The rain falls soft,
but it's not the kind that drowns.
It's the kind that whispers,
"you'll figure it out somehow."

I've stumbled,
I've stood tall.
I've learned that falling
isn't failing after all.

Not everything fits,
and not every piece is mine,
but I'm starting to see
how the puzzle looks in time.

I'll burn,
I'll heal,
I'll keep what I can.
Life isn't perfect,
but it's all part of the plan.

Some days,
it feels like I'm the ghost
in my own life.
Quiet.
Unseen.
Held together
by maybes
and caffeine.

The ones who should've stayed
left marks instead.
And love -
it felt more like
a dare I kept losing.

But still,
I make my bed.
I hum a song I half-remember.
I laugh
at things that aren't funny
just to feel my voice again.

I don't shine big.
Not yet.
But **** it -
I glow.
And that's something.

Love.
They say you will find it,
Hopefully, you will feel it,
Learn to need it
and finally feel alive.

Well, that's a lie.
Love will leave you broken.
Grabbing at your chest
trying to rip your heart open.

All you feel is pain.
Fire running through your veins.
Yet, you still want more.

Feeling scared.
Overwhelmed with all these feelings.
Nothing is right.
Put up that wall.
Start to fight.

Breaking and crumbling,
the walls coming down.
Starting to panic
trying to cry out;
can't make a sound

Feeling alone and unwanted.
Understanding what went wrong.
Nothing is your fault...or is it all?
You start to fall.

It's all your fault.
Have to make it right.
You try and try
but they still pass you by.

Head is aching,
body shaking.
Going to explode.
Might overflow.

Numb.
Feelings start to disappear.
You're fine.
You're okay.
Why did you care anyway?

Get up.
Head held high.
You don't need love,
not worth your time.

So much pain.
So much blood.
Too many tears,
all wasted on love.

You are enough.
All you need is me.
No more blood
pain and tears.

I searched for light in everyone else
Lost who I was, dimmed myself.
I cried, I bent, I paid the cost
I am enough- I always was.

Love didn't save you.
But you loved anyway.

That's the kind of brave
they don't put into stories.

When the road gets rough and the nights get cold,
When the weight's too heavy and the fear takes hold,
Stand your ground- don't run, don't hide.
There's fire in your heart and steel in your stride.

Bruised and battered, bent but proud,
Still you rise, still you're loud.
Let the doubters talk, let the storms all rage,
You're more than a chapter- you're writing the page.

So tighten your fists and lift your chin,
The battle isn't over - you're built to win.

The world doesn't wait
for your heart to heal.

It spins,
loud and unfair,
while you try to remember
how to stand.

But some mornings,
you laugh anyway.
That's power.

You loved me quiet,
kept it low -
a secret spot
where no one'd know.

You fed me lines,
then cut the string,
left me hanging
on everything.

I made you light
when you were smoke,
I held on tight
and nearly choked.

You let me fall
without a sound -
and still, I hoped
you'd turn around.

But love like that?
it doesn't stay.
It fades like you -
just walks away.

I'm always the lesson,
never the praise.
Told to be better
in quiet ways.

The words aren't cruel,
but they still land rough-
measured and weighed,
never enough.

It's in the looks
the way they compare,
like I'm just less
for even being there.

I carry the blame
for things I don't do,
swallow the doubt
until it feels true.

They don't see the cracks,
the ones they made-
all for the sake
of keeping one name safe.

I shouldn't have to earn
what should be mine-
a place, a voice,
a moment in time.

But I keep the peace,
stay small, stay still,
hoping they'll notice
I'm breaking at will.

I've stopped trying to make sense of anything.
The vibes are weird,
my charger's missing,
and I think I cried over a bagel this morning.

Growth?
Yeah, I guess.
I didn't text back my ex today.
That's something.

My goals are ambitious:
Eat breakfast,
drink water,
and not emotionally spiral before noon.

I keep saying "it is what it is,"
but I have no clue what "it" is
or why it's so dramatic all the time.

I tried journaling.
Wrote "I'm tired" seventeen times
and called it a breakthrough.

People say "be present,"
but I left my focus in 2019
next to my sense of stability and charger cube.

Some days I feel unstoppable.
Other days I stare at the wall
like it's got answers.

I'm not winning,
but I'm not losing either.
I'm just....here.

Breathing.
Sort of thriving.
Accidentally funny.

Which honestly,
is the most relatable thing I've ever been.

It told me
you can survive anything
if you're quiet about it.

That healing
looks a lot like pretending-
until it doesn't.

It said
love won't save you
if you keep offering it
as proof
you're worth saving.

And forgiveness?
It's not always holy.
Sometimes it's
just surrender
in a prettier dress.

I asked,
when do I become enough?

The mirror blinked.
And said,
"When you stop asking."

It told me
the faster you run,
the more you miss.

That growing up
isn't something you notice-
until you can't go back.

It said
you will lose people
who loved you deepley,
and still feel like it was your fault.

And letting go?
It's not peace at first.
Sometimes it feels like
betrayal
with a ribbon it.

I asked,
how do I know I'm doing it right?

Time exhaled.
And said,
"Because it hurts less
than holding on did."

I've never had a five-year plan.
Sometimes, I barely have a Tuesday plan.
But here I am-
heart in one hand, snack in the other,
trying my best not to overthink my own breathing.

People say "be yourself"
like that's a simple thing.
But I've been about five different people this week
and honestly?
They all had good points.

I've felt everything and nothing
at the exact same time,
and let me tell you-
it's a weird party.
No one knows who brought the chips.

I've forgiven myself
for things I still flinch about.
I've moved on
without moving anywhere.
I've stood still
and felt the earth sprint underneath me.

No, I'm not lost.
I'm just...in progress.
A draft.
A half-done thought with great potential.

And maybe that's enough.
Maybe I'm enough
even when I don't feel like a poem.
Just a scribble
with really good timing.

We were nothing.
But you knew it could've been something.

You felt it.
You just weren't brave enough to hold it.

I wasn't asking for a future.
Just for you to show up in the present.

But every time I got close,
you pulled back.

You said things that sounded like want,
but acted like maybe.

I gave you softness.
You gave me silence.

And now you want to talk.
Now that I've swallowed the ache,
now that I've stopped reaching.

But where were you
when I was trying to believe this could be real?

Still stuck in the past.
Still chasing what broke you.

If you'd shown up-
really shown up-
we could've built something.

But now you'll never know.

Because I'm done waiting
for someone who only knows hot arrive
once the door's already closed.

I'm not soft,
but I'm not cold.
I'm made of edges
that know when to hold.

I laugh loud,
love louder,
and walk like I own
the ground I was told
not to stand on.

They said it gets better-
they never said when.

So you stitched light
into the edges of your pain
and called it surviving.

But some nights,
you fell joy
with no warning.

And that's enough.

You come in bare, no map, no guide,
Just a breath and the world's weight,
Thrown into a place that makes you decide
What's real, what's fake, what's worth the wait.

They don't tell you the path's a maze,
Where every turn's a guess,
And pain becomes the price you pay
To learn what's love and what's a mess.

You step forward, bruised and blind,
But every fall, you start to see:
Your truth's a thing you have to find-
It's never handed, it's just free.

So you build, you fight, you learn to stand,
And the world will try to tear it down,
But you've got to hold what's in your hands,
Or you'll let them turn your crown.

It's easy to lose yourself in them,
To shape yourself for others' eyes,
But once you know your worth, you'll bend
For no one else, and never disguise.

Because living for their hate or praise
Is a cage you've built from fear,
But once you trust in your own ways,
You'll walk free, loud, and clear.

I used to sit with lips sewn tight,
A quiet storm, a dying light.
You called me soft, a passing breeze-
Now watch me bring you to your knees.

I counted cracks inside my head,
While you forgot the words I said.
I broke in silence, nice and sweet-
But now I'm fire wrapped in heat.

I overthought, rewrote the script,
I let your name burn on my lips.
You made me a ghost, but gave her claws,
And now she's coming just because

I'm not hard to read.
You just keep looking
for softness
in places I've already
set on fire.

You are not the worst thing
that's ever happened to you.

You are the breath
after the breaking,
the hands that still reach
when no one claps.

Look at you-
still here.
That's art.

You lost things
that had names.

Dreams,
people,
parts of yourself
you'll never fully get back.

But you still open your chest
to the wind.
You still say yes.

And that-
that is holy.

No one teaches you how to grieve the life you thought you'd have.
How to carry versions of yourself that never made it.

How to smile with cracked teeth
or love with a heart that flinches.

They don't teach you that bravery
is sometimes just making it to next week.
That healing isn't pretty-
it's messy, loud, and sometimes lonely.

But you learn.
You learn to sit with the silence.
To keep living like maybe
the best part hasn't happened yet.

not perfect, not loud.
but the kind of love that lets you be.
they'll see the mess inside you,
and love you anyway, just like the sea.

they won't need you to shrink or perform,
they'll love the way you're soft and torn.
they'll call you beatiful-not just "hot"-
see your heart, and all it's not.

they won't run when things get hard,
or hide when you're left feeling scarred.
they'll listen when you need to speak,
stay when you're strong and when you're weak.

you'll never have to guess or chase,
they'll show up in the darkest place.
they'll be the trust you've always lacked,
the hands that pull you from the black.

they won't complete you-
but with them, you'll feel whole.
someone who sees your soul.

and when they love you,
you'll know it's real.
not because they say it,
but because they feel.

I am not always okay-
but I'm always trying.

Some days,
the weight is quiet.
Other days,
it screams through my bones
and I still show up.

I've learned to be the calm
when nothing else is.
To hold my own hand
when no one else reaches for it.

I do not need to be loud
to be strong.
I do not need to be seen
to be real.

And if I am only
a soft kind of brave-
that's still brave enough.

We scroll past bombs
and birthday cakes,
same thumb, same blank face.
Someone dies,
someone dances,
and we just keep going.

We smile in filters,
cry in dark corners,
say "I'm fine"
with a voice that shakes.

We love in likes,
break hearts in silence,
chase meaning in memes
and call it connection.

The world spins on-
****** and blooming,
a garden grown from graves.
It's cruel.
It's gorgeous.
And somehow,
we're still here-
half broken, half trying.
all human.

I once met a fish who forgot
what it was like to swim.
So it stayed in the river,
waiting for the waves to come to it.

The trees told me,
"Stop looking for a way out."
But I didn't hear them-
I was too busy listening
to the wind ask me why I was still standing still.

One day, I realized
the ocean had always been inside me,
but I was too busy looking at the shore.

dear little me,
the girl who cried quietly into pillows,
who thought the world would never open its fists-
you didn't know back then
that pain could make a home in your bones
and still let you dance sometimes.

some days we fly, some days we crawl.
but every day, we're still here.

you didn't know that growing up
meant breaking a hundred times
just to find the pieces worth keeping.

you learned to laugh with a crack in your voice,
to love people who didn't always stay.
some days felt like forever,
others slipped through your fingers like sand.

you still get angry.
you still cry in the dark sometimes,
but now you know it's not weakness-
it's the storm passing through.
and you?
you're the sky it never breaks.

we learned to love and lose,
to tell the difference
between a bruise and a wound that never healed.
we're still learning how to let the sadness go
without letting the anger take the wheel.

we're practicing how not to keep it all in,
how not to carry every wrong like it's ours.
still blaming ourselves for things
we were never meant to hold.

and we're still trying to be perfect-
whatever that means-
and god,
that's what makes it so hard to live.

maybe the future me will finally get it.
maybe she'll be free.

there are moments,
tiny golden seconds,
when the world is soft again-
a song, a smile, a sky that looks like home.
you made it to the memories part,
the messy beautiful ones.

i won't lie to you-
some of the pain stayed.
some days still feel too heavy to carry.
but look at us.
we kept walking.
even with scraped knees and tired hearts.

we're still here.
and one day, maybe,
the hurting won't be so loud.
maybe the light will stay longer.
maybe joy will feel like home, not a visitor.

until then,
i'll keep holding us together-
for you, for me,
for the girl who thought she'd never make it.

Everything built by fear
will fall by its own hand.

History forgets.
Power lies.
Walls rot.
Names change.

And still -
there is a current under the noise.
A pulse in the dust.
A thousand invisible hands
holding up the sky.

We are not promised survival.
But we are proof it is possible.