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Bandages,
They do not help,
The blood just soaks on through,
No matter how many I put on,
It will not stop.

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Blood soaked,
The wrist is covered in blood,
No way I can stop it.

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I look into my sisters eyes,
She is pleading me to help her,
As the blood drains from her wrists,
There is nothing I can do.

I look in the mirror,
darkness swirls around my head,
It's like a swarm of flies,
I wish I could just die...

Ok so I'm a recovery addict have been for a year and three months, Well that was the case before last Saturday, I ****** up, was messing around with a "friend" of mine and we got high af and then we messed around with each other if you get the jist.
I just feel like **** knowing I let myself down and all my loved ones. But I'm not going to let that bother me. Im gon fight it and push myself to do better and beat my record. Any support from you guys would be amazing. Love all you guys

Sometimes I feel like no one cares... They never listen to me. People walk by me on the streets and give me a look of disgust. Just because I wear chains, bulky rings, leather jacket and a flat bill. IN THE SUMMER!!!!  The lease I can do is help take it to your car. That is who I am. I've been through things most people do not go through everyday. I'm a disgrace to my family, they do not understand why I am like this.

Sometimes I feel like no one appreciates me... The other day at work, I got called up to the registers to help an older lady with her grocery. The moment she saw me she said that she can handle it. My coworker just gave me a sad smile. I WORK MY *** OFF TO KEEP THOSE **** SHELVES FULL OF PRODUCTS RUNNING BACK AND FORTH EVERY ******* DAY!!!!!! At the end of the day I am so stressed and exhausted that once I step foot in my room, I fall to the ground and curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. I am 17 years old and I am already getting joint pain everywhere. I just want to end it all right here right now. I have school, work and not to mention the hell I have to go back home to.


PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME

I am the reason why darkness flows through me,
It's like a black pool of nothing,
It's there but at the same time it's not,
I never knew what it meant,
But it came to me one dark night,
It's here because of what others have done to me,
And what I've done to others.

Darkness,
There is nothing to see,
Pitch Black,
Only darkness surrounds me.

Coldness,
There is nothing to keep me warm,
Really cold,
Coldness surrounds me like a swarm.

No Cure,
There is nothing to help me,
It's a disease I can't get rid of,
And it's killing me.