This feeling inside, it’s bare and hollow
My soul is empty as I continue to wallow
Filling the cracks with sadness and regret
Constant pain and heartache, unable to forget
Your face, your scent, the feel of your skin
You are burned deep into my core, within
I guess that’s why you visit me at night
In my dreams, the only time that things can feel right
I tried to give you my entire heart
Knowing if you left I would fall apart
I had no choice, it was desperation
‘Cause I couldn’t bear our separation
But I was too late and I don’t blame you at all
This is my fault, and mine alone as I continue to fall
And my only peace is the hope that I keep
That somewhere buried within and deep
That you think of me when you fall asleep
And sometimes those thoughts may cause you to weep
Because you know too we are meant to be
And you need some time, some time to see
Some time to be free, all alone from me
But one day you may wake up and agree
That the person you want to be with is me

Another week has come and gone
And more and more I feel withdrawn
But not from you or how I feel
Withdrawn from life and what is real

I spend all day looking at my phone
Hoping hoping to hear from you alone
Daydreaming of you and what the future could hold
What our lives would be like after we grow old

That call or text, it hasn’t come
As I spiral down in gloom and glum
But without hope, I am not
Because I believe you haven’t forgot

About our love and chemistry
And you know just what you mean to me
So when you’re ready to come on home
My mind will no longer roam

In thoughts of what could have been
And instead will focus on the life we’re in
And how we love deep down, within
So that our forever can begin

Have you felt pain that can take over your life?
A broken bone perhaps or been stabbed by a knife?
How long does it last, once you start to heal?
Eventually you’d regain that normal feel

Well what about the pain that in me
Its deep to my core nobody can see
The pain of asking god each and every day
“Point me to the path to to bring her back, I pray”

“I thank you for the moments that we shared together
The love, adventure, joy and laughter
I ask just one thing that I know is a lot
Reunite us again, before I completely rot”

Each day I utter this message alone
Hoping god will listen from his mighty throne
And that he will know that my words are full and true
And my message will be delivered to you

Until he does this pain will not cede
It remains inside no matter how much I plead
The fact that we remain apart
Will continue to pain me deep in my heart

I struggle to find the words today
But not because I have nothing to say
In fact it’s quite the opposite
It’s all the things I always admit

How much I love and care for you
And that I will forever too
I wish that you would feel it too
Then maybe we could start anew

And I could show how special you are
You’re more than just my shining star
You’re my entire universe
I guess explains how much this hurts

Not seeing you or speaking at all
My sanity continues to fall
Without your presence in my life
I face continuous internal strife

A cycle full of blame and regret
I spend my days in tears, upset
Looking at how far we’ve strayed
Due to the mistakes I made

So I continue on down this broken road
Heart in shambles my steps are slowed
Hoping you’ll come after me
To bring me back and let me be

The one for you to to be your man
From New York City to Japan
The lover that you really deserve
Your happiness to be preserved

Through thick and thin to have your back
To get our love right back on track
You and me for eternity
Just like the way it’s supposed to be

I’m sitting in the surf zone with some unrelenting waves
Glued to the coarse, tan sand below, it’s been like this for days

I sit and wait all by myself, knowing what will come next
A wave of love and missing you, the strength of which is flexed

It picks up speed and builds up strength and slams into my chest
My heart my soul my spirit too, gets violently oppressed

The wave moves by and I can breathe, a sudden calm sets in
But looking out I see what’s next, a new wave will begin

And this is how I spend my days, locked into the sand
Taking the brunt of each crashing wave, too much for me to stand

I dream of when we will rejoin, standing side by side
We’d feel so loved and full inside, the waves could be denied

Suddenly the tide would die, and we could stand at sea
Looking at the vast horizon, In love, we would be free

Free from the waves and endless pain, that comes without remorse
Free to carry on our lives, together, back on course

I know you want me to let you go
To let you leave and let you grow
Away from me indefinitely
With no promise to return to me

And part of me wishes I would
Just lay down and let you go if I could
But that would be not fighting for you
And doing a disservice to what we’ve been through

I once read something about love
And in my mind it shines above
All logic and all common sense
Because my love for you is immense

“I’d rather look like a fool for love
Than be a slave to my own ego”

And in my mind I know the odds
Which is why I keep looking to god
Because I could hear “no” a hundred times
And you could read me a hundred lines

And I would still be in love with you
And your love I would still pursue
Because one day you might change you mind
And again our love would be intertwined

But this time would be for ever and ever
Our lives together, an adventurous endeavor
That would end only when death came around
When our lives and love were renowned and profound

This road we’re on it started then
Two college kids, way back when

We started walking down the road
Together, but not getting too close
But as we moved along the trail
We inched closer with a brave exhale

The road ahead was really tough
Full of hills and turns and lots of bumps
But we carried on, walking in line
And eventually, your hand in mine

The bumps and hills, they came and went
And each incline followed by descent
Until we reached a fork in the road
A blind turn ahead, no future showed

You said “let's take the path to the left”
But the ears that it fell on had simply gone deaf
So I went right and was all alone
Staring into the great unknown

I ran back to the fork we had passed
And yelled your name and screamed and asked
“Can I still come and take your trail?!”
I heard only silence, to no avail

So back to my path I have to go
What is in store, I do not know
I wish I had followed you before
Together this, we could explore

Looking back as I walk alone
Thinking back to how we’ve grown
With each step I hope and I pray
Our paths to reunite and adjoin one day