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May 2019 · 88
Childhood traumas
Aidan Cordero May 2019
Numbing tasks pass the time

Stuck in the prison behind my eyes

I've got nothing left to give

Lonely isnt a strong enough adjective

Feeling like a weak man

Mind full of inanity

Sad to say I wouldn't be here Without the small silver of humanity

I promise I dont do it for attention

But I do love all of you for the subvention

Trying to put these words down to help your comprehension

It's more than just a portion

When she looked me in the eye
straight faced and said

" I shouldve had an abortion"

Take the leap from grace

Hit me in the gut, scream in this space

Must be my father, you can see in my face

Dont see her for weeks at a time

Had to stay alive

Stealing butter and bread
To keep my sister fed

Sick of telling her to drink some water and go to bed

Brother moved in after nearly dying in the hospital

Now shes home every day

Putting on a show making him think everything is okay

Its Like an act out of Broadway

I told him about the days and the nights

He promised me everything would be alright

This is only a small piece of my life

Of the things that have become obstructive

Call me self destructive

Slay me for my sins

Where were you when I was being torn by the limbs
Jul 2018 · 1.4k
Dead man talking
Aidan Cordero Jul 2018
This is the time in which I'll aspire
Set down the bottle
That's what'll make my dad retire
We killed his best friend
A sign I had hoped would strike
This epiphany
I was on the road
I promised I'd never walk so long ago
He used Harakiri to break the cycle
A means for me to defeat my demons
A push to inspire
Even after I struck his final coffin nail
And the snake still eats its tail
The sunlight through the trees
He sent his message between the leaves
what a dead man did for me
This is dedicated to Jason a family friend that was an alcoholic and died less than a week after he made a surprise visit (he lives 5 hours away) we had no idea of his health problems and he didnt mention it at all
I wanted to break this one down a bit just because it seems completely random at first glance, the first half I think it's pretty clear but the second half gets a little hazy. "He used harakiri to break the cycle" harakiri is the suicide by the samurai in Japan that's seen as an honorable death, without this I dont think I would've stopped drinking which was getting out of hand.
"Even after I struck his final coffin nail, the snake still eats its tail" when we drank with him that's what threw him over board, the three of us went through almost a half gallon that night. The snake still eats it tail is referring to the Ouroboros, "This symbolizes the cyclic Nature of the Universe: creation out of destruction, Life out of Death. The ouroboros eats its own tail to sustain its life, in an eternal cycle of renewal"
"The sunlight through the trees, he sent his message between the leaves" this is my imagery of everyone is so focused on the trees (his death) but taking in the whole picture the beautiful and the heartbreaking

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