Sleep doesn’t seem to want to find me tonight
Instead my thoughts keep going to that special night
Maybe my favorite night we spent together
One that I will always remember forever

October nineteenth, twenty-eighteen
I’ll remind you of the romantic scene
The most beautiful night
I may have ever seen

Beneath the Arc De Triomphe we stood
Watching cars circle ‘round the neighborhood
The air was cool and the sky was dark
And up the arc we began to embark

Climbing up the stairs, you didn’t feel well
I saw in your eyes, you wanted the leave
But on the way up I tripped and fell
And somehow it knocked you out of that spell

And so we got to the top and what did we see
The Eiffel Tower, the skyline and the rest of Paris
The city of love all surrounding us
The feeling was palpable, we didn’t need to discuss

And on I could go, for hour and hours
Describing that night and the feeling it empowers
That’s why I take it wherever I go
A photo in my wallet that I never show

Which helps to remind me of the greatest night
With the greatest person, my shining light
Your hands in mine as we embraced in the chill
For that moment, life was completely fulfilled

It’s strange to me, I wonder if you feel the same
But when I sit back and ignore the pain
I think to the future and what it will be
I still always see you, right beside me

I’ve had this image for many years
That hasn’t been washed out by all the tears
Despite being apart and all the heartbreak
I know when I see it, it’s no mistake

Your hand in mine as we travel the road
The road unknown but with love its bestowed
The path for us it's out in the distance
I know we can get there with a little persistence

So with patience I wait for you to come around
Because true love can’t be fully unwound
It will always be there, like me waiting for you
To come back to my arms and show you its true

My love for you and our souls intertwined
That thing that most people only hope to find
It’s not always clear, not always defined
But you know how it feels with your hand in mine

"Fight for your dreams
and your dreams will fight for you"
A quote that I read
And what I want to do

But my dreams are of you
And what our life will be like
When, one day again
Our love will strike

You're the woman of my dreams
You always have been
Just thinking of us
And our future, I grin

So for now I will fight
Fight from afar
But still I just know
You're my shining star

And because of this fight
And all of my prayers
I believe that this dream
Has support from upstairs

Just know that this day
And all those before
And all those to come
My love, I can't ignore

And that's why I fight
And continue to believe
That one day my dream
You and I will achieve

The hardest part of these days
Is that everywhere I go and everything I see
Reminds me of you, in so many ways

The beauty of the city, when I walk out the door
Shining bright for me to see
Reminds me of what we had before

I avoid at every cost, the places that we went
It will just further my fall
Into this deep dark descent

Of missing you and loving you as much as ever
I’m holding on for dear life
If you come back, whenever

My hope is strong as is my resolve
Because I know in my heart
This love will never dissolve

So I fight through the pain and embrace the struggle
With the hope and belief
We may have another snuggle

But until that day, the days will remain dark
Until you return
And on our next adventure we embark

The hardest part of these days
Is that everywhere I go and everything I see
Reminds me of you, in so many ways

The beauty of the city, when I walk out the door
Shining bright for me to see
Reminds me of what we had before

I avoid at every cost, the places that we went
It will just further my fall
Into this deep dark descent

Of missing you and loving you as much as ever
I’m holding on for dear life
If you come back, whenever

My hope is strong as is my resolve
Because I know in my heart
This love will never dissolve

So I fight through the pain and embrace the struggle
With the hope and belief
We may have another snuggle

But until that day, the days will remain dark
Until you return
And on our next adventure we embark

This road we’re on it started then
Two college kids, way back when

We started walking down the road
Together, but not getting too close
But as we moved along the trail
We inched closer with a brave exhale

The road ahead was really tough
Full of hills and turns and lots of bumps
But we carried on, walking in line
And eventually, your hand in mine

The bumps and hills, they came and went
And each incline followed by descent
Until we reached a fork in the road
A blind turn ahead, no future showed

You said “let's take the path to the left”
But the ears that it fell on had simply gone deaf
So I went right and was all alone
Staring into the great unknown

I ran back to the fork we had passed
And yelled your name and screamed and asked
“Can I still come and take your trail?!”
I heard only silence, to no avail

So back to my path I have to go
What is in store, I do not know
I wish I had followed you before
Together this, we could explore

Looking back as I walk alone
Thinking back to how we’ve grown
With each step I hope and I pray
Our paths to reunite and adjoin one day

The thought of not seeing you - I shiver and shake
This feeling. The Pain. I can hardly take
What if I spiral and fall down alone?
Would you care? Has your love for me become fully outgrown?

Why did you give me that sliver of hope?
Did you want me to feel this? Did you want me to mope?
Did you want me to head down this slippery *****
Of love, regrets, and heartbreak to cope?

Is that, after weeks, what you wanted to hear?
About every time that I shed a tear?
More than I can count, I promise you that
The loss of your love is too hard to combat

Or did you really mean that one day you might
come around and again see the light?
That sometime in the weeks months or years ahead
You might realize that it’s me instead?
The person with you when you sit back and dream
The person who completes your romantic team

I choose to believe that’s what you had in mind
When you dropped on me, that specific line
And that’s why I sit and stair at my phone
Waiting for the day that my heart can come home

Waiting for you to feel like I do
That we belong together like we always knew

At list I did - from the very start
I knew in, my mind, my soul and in my heart
It started that very first afternoon  
And each day since, you’ve become more of my moon

The state I’m in, is one of torment
One of agony and grief, filled with regret

A person can have sixty thousand thoughts a day
And all of mine, have to do with you, some way

I dream of you all day and night
Reliving memories and future delight

But sleep never comes, I can never get rest
I guess that comes from a soul that’s possessed

Possessed by a lover that doesn’t want me
And depressed because you want to be free

But even still, with all this pain
Deep in love with you, I remain
Even more now, I can’t explain
Being apart is simply driving me insane

There may be a day, that sleep comes again
That food regains flavor, I just wonder when?

I fear it may be, only when you return
That then, this sadness and pain I’ll unlearn

That with sharing a bed and a quiet meal
My heart and soul will start to heal

But until that day, I continue to yearn
For the day that our hearts can resume their loving burn

If there is life that you want to live
I would wait forever and still forgive

I don’t care if I’m plan B, or C, or after Z
If there are people you want to see
As long as you eventually get to me
I’d be happy to be patient, indefinitely

To me, there is only one path I see
It starts and ends with you and me
So if I need to wait for you
Until you you recognize it too
Then wait, I shall, as long as it takes
Despite each days endless heartbreaks
It will all be worth it, hopefully, soon
When our love reunites in harmonic tune

This hurt, this pain that I currently feel
It's so severe, impossible to conceal
I took another leap and confessed my love
Hoping I'd get some help from above

But apparently you didn't want to respond
Just ignored my words, and our previous bond
I can't understand why you won't acknowledge me
Even just to say, "It can never be"

Instead you allow me to try and try again
Hanging on to false hope until, I don't know when
And now you know that you take over my days
Thinking of you and missing you, and imagining your gaze

But still I remain hopeful, filled with faith and prayer
That one day again, an adventure we'll share
You will always have my love and a piece of my heart
No matter the distance or the time we're apart

So please take your time, and consider my love
I know you and I can still fit like a glove
And when you come around, please come and find me
Because by your side, is where I'll always want to be

I struggle now and every day
And I wish I didn't feel this way
A part of me is gone and dead
Filled with sadness and grief instead

The spiral down has not been slow
Deeper and deeper into depression I flow
Without your love and presence here
My mental state grows more severe

But yet I hope more than ever before
That eventually our love will restore
And when I reach out to say hello
You will still care and your love will show

Today feels like a better day to me
Not that I’ve moved on, or let go, or given up hope
In fact it’s the opposite…
Weird, I know.

I woke up today, with this feeling inside
A hunch, no other way to describe
That you were coming ‘round, thinking about me
And for some reason I felt it, you wanted to see:

See how I am, and how I’m adapting?
Have I taken this in stride, how am I reacting?
Am I happy and strong, going on without you?
We both know, any joy I show, I’m completely acting.

I’m empty without you, completely hollow
And trust me, alone in my sadness I wallow.
And most of the day, my tears I swallow
Because my love and loyalty for you, I follow.

So there’s the answer to your question, I hope
I’ve not moved on, I continue to mope.
So please, if you are wondering if you should reach out
Yes, please do it, without a doubt.

My heart would jump and skip a beat
The shock and awe would knock me out of my seat
My joy and happiness would not be so discrete
Hearing from you would be the sweetest treat.

So hopefully it comes but maybe it won’t.
If you have reservations, I urge you please don’t.
Nothing has changed, I still love you the most
And still dream of adventures from coast to coast.

Today was a day filled with more of the same
Struggling alone with the hurt and the pain
In love with you I still remain
Hoping to return to your life's campaign

The conflict within, playing a mental game
The heat of my love a never ending flame
And the rain of this pain as it tries to contain
My hopes and prayers to return to your domain

To let you go, the flame must go out
But for now the inferno remains ever stout
And from the ash my hope is a blossom will sprout
And grow into a tree of love throughout

With bark a strong as a diamond shell
To protect us from this current hell
Of being apart and feeling unwell
But will grow with our lives and our love to propel

I would wait at least a year or two
Or even more to be with you
Give you the time and space you need
To do all that you need to do

I hope you don’t forget my love
My care, my support, you’re far and above
The most important person that exists in my life
And even now when I dream, you become my wife

If you only knew how I felt today
What I tell to God every time I pray
How my poetry explains that I’m distraught
Maybe you would give it a second thought

And then I could show you for the rest of time
How happy and thankful I am that you’re mine
And I’d show it in a different way each day
For this opportunity, is all that I pray

The chance to show you my love again
No matter the place, just say where and when
And I’ll be there full of love for you
That’s how I know that my love is true

Hey baby, I hope you are doing well
Better than me as I go through hell
I wanted to reach out, to say a couple of things
And perhaps pull a little on your heart strings

As we stand now, I continue to struggle
The grief, regret, depression I juggle
A day at a time, I keep moving along
But life without you, still just feels so wrong

I want you to smile and to know that you're happy
And I apologize if this gets a bit sappy
But its true that I love you and miss you more than ever
Searching for your love, like a pirate for treasure

I would love to talk and to hear from you
To hear about your life and everything that is new
And to tell you that I sought out some therapy
For my thoughts I needed some clarity

As I continue to focus and work on my health
I do it for us not only for myself
If you ever decide that you want to come back
I want to be ready with love to attack

But still I sit and try to respect your space
Because I don't know your thoughts and your place
But I do know now more than ever before
That the only thing I desire is the love that is yours

Another week has come and gone
And more and more I feel withdrawn
But not from you or how I feel
Withdrawn from life and what is real

I spend all day looking at my phone
Hoping hoping to hear from you alone
Daydreaming of you and what the future could hold
What our lives would be like after we grow old

That call or text, it hasn’t come
As I spiral down in gloom and glum
But without hope, I am not
Because I believe you haven’t forgot

About our love and chemistry
And you know just what you mean to me
So when you’re ready to come on home
My mind will no longer roam

In thoughts of what could have been
And instead will focus on the life we’re in
And how we love deep down, within
So that our forever can begin

I had a dream last night; I guess more of a nightmare
It was of you, like all these nights, but this gave me a scare

I went outside along the water and started on a walk
And after a few steps I thought I saw you in the dark
I walked along to see your face and get a closer look
Hoping you were there for me and looking for a talk

You told me you had found someone, you thought he was the one
And that was fine with me until I saw what he had done
Your eyes were bruised and bloodshot and your face was swelling up
I guess this man thought hurting you would make him feel more tough

I couldn’t bear the sight of you in excruciating pain
I tried to stay composed but all my efforts were in vain
The thought of someone hurting you was too much too contain
But you came to me so by your side, I knew must remain

I took you in and cleaned you up and made you feel at home
It killed me to know your pain and how much you had felt alone

And then I woke at 4am in a puddle of my own sweat
There was no chance of dozing back, I was way too upset
So up I rose, after my prayers, and went out to that spot
Thankful not to see you there; hurt you he had not
And there I sat for hours all alone, tears in my eyes
Thinking of my love for you as I took in the sunrise