bleeding into the day
whispering to the sky
hug me to sleep

let me be my own
let me embrace myself
I want to shine like a rainbow
teardrops only make me grow
flowers bloom inside my veins

I want to find my home
discover the untold secrets
that this city holds

running
in the rain
in this heat
I want to go
somewhere no one knows

Skin over fat over muscle over bone
Lashes fall, hair falls too
Teeth fall
******* droop
Skin crackles
Eyes tire
Fingers crumble
Too much time left, no time at all
Bone inside skin mushed with fat stored in muscle
Guaranteed recipe to drool
Bottles of wine and sparkling water
Big salad bowl is what you are in lunacy
Crystal clear from the outside
Inside inward outward
Lost in direct directions
Entrails wrapped around the neck
Snaking under the satin cloak
Forming bumps and jiggly jello waves
Insides are alive in perpetual motion
Betraying your own self
Killing what was left
To build a new something
A brand new anything
Out of scratch and debris
Out of blood and kneecaps
Out of arteries and vessels
Ties and knots
Stabilizing the masterpiece
No brains remains
A happy catastrophe

You misunderstand me
my heart is iridescent

I want to lay in a field of flowers
Of all kinds

let the thorns
sink into my skin

I'm lost at sea
I can't find the right direction
to find the land

I never feel like I'm home
even when I'm laying on my own bed

just want to hear
of how it was
when we were younger

tell me
how I didn't mind

tell me how
it was
when we were younger

how we never cried

never looked up to the sky

It was one morning

when the light
suddenly disappeared

I begin to notice
feel my worries

that the sun isn't so high in the sky
anymore

then it came as a thought
I never would've thought
it like this

how
when we were younger
we played around
and never went to sleep so early

You mistake me

I'm not the same girl
I have a grey mind
a vortex in my head

My heart is overflowing

bleeding into the leaves;
grass

I just want to chase after
the days
when we were younger

Just the other day,
someone asked me,
which day is
the other day.
One day of the other days
of the week,
I said.
Monday to Friday is
five days away,
while Friday to Monday
is just three days.
Really funny, isn't it.
Is this a mathematical error
and miscalculation or
just another maths equation.
Why is this so.
Is the algebraic algorithms wrong
or it is just configured to just fix
a mathematical problem.
Xy plus Y and you subtract
the y in Xy then multiply it by 10,
your head spined
and finally they asked you
to solve the problem.
They didn't know that
the problem of the problem
is the problem.
And they wish you a
very merry Xmas
but completely forgot that,
there's absolutely no
X in Christmas.
And someone the other day was,
trying so hard to convince me
that the symbol sign of fish inside
the book I'm reading means
Jesus and a symbol of
a dove especially the white one
represent the Holy Spirit.
Confusion within confusion
is very confusing.
What can we say.
What can we speak.
How can we justify ourselves.
If you ask me,
who will I ask.
So don't ask me because,
I really don't know the answer.
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