She was perfect but not for him.
She was perfect for the man who had felt love in his heart since birth
not the self destructive fiend wishing for an early burial bathed in earth

He lusted for glimmers of happiness taking what he could get and abandoning any hope of seeing more than what he believed he deserved

I'm in love with who I used to be
Coming home from school carefree
Now I won't wake up without coffee
I cant get to work because now it's just me
No dog no girl no baby

I'm in love with the sweetie I've never met
Dark eyes looking at the world with curiosity
Growing up to dance or play sports or share a drink with me
Wine beer I wouldn't have cared
Instead I'm lost here in my own head

But I get it they all tell you it's better that way  A 20 something still in school still a fool unable to man up and take responsibility

But I've already planned the nursery
Light Blue walls a lazy boy and a crib carpeted incase they trip
I don't have that though
All I have are the thoughts in my head
A 20 something with a million regrets.