As I sit here and watch you play
My heart plays
A tune of its own

My heart plays a tune
That rings out
I love you

My heart plays a tune
That says to
Stick around

My heart plays a tune
That hopefully
Means something to you

I sit here on the floor
Waiting
Just contemplating

Should I call
Or should I not?
Because I don't want to wake you up
And I've already called once
Today

I sit here and I wait
Hovering over the button
Hesitating

Should I call
Or just suffer in my silence
Because if you don't pick up
That's how It'll be anyway

But the chance
That you might Just answer and talk
Makes me sit here and hover

Because the sound of your voice
Already makes me feel better
And you know just what to say
To make me feel less sad
To not feel as bad

So I'll sir here and hover
Contemplating
And just
Waiting
............

I wanna fall asleep
On call
While I look at you
And remember everything you do

I wanna laugh with you
On call
While I smile at you
Remembering all the things
You make me feel

I wanna smile with you
On call
While I blush
Remembering all the things
You said

I wanna hold you
In person
Well I think of
The memories
That the scent of you brings

I wanna kiss you
In person
Well my mind fills with nothing
But the soothing sweetness
Of nothing

I wanna hold onto you
In person
As you pick me up
And remind me why
I never gave up on love

Reading in the night
With just a lil bit of light

I start to think
Is it really my that he likes?

Or is the person in the book
Who seems very much like me
Right?

Is she right when she wonders
If it's just who
He seemed to first be

Because things seem to be fading
Much more than growing
And that's not something I can bare

So tell me
Is it me you like?

Or did you like my first presence
That shone much more bright?

It counts as consent
Because I never said no
But my mind was screaming
Please stop
Just go

It counts as consent
Because I didn't push you away
But my eyes were pleading
And trying to say
Go away

It counts as consent
If I don't say a thing
But you ignore the pain
And the fear in my eyes

You don't care for me
You just want to look at my body

So please just go
Leave me alone