Tell me what you see
when you look at me
Do you see everything
I try so hard to hide
Would you like my little quirks?
Can I tell you
my deepest darkest secrets?
Will you run?
Or will you stay?
And accept me
warts and all

I feel the poison coursing through my veins
Attacking body and mind
But nobody sees it
Cos it isn’t something that shows up on a test
Or can be treated with a pill
And knowing I’m not alone in my struggles
How is that supposed to help me
Should I feel relieved?
Feel a weight fall off my shoulders?
Well that’s wishful thinking
And only pushes me down deeper
And somehow makes me feel that much lonelier

How badly must i bleed
For you to notice?
How close to the edge
Must I go
For you to care?
When will I be enough?
Who do I need to be
For anyone to notice me?
For anyone to love me?

In a dark corner of my mind
I see a faint flicker
Sometimes a nasty illusion
Other times a clear light in the dark
A promising fresh wind
A small whisper of hope
Beckoning different thoughts
Colourful and bright
The sound of a new dawn
On the horizon