If I could tell you
theories
illusions
visions
of love stories

if you were never a
fake
reckless
*****
the future would have been glorious

if I were to look at you i would see
a wounded soul
a seared heart
regrets and malice
pain,pain and pain

if you're a star then
refuse to be broken
refuse to be shaken
refuse to just exist and start living

His arms were wrapped around me
And I knew that I was finally free
He had the eyes that made me see
What happiness could ever be

Under the stars, we were dancing
For our love began overflowing
My heart made him my king
As I was looking for the ring

In the fresh dawn, I rose
Looking for him after a doze
I lost him; I suppose
Then my heart abruptly froze

I still did wait
I had the faith
For this love was built by fate
Even if he would return too late

I let your life take control of
my actions and thoughts
because you were all I could
think about

the drugs you made me
consume were making me
not the same me that
I really wanted to be

every time you kissed me
it was like poison being
injected inside of me
and I was addicted

the words you spoke
made me feel like
I was something

but now im nothing
and you are my everything.

you put my mind through hell
you're killing me, man
but all you care about is who's having *** with you tonight
I constantly thing about you
but you only think about getting laid
your love is actually a drug to me
its toxic and im dying
but you're too busy
worrying about who's gonna be
******* you tonight
to see how much you're really hurting me.

We talk again
5 months later and sadly,
nothing has changed.
You are so oblivious
how crazy in love i am with you,
you share with me the girl you wanna bang.
Do you have too much respect for me,
or do you think I'm ugly?

I'm missing you
and I bet you're feeling nothing.
I crave your cigarette tasting lips
and I want them for myself.
I am so jealous of all the girls
that you share your beautiful body with.
I am so sad on this August night
because you still aren't mine.

i believed
in breathing
until i realized
every breath
i take
brings me
closer
to death

The tears comfort me
Offering me sweet release from the numbness.
I feel whole.
Sadness and happiness blend into one
As the water runs over my face.

I'm thinking too much again
Every night it's the same.
Regrets, anxiety, fear, guilt
Never go away.
Each one a different voice in my head
Telling me they hate me.

But tonight there are tears.
And as they leave my body
So does some of the pain
And I feel whole again.