Everything is wrong
Why is it all wrong
Why
are they all looking
at
me
Is something
wrong?
Why am I shivering
inside my bones
my heart won't stop vibrating
what's wrong everything is wrong

Voices are being dumped on my head like
cold water in the early morning
startling me awake and afraid
I feel every
single
gaze

on
my
back

I turn to look
but all faces
are turned away

*look away

I woke up today,
   and my aura had a
      sad silver tint.

I woke up today
   feeling a weight
      where my heart should be.

I woke up today,
   and immediately
      wanted to cry.

I woke up today
   with depression
      nibbling on my bones.

I woke up today,
   but I don't think
      I'm really awake.

I woke up today
   so now I must
    move forward.

Why is it so safe here?

In this spot of my loneliness

Nothing makes sense, nothing should
feel like this

But here I feel

safe

even though I am here without

you

*maybe that's what I needed
was some time

alone

I'm being dragged down again,
buried again,
smothered again

I need you to save me again

My thoughts are killing me again.

I'm in a cloudy field of cherry blossom trees
Being chased by a bunch of bees
Getting stung should be impossible
in this beautiful place
But I keep getting stung,
and the cherry blossom trees laugh,
And the blossoms weep petals.

I am gray.

I am somehow both messy and organized.

I am both happy and sad.

I am asleep and I am awake.

I am smart and I am stupid.

I am dark and I am light.

I am gray.

Unknown.