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101 · May 2020
Let Go
Nikki May 2020
Sometimes
I try to let go
Of everything on my mind
And feel a smile
Reach my lips
I let go of the past
And the future
And feel that rush of freedom
That clarity in my mind
And I can finally breathe again
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101 · Mar 2020
The End
Nikki Mar 2020
I dread my last day here
I always have
It used to bring me to tears
as a little girl, alone in my bed

But I also welcome it
to see an end
to the endless war in my mind
to face the uncomplicated silence

Far from this beautiful
yet ugly place
No longer imprisoned in a nightmare

Finally unshackled
free as a bird
no more pain
no more ugliness
only beautiful freedom
100 · Apr 2020
Quirky
Nikki Apr 2020
Tell me what you see
when you look at me
Do you see everything
I try so hard to hide
Would you like my little quirks?
Can I tell you
my deepest darkest secrets?
Will you run?
Or will you stay?
And accept me
warts and all
100 · Apr 2020
Show Me
Nikki Apr 2020
Show me everything
you think you should hide
Don't hold back
And neither will I

Never hide the best parts
I want to see it all
every part of you
That is what I signed up for

So please show me yours
and I'll show you mine
90 · Apr 2020
Empty
Nikki Apr 2020
Your touch
Brings me back
To nights
Full of regret

An empty bed
A hollow aching

A life never lived
Without love
Without your touch
90 · Nov 2022
Notice me
Nikki Nov 2022
How badly must i bleed
For you to notice?
How close to the edge
Must I go
For you to care?
When will I be enough?
Who do I need to be
For anyone to notice me?
For anyone to love me?
85 · Nov 2022
A happy beginning
Nikki Nov 2022
Always the lonely passenger
In the empty train car
Imagining carefree laughter
And mindless banter

In search of
A little flicker of hope
To know that there could be more to life
Than those empty,
Agonizingly lonely years.
That it was leading me
To my happy ending
And my happy beginning
83 · Jan 2020
My valley
Nikki Jan 2020
Some roads lead to idyllic forgotten valleys
With quant little streams
Breathtaking views
A colourful painting bursting with life

Other roads spit you out
In loud and crowded places
The colour and life ****** out
Doubt and fear ready to swallow you whole

You are my valley
And I miss how you could always calm me down
Even at my worst
Just by being there
38 · Sep 22
A New Dawn
Nikki Sep 22
In a dark corner of my mind
I see a faint flicker
Sometimes a nasty illusion
Other times a clear light in the dark
A promising fresh wind
A small whisper of hope
Beckoning different thoughts
Colourful and bright
The sound of a new dawn
On the horizon
hopeful?

— The End —