Misty Meadows

Misty Meadows Jul 2018

Slits on your wrists
From a life that don't exist..
That's the perception that these
Relatives have.
Depression and pain, things that
Make you insane, ain't exactly
Something that most black people
Grasp.

They so used to the struggle that
We're given at birth. When you
Venting to them, they'll say we cursed
From the womb.
So ain't no venting to them because
They'll deem you ungrateful.
The **** ain't that serious until they're
Facing your tomb.

This is an actual problem in the community

Misty Meadows Jul 2018

Often

You're awfully beautiful,
But not an awful person.
Is it even possible to love you
Without being a whole burden?
I'm nervous and uncertain
'Cause you neglect my heart so
Often.

Misty Meadows Jul 2018

Back of My Mind

With smoke against the night sky,
Somehow I am the bad guy.
I walk around so uptight,
But still, I have these "laugh lines,"
On my face.
I don't know a place
Where I don't have to tip toe like
There's land mines.
I remember playing Minesweeper
And sneezing all the **** time.
All on my computer screen.
Allergic to the rules of things.
Allergic to reality.
I feel my family doubting me.
If sanguis est crassius quam aqua,
Then why do strangers lounge
With me,
And seem like they're so proud of me?
Well, actually in actuality,
That's just as false.
Guess I'm bound to see
The truth that's been
Surrounding me.

Misty Meadows May 2018

X,Y,Z

This holy ground seems
So profound,
But we don't tip-toe.
See, we stomp around,
Like a marching band
On this sacred land.
It wasn't taught to us,
We won't understand.
It wasn't brought to us.
We don't get the plan.
We got many thoughts
And ideas shoved
In these minds of ours,
But they say we're lost.
They gon hate on us,
Claim we'll break their trust,
But the truth is
They hate our youthful lust.
They loathe the little spark
In the eyes of ours.
We don't want no war,
So they call us cowards.
And because our lives
Are more simplified,
They think their attitudes
Are quite justified.
But in the thick of it,
If our skin is "thin,"
Then their hearts are cold.
So, who could ever win?

Misty Meadows Apr 2018

Front

I'm sick of indulging in
Calamity.
You ain't God, but there tryna
Examine me.
You can play the role like you
Care for me.
But you don't.
You front for all the
Family.
So, ****** is me
If I let it be.
If I let you do it, but
I ain't dumb, you see.
I ain't gon pay a fee
For the things you do,
Or your sins pursued.
That's insanity.

Misty Meadows Apr 2018

Utilization

Honestly,

I feel like the devil been taking bribes,
By helping these spiteful people
Cause pain that I can't describe.
And lately, I've been craving
A dose that is not prescribed.
'cause I'd rather be the reason for
Ruining my own life.

And if I take my own life,
Please don't call it a suicide.
'cause suicide involves intention,
And lately, I can't decide.
It's a battle between my heart
And the depths of my own mind.
But if life hands me the blades,
Best believe, I will utilize.

Misty Meadows Mar 2018

Off The Wagon

I seen some shadows much like you,
But they don't scare me.

No, they don't scare me,
'cause lately, I'm so daring.

And I've been stepping into potholes
With my bare feet.

Since you've had me,
I don't hesitate with sharing.

And there's a strong, strong scent
From the pits of hell,
For you.

Probably a stench for me too,
If they question what I do.

'cause I've been staring at these blades
And assorting pills by hue.

But I ain't tryna touch that plant,
Because the famer's guilty too.

Now, I don't got no quick fix or a
Hit list.

I know my woman just might leave me
If I miss this.

So, into an abyss, goes all my wishes.

I can't stand it. All the pain makes my
Decisions.