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Misty Meadows Sep 2018
Since you're testing me, there's a
Game to be played.
First, I grab a lighter and I gotta
Have my blade.
I put the knife to your stomach
With this slight pressure made.
The blade has a shadow. Hide
Your fear within the shade.

Hide your fear away from me
Because I see it as a feast.

You were a monster to my heart,
So I'm at the belly of the beast.

With a knife and a lighter.
I could slice you with the fire.
I could split your flesh open
And strip you of desires...

All the desires of a lifetime.
You're playing with your lifeline.
You expect me to sympathize,
But *****, you on my time.

And the clock ticks slow when
There's a lot you've been through.
So use this time to pray for them
Regrets and sins too.

And don't beg or plead because
I won't give a ****.
I'm not God. When I look at you,
I just see another man.

That means we have the same
Status and get the same respect.
And after I **** you,
Tne same afterdeath.

I'm willing to meet you in
Hell for the pain you caused my
Life.

So I say a little prayer, then
Glide across you with the
Knife
Misty Meadows Sep 2018
I be fired up with the anger of a
Thousand slaves.

I have many vessels, so that
Blood can spill a thousand ways.

I'm not frightened by the reaper.
He has my address.

You wanna **** me? Here's my life,
You can have the rest.

I know the hate they got for me
Ain't a real concern.

But that won't stop me from giving
Them what they deserve.

You wanna fight, you wanna shoot,
You wanna pull knives out?

Don't be surprised, I done told you
Like a thousand times now.

I could really **** you now, but I rather
See you suffer.

**** a thousand of your relatives
And that includes your mother.

I got a thousand different ways
To make the pain go even.

A thousand causes for my anger.
Don't be another reason.

They underestimate my threats
With a scoff and a grin.

When I have a thousand different
Reasons to commit these awful sins.
Misty Meadows Sep 2018
Me and the devil do this dance
With the pole.
He said put it to my head, spin around
And let it go.
He said if I spin faster, I won't
Even know.
He said he gon count to three and
He gon take my soul.

All you see is red spilling from my
Thoughts.
All I hear is y'all sobbing for your
Faults.
Misty Meadows Sep 2018
That girl don't love me like she
Say she do.
If she did, she'd make herself
More available.
But she don't, she leaves me in
The cold air.
She leaves me broken, with no
Care.
I often find myself excusing this.
I blame it on my uselessness.
That girl don't need me like she
Say she does.
I'm just a swift enjoyment.
An energy rush.
And now she's burnt out, with no need
To give
And now I'm burnt out with no reason
To live.
I'm not love sick nor love ridden.
She must've forgotten she's forgiven.
Forgetful and smitten.
My heart can't take the
Torture.
That girl don't love me like she
Say she do and I
Cannot force her.
Misty Meadows Aug 2018
This plan right here is foolproof.
Ima kick back under a cool roof,
With my eyes closed and my
Blunt packed.
So there's no room
For my family to talk smack.
And I'm a real friend,
But I'm lonely.
I gotta let this warm food
Hold me.

Because who else will?
That's a good question.
All my trauma has taught me
Lessons.
And the best one
That I've learned yet,
Is there's no freedom
If you ain't hurt yet.

And maybe I'm a little
Biased.
But you'd be too,
If right behind your eyelids,
Were eyes that
Seen such violence--
That you begged to become quite
Blinded.

Because this ****'s real,
But your dreams ain't.
Eat your meals three times
On a green plate.
It reminds you
To be a cheapskate.
You need full pockets
To dine on lean steak.

I done told them,
And I done warned you,
That all of America is scorned too.
The politicians and the
Potheads.
Your family tree looks more
Like a cobweb.

Your addiction is the way
You numb pain.
Your ***, your drugs, your
Slot games.
You hate it, but you hate this
Life more.
You pray? Do you pray to the
Right Lord?

Do you force yourself,
Just like me?
Don't feel bad. Inside we're
All just dying.
If you know, you know
Misty Meadows Aug 2018
My aggression is small like an
Empty balloon,
But with too much tension,
It could fill this **** room.

I can cause you discomfort
If I choose to.

I'll ruin your life
If I pursue you.

There's no boundaries for me
Once I seek what I seek.

No surroundings of peace
Once you come challenge me.

I'll be an amazing friend,
If you let me.
But an even better enemy
Once you offend me.

Please don't test me or play,
'Cause I'm the best at games.
Bring a friend to the Heavens,
But a foe to the flames.
Misty Meadows Jul 2018
Slits on your wrists
From a life that don't exist..
That's the perception that these
Relatives have.
Depression and pain, things that
Make you insane, ain't exactly
Something that most black people
Grasp.

They so used to the struggle that
We're given at birth. When you
Venting to them, they'll say we cursed
From the womb.
So ain't no venting to them because
They'll deem you ungrateful.
The **** ain't that serious until they're
Facing your tomb.
This is an actual problem in the community
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