Sleep doesn’t seem to want to find me tonight
Instead my thoughts keep going to that special night
Maybe my favorite night we spent together
One that I will always remember forever

October nineteenth, twenty-eighteen
I’ll remind you of the romantic scene
The most beautiful night
I may have ever seen

Beneath the Arc De Triomphe we stood
Watching cars circle ‘round the neighborhood
The air was cool and the sky was dark
And up the arc we began to embark

Climbing up the stairs, you didn’t feel well
I saw in your eyes, you wanted the leave
But on the way up I tripped and fell
And somehow it knocked you out of that spell

And so we got to the top and what did we see
The Eiffel Tower, the skyline and the rest of Paris
The city of love all surrounding us
The feeling was palpable, we didn’t need to discuss

And on I could go, for hour and hours
Describing that night and the feeling it empowers
That’s why I take it wherever I go
A photo in my wallet that I never show

Which helps to remind me of the greatest night
With the greatest person, my shining light
Your hands in mine as we embraced in the chill
For that moment, life was completely fulfilled

Today feels like a better day to me
Not that I’ve moved on, or let go, or given up hope
In fact it’s the opposite…
Weird, I know.

I woke up today, with this feeling inside
A hunch, no other way to describe
That you were coming ‘round, thinking about me
And for some reason I felt it, you wanted to see:

See how I am, and how I’m adapting?
Have I taken this in stride, how am I reacting?
Am I happy and strong, going on without you?
We both know, any joy I show, I’m completely acting.

I’m empty without you, completely hollow
And trust me, alone in my sadness I wallow.
And most of the day, my tears I swallow
Because my love and loyalty for you, I follow.

So there’s the answer to your question, I hope
I’ve not moved on, I continue to mope.
So please, if you are wondering if you should reach out
Yes, please do it, without a doubt.

My heart would jump and skip a beat
The shock and awe would knock me out of my seat
My joy and happiness would not be so discrete
Hearing from you would be the sweetest treat.

So hopefully it comes but maybe it won’t.
If you have reservations, I urge you please don’t.
Nothing has changed, I still love you the most
And still dream of adventures from coast to coast.

Today’s one of those days, that just feels so numb
In so many ways, just down in the dumps.

I’m missing you  and what you would say
How you’d make me laugh. How you’d make my day.

If I could see your face or even just talk
Maybe share a meal or go for a walk

I’m sure it would help to get me to smile
And maybe laugh a little for the first time in a while.

Instead we’re apart, no contact at all
What I would do, to receive your call.

That you miss me too and this isn't working out
That we should be together, without a doubt.

And that will be the happiest day I’ve had
The joy will outweigh all of the recent bad.

Do you love me? Do you miss me?

Do you spend your days dreaming
Of a time when life had meaning
Do you spend your nights thinking
About how it could have been
Does food have any flavor
Or is it simply bland nutrition
Does music have a melody
Or is it a constant din

Does sunshine bring you any warmth
Or does your skin stay cold
Does the night sky bring you peace of mind
Or do you reflect on times of old
And do you feel some happiness
smiling from ear to ear
Or do you wear a mask and say
“Everything is good here”

Because I love you and I miss you
and those things, I do
I’m lost at sea without a course
No captain; that is you

I try to keep on moving
but there’s one thing that I know
There no one I’d rather be with,
no place I’d rather go

With you is where my soul belongs
I know that in my Heart
Not seeing you is killing me
I can’t bear to be apart
You’ve been my one since early on
if I knew it or not
I love you and I miss you and
you’ll always have my heart