NK - Hello Poetry

NK 17h

Deaf

My soul is dying
It's dying
I can hear it
It's crying

It's light is fading
It's being swallowed
By the dark
I plead

I yearn to find words
That truly belongs to me
I pressed my palm
Through the surface of my skin

Through my bones
And into my heart
Haunted by the fear
Of the nothingness inside

I bore my nails
Unearthing my flesh
Crying as I touched the mist
It's a hollow space, nothing left

I know there's something there
It's not missing, it's lost
I can feel its presence
It's calling me there

It's begging to be heard
It screams its struggles
Only for it to reach a void

I think
I've gone deaf
To my own voice

I can't hear my own truest words anymore. I can't describe how I feel. I'm looking for ways to tell these silent cries, but no words can't make me understand how I feel. Maybe I've gone deaf to my own voice, and that scares me.

#rawemotions #feelinglost #deaf #soul

NK 22h

Let Me Cry

Take me to the movies
Tell me something you mean
Give me something I can cry about
Give me something I can feel

I've been miserable
My heart's been impaired
My mind's enraged
As if I would break

But these tears
It won't come out
Because I'm afraid
Please, let me cry

I think I was taught unconsciously to ignore my feelings. Especially the little stuff that would make me upset. But lately, these little upsetting moments keep pilling up, but I can't cry, because somehow it's too trivial. I want to find a big enough of an excuse so tears can fall down my eyes. Like movies, something touching or scary. But I think I'm afraid showing vulnerability.

#rawemotion #selfreflection #innerthoughts #fear #selfexpression #melancholy #softspoken #lostinthought

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