I only started
Praying again
When I thought that god
Might give me a hand
So for the second time
In my life
I lay awake at night
Reciting the Lord’s Prayer
Every single night
Praying that the memories
Finally leave
Or that you’d come crawling
Begging for my forgiveness

Pebbles scattered across the beach
Each a memory of you and me
But you hate the sand
And consequently me
So all I'll every be
Is memories scattered across the beach

There is another sky
With another life
Where our names aren’t etched
Onto my bones
Poisoning my roots

Where stars don’t hold
My wishes long gone
There to taunt me
And hold me captive
In lost memories

Where my tears dry
Before they coat my pillows
Drowning me in the sorrow
That only they know of

There is another sky
With another life
Where I never loved you

I couldn’t sleep again last night
Demons plagued my dreams
Wearing faces of love and affection
One that you often see

Demons plagued my dreams
Whispers of I love you
I’ll never leave you
Faces of black hair, blue eyes, and greed

Whispers of I love you
I woke with a fright
Instinctively turning to tell you
All about my night

I woke with a fright
But you were not there
You haven’t been for over a year
But if not here, then where?

If there is no rest for the wicked
Then why am I still awake.
Why do you sleep soundly
While I still feel the ache