I be fired up with the anger of a
Thousand slaves.

I have many vessels, so that
Blood can spill a thousand ways.

I'm not frightened by the reaper.
He has my address.

You wanna **** me? Here's my life,
You can have the rest.

I know the hate they got for me
Ain't a real concern.

But that won't stop me from giving
Them what they deserve.

You wanna fight, you wanna shoot,
You wanna pull knives out?

Don't be surprised, I done told you
Like a thousand times now.

I could really **** you now, but I rather
See you suffer.

**** a thousand of your relatives
And that includes your mother.

I got a thousand different ways
To make the pain go even.

A thousand causes for my anger.
Don't be another reason.

They underestimate my threats
With a scoff and a grin.

When I have a thousand different
Reasons to commit these awful sins.

With smoke against the night sky,
Somehow I am the bad guy.
I walk around so uptight,
But still, I have these "laugh lines,"
On my face.
I don't know a place
Where I don't have to tip toe like
There's land mines.
I remember playing Minesweeper
And sneezing all the **** time.
  All on my computer screen.
Allergic to the rules of things.
Allergic to reality.
I feel my family doubting me.
If sanguis est crassius quam aqua,
Then why do strangers lounge
With me,
And seem like they're so proud of me?
Well, actually in actuality,
That's just as false.
Guess I'm bound to see
The truth that's been
Surrounding me.

Yeah, I dabble in them
Makeshift dreams,
I pull at seams
Like every other
Tameless fiend,
Who hopped through leaves
And maybe even scratched at fleas.
But the way things been,
I gotta feel that shameless breeze.

That vacant wind.
I battled with that
Stainless steel.
"Is she for real?"
You know I gotta take these pills.
**** tasteless meals.
I only ever crave that feel.
So no, it's not negotiable if
We make these deals.

Unless the price is
High
But if I'm not,
Then you decide.

We can be friends if you provide
That holy light,
I seek at night.
I twitch and fight
Them demons...
But you know you'll never meet them,
Right?

They're my friends,
I hide in sheds or
Hide in dens.
And if I'm lonely, then they hide in
Bed.

They take my sheets,
They hover me,
They cover me
From other things
That you can't see,
But I can see.

They follow me,
They hollow me.
They swallow me
Like them pills that I bottled up.

They've had enough,
Of me and my shenanigans.
I handle them, but then they
Start to handle me.
And then, I realize that I can
Barely breathe.

And who's to blame,
Other than the I and me?
The eyes I see
In reflections don't
Mention this.
So don't mention it
When I meet my death
Sentence.
It's only a matter of time,
And I ain't tryna lessen it.

Can you teach me how to smoke,
At the indoor pool?
Cannabis and chlorine
On a night so cool.
I can ditch the white pills
Without crushing the moon,
If you can roll something up
Without killing the mood.
         What's left to prove
If it's just me and you?
I mean, you and I
Decide
If we have any rules.
We can feel, we can chill.
We can deal with the truth.
                   Cannabis and chlorine.
Fuse green with the blue.
Cannabis and chlorine.
A mixture of hues.
All you gotta do
Is make my lungs so confused.
Cannabis and chlorine,
When it's just me and you.
Can you teach me how to smoke
At the indoor pool?

Forevermore, never more
Can I do this.
You dwell upon the negative,
Whilst I'm an opportunist.
The truth is...

My ego higher than
The mufuckin roof is.
Compliments ain't **** if you just
Think yourself as useless.

Frankly, I ain't angry.
I'm just foolish.
A fool for you, I'll do for you
Anything to prove it.
But more or less, the **** you say
Just tires me to ruthless.
I'm tiring, so tired from
Always being clueless.
Your doubt gon' make me
Lose it.
Take the plug and
Pull it.
I don't care, don't you dare
Deny the **** is stupid.
Stupidly I'm used to all this
*******.

You're the best kind of nuisance.

Dreary fever that runs
Deep in soul,
Is just as clean as murky ponds.

Within myself, I search for light--
Which is dim and demons fond.

Perhaps, the light of night and stars,
Or placid shine of aching moons.

I yearn for light, yet dread what’s bright.
Fearful tunes or lovely gloom?

The heart that thumps beneath the flesh
Is only grand as rotting log.

And light within this soul of mine
Is clear as blood,
And dense as fog.

Hold me to my promises
I like to break them when you
Tripping out.
I been depending on that plant
Since lean ain't what I'm
Sipping now.

You're different? How?

You treat me just like them old
Broads used to.

Maybe this ain't what I've waited on
For so long.

Who's gonna save you?
Me, myself and I.
Who's gonna save me
When I say I wanna die?

I hear crickets to that question
Because you ignore my every sigh.
You gon be the first one to weep
When I tell y'all not to cry.

It's ridiculous how this goes.
There's certain things you shouldn't
Say.
You gonna regret it all when I'm not
Here some day.

Grip revolvers with your
Own hands, clicking
Triggers with your own fingers.

Putting blame up on the
Whole world. You should know
That you're
Your own sinner.

Your actions get reactions,
All your thoughts are up
To you.

Don't ever blame another
For the **** that
You pursue.

Don't ever speak the
Syllables of my name
With acid tongues.

Don't think that I
Remember anything from
Useless months.

Don't believe the world
Is ugly when you've blinded
Your own eyes.

Don't say you love the
Pain, when all it does is
Make you cry.

Dust of the past,
I ain't thinking nothing of you.
We love, you hurt, I laugh.
Always sad, what this comes to

Maybe it was me, not you...
**** it.
I ain't one to
Sugar-coat the truth.
Or sacrifice my youth.

You were fun while it
Lasted.
Dabbled in my
Little thing of passion.
Became my main source of the
Madness.

What the ******* expect from me?
Better than them hoes
That just want a check from me.
But still, wasn't much that
You could get from me.
And **** it, if there was,
Still wouldn't get from me.

I'm deliberately harsh.
Say things from the heart.
Make you swear I've no
Heart.
But you was tearin us apart.

I would never feel remorse,
I could never shed a tear for you.
If you was dying from a fright,
I wouldn't **** a fear for you.
Dying here tonight?
Yeah, I'd like to hear from you...
If you wanna tonight,
I'll rush the new year for you.

Ungrateful little *****...
Happy I don't have to deal with you

Could never feel for you.

At all angles,
I disappear. Never
Fearing what I hear.
Always hearing what I
Fear.
What is fear,
If it's lodged in the
Canal of your
Ear?
Is it stuck to the point
That only screams, can I
Hear...

Who knows what this will do
To us.
Constructing walls of destructive
Trust.
Glass may break but can never
Rust.
Even the sun wants the lust of
Dusk.

Who knows what this will do
To you.
If grass is green and skies are
Blue--
Roses red and blood is too.
Love is blind, obscure my view.

Who knows what this will do
To me.
Mistakes so sweet be bruising me.
I fell so hard I'm losing sleep.
Can't dream, I count elusive sheep.

Who knows what this will do
To us.
Wiping tears with ruthless
Love.
Tending wounds with useless
Dust.
Impatiently waiting, but never
Rushed.

Slice me...
I don't bleed nothin'
Less than real.

Gasoline in my
Veins, and a throat full of
Pills.

Come to terms with my life,
Giving death a great deal.

Feeling nothing but pain,
Or pain is nothing I
Feel?

If I don't know love
Today, I shan't know it
Tomorrow.

With liquid bliss and
Nervous lips, my heart
Is not to borrow.

My heart, it sits engraved
In pain, but nonetheless
It's yours.

You have the power,
In a sense, to love me to
The core.

By that, I mean, I
Give you me, and in return
I want

A love that floats or
Simply flows like smoke
Before a blunt.

I want your gaze, the
Lovely haze, that
Sees right thru my sin.

I crave the warmth of
Your embrace that thaws the
Chill of skin.

I'll hold your heart with
Fervid care and brag of
How it's mine.

Won't let you go, I
Love you so, my
Pretty Valentine.

Stay awake through evenings
And try to fight your demons.
Even if you're bleeding,
On the concrete, freezing.
       I keep contemplating
How much pain to take,
When really, there's not much
Left to break.
My heart gets skewered
By your selfish stake.
My trust is broken by you
      Sinful snakes.
Cut the grass or should I
Cut myself.
Sleep in silence
Or I could scream for help.
My soul is covered by a
Thousand welts.
Stay awake through evenings,
To get prepared for Hell.

My aggression is small like an
Empty balloon,
But with too much tension,
It could fill this **** room.

I can cause you discomfort
If I choose to.

I'll ruin your life
If I pursue you.

There's no boundaries for me
Once I seek what I seek.

No surroundings of peace
Once you come challenge me.

I'll be an amazing friend,
If you let me.
But an even better enemy
Once you offend me.

Please don't test me or play,
'Cause I'm the best at games.
Bring a friend to the Heavens,
But a foe to the flames.

My lips, pink and petite,
Always falling short of love.

Most usually, burning against a
Flesh
Holding more toxins than my
Lungs find throughout the night.

And this tongue,
Trails deep within forbidden
Valleys,
Seeping moisture to the greatest
Of mistakes.

My pulse finds a way to give my
Hips a rhythm
To the symphonies of seduction.

Ballads of bed sheets.

I try to breeze through temptation,
Even in the cities of lust.

My mind lacks discretion
As I grip this desire...