee into the *** of hell
while some where rings a bell;
bodyguards taken the prison ones
out of the cage; those who has lost their way,
ravens are flying around to eat up on the dead
the ones who has lost their heads,
words of temptations of the flash
dancing around the cooking ***,
my body started feeling cold
I didn’t have no more control
While lies where being told,
My eyelids where heavy as they could be
While I was cast into a deep sleep.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The Queen of Darken Dreams
Poetic Judy Emery

The dark unfathomed tide
That has fathomed my life;
Of an interminable pried
That blacken up my heart
That turned it into ice,
My life is only a mystery
Of many darken dreams;
I can still hear the ravens cry
Day and night
Always by my side
deep into the night where life
is full of fright;
it is a part of my early journey
where lies are always being told
while the creepy stories are
on the making of true hearts breaking,
where old dreams never made
a home of darkness;
where poets written down
what they loved;
where plays are making drama
that made visions come alive;
with wild crazy thoughts
moved the mind and hearts
to a place of the unknown,
where words are written
to a place of forbidden,
Where a place my own mind
made a written scene;
for others to play out in their own minds,
places in the mind is a journey of some kind,
where true imaginations are made,
where the spirit of me
hasn’t seen yet;
but I hold no regrets;
but at times I hold worthiness of my heart,
on dreamy eyes;
I do write what comes to my mind,
What my heart bleeds
For a world of mystery
To open their minds and read all about me
In darken dreams;
Poetic Judy Emery
The Queen of all darken dreams,
I let my inter visions of my spirit
Write out my misty scenes
for all to capture what it is I see or bleed,
My thought come with many plots;
to control the unknown;
where sleeping spell and rose dust
are being cast into a darken past;
yet; hunting down the brighter hopes in life
to come alive in my life;
There will always be the two dodo brides
In my stories;
You will hear many kinds of things
That will come into darken dreams;
Words of a thief to make the heart weep,
Where witches casting spell
Where only true love could take the spell off,
Where knights ride along the lines
Where queens are made in dreams,
In the sight of ancient time;
I care not about the evil enemies
Because they are a part of the story;
But my work of darken dreams
I do cherish because they are about me.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Let Me Be Your Everything
I sat down to think about all you ever told me
I start to write all  my emotions down
for all to read about you and me
I want to show all how
things really are that was between us
I want to have romantic dances
with lots of kisses you would say
you would hold me close
where you could whisper in my ears
all the things you hold dear
how much you need me
the Love you want to show me
the passion you have for me
I truly know a lot from you
you have talked to me
about so much things
you even told me
Love is not that easy
like others think it should be
You get up out of bed
to start your day  
with me on your mind
that was all you could think about
is the love that is in your heart for me
you would tell me
You're my love you see
Let me be your everything
this old life brings
let me spark up a fire deep within you
like you had never known
I want to be the one
to give you a kiss each and every day
just to let you know the hours
you're upon my mind
Let me be all you could ever need
Your words my love
will always be a part of me
Your love will always be in all my memories
So I will write out what I feel
even when we are no longer
my heart has grown founder
this love will always be
written down in history
of you and me .

Poetic Judy Emery © 2010
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

You're always on my mind
most of the time
day and night
you're never hard to find
when it comes to dreams
I never want to take you for granted
I just want to keep your love close
Your love is what kept me going
I know I will always need you in my life.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Words Whispers In The Wind

I hear your words whispers in the wind
Far , far away you go again
I pray see you
Hold you
dream my dreams loving you
Thoughts they seem to comfort me
every time I hear our song we use to sing
to each other over and over
Dancing so close
Afraid to let each other go
Oh how this life gone so cold
does love mean what it seems
If so why am I alone
with no love of my own
A tragedy had made it's way
A nasty storm was brewing
And my heart got torn
Release me from this awful pain
my soul must be reborn
From this dark sin
that keeps digging in
It hurt so bad the blood looks like paint mix
I didn't let go of the Love I know
This will love be what it seems
A painting of you and me at sea
Lost it's dreams
But then your words still come to me in
the wind like a whisper
Feeling love
although unseen
Your hear dose sing to me in
September dreams

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Togetherness / Dark Angel

Dark Angel, with thine aching lust
for what he cannot have
my heart isn't for him
My body is flesh
but my spirit is with the light
but he thinks he owns me
he wants to rid all that I love
the world of his darkness
is all he knows how to give
he cast his spells
gives a life of hell
locked away in a unknown place
darken dreams he gives to me
a gift from he
He wants my all
he wants everything I love
he wants my the visions
that I hold deep within
Dark Angel, doesn't no true Love
  what it is that I hold
I loved what is good
I loved my true God
with all my heart
with all my might
I had fallen  apart when I found
myself in the dark
someone has broken my heart
Dark Angel ,made his way
into my mind
he showed me things
that brings on much pains
I am standing in the rain
I feel I am about to go insane
the violence is all around me
I am cut very deep from he
My life will never been the same
he gives me so much blames
I questioned all his words
but he holds no self worth
I myself did not want what he holds
he reveal what is dark and cold
like we are apart of the dead
am I losing my head
my mind sees the angry sea
a ship of pain
with many dancing in the rain
I don't no what to think
are what it is I feel
what I felt in my soul
is something from the unknown
Dark Angel ,looks at me
like he is reading my thoughts
I can't put nothing past him
in a world of dreams ,
Oh , how he makes screams
Why did love take flight from me ?  
I cried in so much pain
in pouring rain
with so much shame ,
Dark Angel,  on wing of darkness
fly's over to me
asking me what it is I see
but I never said a thing
he never reaches me too late
this pain of coldness is freezing my blood
  frozen emotions ,
among silvery to a sultry fire
thine envious heart
delight tortured by desire of Dark Angel
things of beauty burn like a  flames
evil ecstasy he has for me
the gloom of dooms is all around me
moments of his lust
I hate this so much
he lied me down with gentle coldness
words of hunger
whispering words in  my ears
dark love to me
He admires my beauty
my body
but most of all is my eyes
and the visions  I hold within
my hands around him
my skin is almost lifeless as his
tears he kissed off my cold face
my lips he kissed
then he bite until blood run thin
upon my skin
he had been looking me up and down
He put me next to him
hope that I will never try to escape.


Poetic Lilly Judy  Emery (c)

Nile River
My voice cries out to the Nile River  
crying over you ;
love me little , love me long even  
in the strongest storms ;  
scattered dreams you not hear with me ,
destruction in the late sun that makes  me run ,
all my hopes and dreams to be set free
from the hurt and hate that stands before me,
frighten at the age of three when my mother
and my father left me ,
Puzzled in ignorance ,
explore by nature of an darken world ,
I set alone and cry in the heat of the night  
No love in sight not in fount of my eyes ,
I would cry out to cleanse all my wounds  
that I held in my heart way to long ,
humiliation from all strangers ,
humiliated by not having no one in my life ,
frightened , force in compelling pain  
praying for rain the never came ,
touched unloved relationship with faults dreams
exploration with so much questions ,
wounded a child of three when my mother  
my father had left me ,
The Nile River is what they gave me ,
a life of pains and shames that will never go away,
Nile River cry's within my veins.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

SEWER RAT

I know I seen a sewer rat going down stream,
Playing along while it sings;
Down by the sewer love is waiting for the rat
hear come a fat cat,
don’t you dear look back at that
or the rat will attic;
because she doesn’t want no other
looking at her lover;
She is a sewer rat that has long teeth
And her breath stinks
But she can get nasty and downright mean,
She does have a bad name
If you know what I’m saying,
She lives near a run-down town,
By the sewer where all the other ugly rats play
To get their way;
She makes traps upon that cat;
She stalkers every move he makes
just to see where he goes,
If he is out playing with other sewer wholes,
that she knows.
She licks and picks her long yellow teeth
While she plays with a long green bean
that was floating down stream,
she goes around telling her lie all over town
that her cat is playing with gay men
just to keep others cats and rate from him.
He old cat has a long story;
That can get kind of boring
That can get her snoring,
Then she thought to her self
maybe she should of stay floating down
the sewer to find more action
for a little more reaction
to the packen,
where she can do some lay backen
on some wet sacken
doing some ripen and tapen
that kept her old cat on his tootise
where he would do some casing
but she knows her old love wouldn’t car
so, she would dare;
she knows there’s a lot of rats down town
but there isn’t one like her own fat cat
that loves to play in the sewer doing
what they love best.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2015
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

KU KLUX ****

Thrill is like a pill that kills,
While I look at the Ku Klux ****
Taken their stand on hot sand,
Ready to take down the darken slaves
In those cold evil ancient days,
The screams are still on the tip of their tongues,
While slaves go out to fight
the KU KLUX ****
they lost their lives
to the hands of those white men,
dead skin for the ravens
the blood stain stand is the history
that ***** away like bats in time
the dead will soon be gone
the red sea will cast ancient dreams
to all who can see;
it all comes straight from the heart
where life has been written
about the forbidden;
I step upon the stained sand
that is covred in sin;
while time clutched at my feet
while I write in blood stain ink,
millions of tears did fall
while they tried to claim the wall,
I see soldiers on their feet
Wherein raincoats;
I ask myself what side are they on?
I feel so ill,
like I had taken the old ancient pill
that kills the thrill.
while I see the stains upon the sand
where the KU KLUX **** once stood
whirring their white hoods,
with blood stain, wooden crosses in their hands
while they burned up the land;
where mills of silence swept over the sand.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I've been redeemed by my merciful lord
he has release me from this evil
patch of thorns
My heart couldn't take no more of this
ungrateful world
my heart of mine was packed with sin  
Of my painful life
my head and my heart was cold as Ice  
now I have been redeemed with the  
Blood of Christ
I was in tangled in evil strife
but my merciful lord cleansed
me and gave me a new  
start in my life and he gave
me a new meaning
To his love I've been redeemed
I was set clean
And I even got to learn God's name
I've started reading my Bible
day and night and taken  
down all that was night right in my life
all my old friends started calling me names
And the on call of old flames
I called out on God's name
he gave me power  
To walk to the high Tower of his love
He is my king who could ever
hurt me if God is with me
I been redeemed I have been washed clean
I don't care what this cold world has to say  
I never want to look back on
what was in my past  
because it has been washed away
by my Lord Jesus  
Who died for me
Who died for his people  
the lord is the only way to live an upright life
He gave me hope
He gave me freedom and thought  
Me who his Father is
God has a name
His name is Jehovah the most high
I've been redeemed by my merciful lord
  a wonderful God now the angels above
will cheer with trumpets
horns, while the wicked
below now consider me
an abomination the path of righteousness
to better day's  
I've been redeemed by my merciful lord
I give him thanks
I give him praise
for saving me with  
His blood letting me know
his Fathers name I  
Dearly love
God has shown me his steadfast love
and so much compassion
for all he has call'ed his own
this cold world of darkness
don't have anything for me
I have been washed clean


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Today I walked alone in the park
Thinking of all the memory's
Of you and me
in summers breeze ,
Oh , how I wish you was still with me.
If I can help another heart to mead
I would tell them our story
to open one's eyes
about what Love can really bring
From breaking up
to making Love
I would tell them to never give up on Love.
Life isn't a game
Life is a true gift from God
Love is another gift God gives
not everyone will find Love
But if you know God
then you know Love
You have to learn from love
even when the heartaches
from Love to death
just do your very best .
this light that shines on the pond
In the park is like a glimpse of your love
You have been always so smart and true
I will always love you
I loved it when we use to walk in the park
holding each others hands
looking at the beautiful  flowers
and all the colored trees with changing leaves,
the leaves of the red and green and bright yellow
will always bring me back to you
I miss the way you sang to me
under that old midnight sky
holding on to me very tight
making wishes upon the stars
while the moon shine so bright
I know so much about Love
because God had sent me you
even now that you are in your rest bed
my heart is still with you .

Poetic Judy Lilly Emery  (c)

Cold as ice
you never had played nice
on that lonely winters night
you had to make me cry
just another time
before you said goodbye
you left me alone
giving me all the blames to hold
while you walked away
being so bold
Oh, how my life became even colder
the rain kept coming down
where I stand on wet ground
you broken me down
I never thought I could move on
the years was harder to face
until I got pass that cold September
now it is you I truly don't remember
now I am standing strong
in a snowy December
with so much Love
too always remember
something you could never give
your heart is cold as ice
and you where never nice
you made my heart break
but that was then .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

TORTURED
Words and lies that cut deep
That makes your heart weep
Makes it hard to sleep
Have you ever see someone tortured?
Bleeding out like ink,
While looking into the eyes
While life is leaving their eyes,
Having no words that could easy the pain
My thoughts of sorrow
lasting longer than tomorrow,
Poets of ancient time
Had seen the ink that was bleed out
While the hearts sink
Words of true knowledge was written
In a world of the forbidden,
Deliberate torture is a sickening
and abhorrent,
bleeding heart are being written
God sees all things;
While the souls cry out in their own
blood stain ink;
Life and Death we all must face
memories and agony's
that evil gave, but in darken dreams
you can see anything of curtly
where winter winds are always calling
where rainstorms are always brewing,
where the flesh made a bed
bones and ashes are in the mirror
that broken the glass
of my beaten down past,
the windows of my life
cut deep with a knife,
praying for God to reclaim my soul,
to lead me out of the pit,
Words and sound kept me bond,
I cried out in merciful tears
But true love never came near,
I got lost into my fears;
clowns of the darken town
are being crowned for their ***** deeds,
while my mind roamed around
my heart wasn't yet found;
while my own spirit is being tortured,
where coldness taken over
while I was being abused;
I felt so used because of Dark Angel;
this world of darkness is a big mess
that gives sickness to the mind,
tortured day and night
Oh, how I can hear the cries
They are now becoming lullabies
in my life;
every day is a darkness of old memories
cut deep at me;
all my pains are written on the wall
for all to read what it is I bleed.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

True Poetic Lilly
So far, you have considered what makes
poetry come to life
You have examined the poetic minds of all time
Certain aspects of it's form,
You have tried so hard to be sensitive to the tone
of the sea of the atmosphere of my poems
as your mind roams to find true meaning of what
is going on in my poetic mind,
But darkness of true sadness came your way
even in the light of your days
This darkness of true sadness takes you deep
on a journey that had only belong to me,
You come to find what it is that holds me down
You will call it what you find of my true poetic mind
everything that I write of it's true actions
of characters of a life I once lived,
Setting in deep darkness of a language of it's kind
The tone of true point of view
The true atmosphere of fear what comes near
the true meaning of poetic Lilly's Life,
The preconception and knowledge I do write
only I have the key to my own poetry.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

MY QUEEN I AM YOUR KNIGHT
My queen, come to me
Not only in your dreams,
If I must I will cut out my heart
Where you won’t take it apart,
I was once you knight
I never left your side,
Until that cold September night
When Dark Angel given, you fright
He took over your life,
He had taken away my queen
And that wasn’t no dream,
But you forgotten me
If only you could see,
I can see you still
And even hear your voice,
At time, I could hear you call out my name,
I can hear you
Feel you
See you
But you look at me as if I am no longer there,
I have two feet
but I could never approach you,
I could never get close to you
But I can still feel your love from far
You are the queen of my heart,
I cannot go to you
But I want too,
I still crave your lips
to kiss all your sweetness,
I’m speechless,
It’s you I will always miss,
One day I will take hold of you
I will grasp you in my heart
In my soul
In my arms
And never let you go,
My heart will always be strong for you
Because we are not two
We are one in love
You are all my emotions
You are the breath I breath
Oh, my dear queen
come back to your knight
and dance with me for life,
you run through my mind
from my blood that pumps to my heart,
I carry you everywhere I go
Your love is the key of me.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Sea Of Dreams
I dwelled along
the sea of dreams
I seen the winter winds
I felt the coldness
upon my skin
I felt the sins of time
I held no pride
but in my eyes
I seen the light.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen of Darken Dreams
Poetic Lilly Emery

Moonlight with mistress eyes
that holds time
in Dark Angels mind
she is the goddess
she is the beauty
with rose colored lips
that Dark Angel hungers to kiss
her heart is full of love
to the one she calls true Love
the God of all things
that gives light in her eyes
the visions to see beyond her dreams
she walks in true elegance
she holds her head up high
for all to see
Moonlight has mistress eyes
but hear heart is never cold
she is a rare delight
in Dark Angels eyes
she can move him like the sea
even in his wild darken dreams
Oh, he is always mean
just to keep her weak
she knows she is only to be tested
for a little while longer
she walks in true beauty
she is an ancient Goddess
even down to this very day
she holds the light in her eyes
that Dark Angel would like to take away .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

A Repentance OF Heart

He stood before the congregation
On blended knees asking Jehovah
To forgive me,
This at one time was a hard thing
For me to do,
I once walked in the dark with me
Head hung down in shame.
I hand been walking in the dark with
All kinds of sins I had made along that
Darken road,
There was no one else to blame for
My shames but me.
Satan used even used all my family
To take me down and made me feel
Like I was some kind clown that every
One kept beating down on the ground,
This was part of Satan his evil plan.
It works for many sad lonely darken years,
He set out to ruin the reputation of me
put an end to this godly sister I once was  
There I was weeping in the wind with a life
Time of deep dark sins,
I would cry out to Jehovah God how could
You love someone like me.
My ten years walking in the dark almost lost
My spiritual heart,
My life I could not bear another year;
So Jehovah sent brothers and sisters
The young and the old
to let me know I am
Not alone.
A repentant heart I truly hold within myself
But I was afraid to stand up for myself.
My sins weighted me down so much I almost
Couldn't stand on Holy grounds,
That's when I realized how easily
This could happen to you or me.
Those without sin can cast the first stone,
Which nobody did.
So, one night alone I set down on hands and
Knees and ask Jehovah God to forgive me,
Then out of know where my eyes could see
My heart was making a new beat of a new
Life working inside of me,
A new woman I became to be,
And all my sins
Had been washed away.
A lesson is here for all of us to see;
Any one can fall to deep in sin just like me.
But all it takes is a repentance of heart
For our Fathers healing to begin in Jesus name
Amen.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Disillusioned Of Darkness
I do not like
the way I feel
I don't like
the state of mind
that I am in
I feel the bitterness
the coldness
emptiness
of his darkness
querulous of mind
thoughts of the unkind
hate is always at my door
leaving me among a life of the poor
I do not yearn for false love
I don't look down on the homeless
but I do dread the dawn's
that holds no light
I do stand up and fight
for what I know is right
I hate to go to bed
because that is where I will sleep
that is where I weep
I have bad dreams of he
Dark Angel never gives me peace
all he gives is darken dreams
that makes me scream
he gives me a world of darkness
a place that always makes me cry
he seems to never leave my side
I feel so disillusioned
my heart holds nothing
but my mind holds all things
my eyes hold visions of time
I am not sick
but I feel sick
dreams are shoots in my mind
like fireworks of hell
my soul is crushed
spirit weak and lost
body sore
I don't like me any more
I don't like what I had become
with a heart always on the run
this dark life is no fun.


Poetic Judy Emery © 1979
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I Can't Get You Off My Mind

My love for you I can not fight  
I hold my pillow hoping it would  
Be you when I get out of bed
I have tried with all my might to get
You off my mind
I close my eyes and all I see you  
Oh this is making me so blue  
because I know I cannot hold you
you are so faraway I cry each and  
every day just wishing I was with you  
what must my poor heart to do ?
block my ears and in my head all I hear  
is you calling out my name even in my dreams
I sat at the end of my bed and I start to pray  
to please send you my way
then when I got trough crying for you  
I looked out my window wishing you was doing
the same calling out each others name
when I got myself back in bed
I gone to sleep having many dreams
seeing you standing right next to me


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

All the beauty belongs to you
and all the makings
of the whole universe
your eyes hold true beauty
I have ever seen
starting with your love for all of us
you given Life to dust of a living
The sun that glint in heavens
that beams down on the world
of your love sent for us
I've seen the seven wonders
of the world
the seas that hold many dreams
nothing like this I have ever seen
The love you hold for me
in my own heart
makes me hold on even longer
when life gets too much for me
to bear in a world that isn't fair
In the light of day
you shine your words of hope
in my eyes that shines so bright
you are the candle
that burns deep into a nasty storm
I've seen the beauty of diamonds and pearls
But they hold nothing to you
the love you give me
had put my spirit on easy
Your love amazing this anyone could see
every enchanted hours
you given me a dance in rain showers
the years is like a new page
holding words of ancient times
that burns down into my soul
words of long ago
lets me see what it is you hold
The sun shall glint its gold
far upon on the seas
upon the land where we all stand
birds will fly on high
deep into the big blue sky
on green valley's will stand the lilies
the Mediterranean Sea
is comfortable with the rushing winds
the waves will move along
like an old ancient song
that plays on
the love of the rain
showers the land in spring
cloudy days of winter
will see the rainbow of colors
the moon gives out its love
to the sea to shines its light
for the ships to sail
so beautifully  
I've seen a sunset
that make me cry
the beauty has touched my eyes
your love touches the sky
all the colors of a rainbow reaching '
across the Sea so beautifully
the breeze of the misty wind
blowing the leaves of autumn
  in all phases of Life
shines a star from far
deep into humans hearts
Your love amazes me
in all my waking hours
My heart shall thrill at break off Dawn
to the meadow larks
at dusk to whippoorwills shades over
me like a dream
I could never doubt your love
I hold your beauty in my eyes
You give me hope,
you give me reason in all seasons
you  given me a love I can believe in
forever faithfully I am yours
your love amazes me
I've prayed for miracles
that never came in darken dreams
I got down on my knees
in the pouring rain
asking in faith for your Light to shine
in my darkest hours
you are my highest tower
you are the candle in my window
that shines deep into my eyes
Your true love had always be with me
even in darken dreams  .
  
Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (C)

OLD FASHION

Just call me old-fashion because
of the humiliations of darken dreams
where things are never what they seem
old fashion is ancient,
But ancient is power to our day,
So, that is who I am,
I will take my stand,
old fashion is a fashion statement,
others make to get their way,
I am old fashion but I look good in it,
blessing is always at my hands,
where the prince takes my hand
with a wedding band to put on my finger,
for our love to last forever,
I’m always on a true journey in something
of ancient, my painting hang on the walls
down that long hall, where fashion
of old ways showed many how to keep their faith,
old fashion is truly something of beauty,
that keeps the spirit strong,
Somewhere over a colorful rainbow
will find something or someone
of beauty that lays upon a beating heart,
that will write in an old fashion way
but will relay what it is that one is trying to say,
in a poem, or in a song, love will move on.
something of ancient time,
which you've thrown away,
holds the mix of you and I,
somewhere under a shadow
there will be a shining light,
my soul had engraved your name
in my heart and it has not erased,
somewhere in my mind,
I will always hold a vision of you,
somewhere in this big old fashion way
our love will always remain.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

SICK BED
Feeling alone, scared
You are never are around
you are always uptown
playing around
deep despair
with no care
You walked around like a king
telling me I need you
I want you to
You do this
our I will do that
your eyes are always on me
even when you’re not with me
You touched my heart
then you started tearing it down
You cut me in so many pieces
beat me down
made me feel like I was a beat up clown
You would yell at me
Saying
Moonlight did you give up your sight yet
of your free will
Then I started feeling I’ll
Dark Angel started getting out of hand
push me down to read my mind
Look at me he would tell me
let me see your eyes
I started to feel lost
confused
dizzy
my eyes started rolling back
I didn't know what was happening to me
I felt I was losing control of myself
Dark Angel
looking deeper and deeper in my mind
Until he seen I still had light
left in my soul
but he couldn't ever see my visions
So he put a nasty spell on me
that made me very I’ll
sent me to bed rest
until I changed
I tried to help myself to fight him
but I couldn't he was too strong for me
He picked me up
started walking to the castle
you could feel the mist of the fog
upon my skin
the creepy sound of the night
ravens keeping an eye out
haven't I made you uncomfortable
Moonlight
I never said a world I am to sick
I couldn't even speak
Dark Angels breath at my face
every time he spoken to me
His world playing over and over  in my heard
Please I cried out to Stop
but he never did
Finely he open the door to the castle
and started walking up stars
to take me to my darken room
I been crying for the pain to end
He puts me on a big kings bed
walked away
locked the door
and that is where I stayed .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

SEPTEMBER RAINS

When I look into your eyes
it is like I am looking in stain glass
seeing a fire burning on high
will you hold restrain from me
I can see the pains you hold
but you stand so bold
just to tell me you have love for me
that I am your queen
but I cried out how can that be
you don't even know me
and this is what he told me
I cast pain upon all who see's you
because I will never let another have you
or love you
You will always be my everything
when Dark Angel taken me down
he looked deep into my crying eyes
I will always be your only one
I am your king of darkness
the one you will always miss
I had cast my spells upon on your head
you will never forget
this cold September night
Dark Angel would tell me his stories
and tell me so many lies
just to keep me on your side
Don't you see what you are doing to me?
you are cutting me way too deep
I am starting to feel I can no longer breath
you are taking life out of me
I know nothing last forever
this is something you tell me most of the time
but when I look into your eyes
I see stain glass of blood running into the sea
I start to cry because that is my life
you handed down to me
in darken dreams
I know deep within my heart
people do change
Why don't you give it a try
then I told him over and over
I could never love a man like you
that would be so hard for me to love someone
when he isn't free to love me back
the way I need him too
your heart is so cold
I 'm starting to think that is all you know
is a life of darkness
So I hold a candle up on high
into that cold September sky
oh did it rain with no end to the pain
this old candle has your name
I tell myself don't feel a shame
because I know I am not the blame
of yesterdays pains
Oh, why September rains
keep the memories a flowing
If we only had taken some time
you could see I had never lied
but now I set out in that cold September rains
crying out so much pains
I try to rest my head upon my bed
but when I fall into a deep sleep
I will see you
what is my poor heart to do
when I still Love You?

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Dancing in the rain
washing away the pain,
darkness, is a place of true madness;
a place the sun never truly shines
sunset you will only crave to see,
and it only give shattered dreams,
I sit alone on those rainy night
crying my eyes out for true love
to open his ears to me;
but only weaknesses come to me,
I am no arthropod that web traps
because I am the one that has fallen in it,
city of lies is always nearby;
Dark Angels; eyes are always on me,
like a wolf looking for food;
He makes me feel so drowsy
when he kisses my lips
I began to float,
like I was light as a feather floating in
the autumn breeze;
with a sweet shyness about me
that takes over me,
when he plays around with my hair
It feels so nicely touched;
I loved that so much,
He would take me in his arms
and he would charm my heart,
rarely he ever makes me feel this away
then he calls me beloved;
this is where I know to wake up,
he cast a spell on me.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

SLAMMING DOORS

Deception is a part of life
that you want to leave behind
Betrayal is its friend of the night
that you want to take
Off your mind and let it run in
summers breeze so free
Without it just being a dream
If you watch closely to your pains
You will only find many doors you left open
And your will never be free
The people that gave so much pain's in your life
They’re not different in the end
So let them go
Let go of the pain and let
the rain come down
Slam that door as hard
as you can and move on in life
You cannot have both so just let go
I know love is bliss
Sadly I will never have a part of this
Just another dream that faded away just as fast
Lost in the moment of one lasting kiss
Something my poor heart miss
Oh this hurts so bad
My heart is taken the beatings
that it should never had
Glad some things are gone
washed away in the rain
But there is still some pains that remain
Slamming doors that yet have not came
You are like a song that I will not miss
But when the rain comes
I will cry out slamming doors
I need your love today
But then I don't need
no more pains from you and all
Those sad lies you tell
I need you now, before you go away
Trying to hold on, I know the cause is lost
Does this mean nothing?
I promised you, my heart
was crossed in the rain of your pains
I've  kept all my  promises to you
Can you say the same?
We're losing touch what is true love
You're driving me insane
I cannot keep playing your games
Are you so heartless to say you still love me
When I saw you with you know who
You must have me confused
My heart was open, the key was yours
But now all I'm doing is slamming the doors
Walking out of this darken life of your lies
Slamming all the doors.
I hate these childish games
Let the rain pour because
I'm slamming this door .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Everlasting dreams
will always be apart of me
my spirit is weak
my light is always on dim
but the visions of time
will always shine
deep within my eyes
like a star that shines from far
eternity I do sleep
hopeless sorrow
with no tomorrow
cold reality haunts over me
hearts are broken
spirits are sunken
a life with no token
everything has been broken
holding on to no devotions
deep dark passions
are everlasting
Pains, Rains,Shames of guilt
will always be with me
in everlasting dreams
that always makes me scream
will always be with me
upon crying sea  .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)