Living only in memories

Your existence now reduced
To pixels of the past
To LED backlit words
Of self expression

Painful reminders
Of the darkness that lies
At the core of my being

You will forever haunt me

With a smile
I fall "in love"
once again

With a smile
I get rejected
once again

With a smile
I  start
to go insane

With a smile
I scream
at the thoughts in my brain

With a smile
I hide
all the signs of my pain

With a smile
I reach out
for help in  vain

With a smile
I live
with nothing to gain

With a smile
I put
a bullet in my brain

Poked out of the dark,
to reach out to you.
A fimiliar stranger

Radiating from my words
You saw not me
You saw a ghost

Silent stranger
I wish you well
As you traverse
Your own hell

If only
time could rewind
To when
things were good
To when
there was no worry
To when
laughter didn't hide pain

One leap to freedom
One leap to peace
One leap is all it takes
To end the misery