I decided one day
To leave this place

The therapist
Didn't give me much notice

I guess she is just a liar
A liar

Who never really cared
My best friends don't call either

I'm tired of the emptiness
And loneliness

And so I'm driving off
On this day

Taking the rental car
Matt has gone away

I decided I don't like life
Anymore

Decided everything
Was a meaningless bore

Forget this creator
This Jesus that never cared

Who never brought my female friend
Who was going to give me a hug
Or say "there there"

F* human life
The pointlessness
Of it all

I'm climbing up a mountain
Tonight

I'm going to have
A great fall

10,000 feet above the ground
I walk toward the edge

A step, a step, another step

And then I'll fall and be dead

Hedonists live for ***
And pleasure
Doing what they do

In this life
You soon find out
How much you

Are really f* *******

I loved everyone
But no one really ever loved me

I do have one good friend

But I have found out
What a f up place

This can be

Banned from one chat room
Forgot my password for another

And now I can't log in to either

So I say Oh brother

Somebody wake me up
From this dream

Is this life real?

Oh that's right
It's just a movie scene

One scene moves to
The next scene

Until the body dies

I cry upon my wooden desk
People are full of lies

The therapist
Who went away
Married a fatso
Okay?

He's not fit like me
But women love guys
With a bunch of money

There is no when night
Turns into day

A student said the Matrix
Was his favorite movie

And it's one of mine too
Okay?

I don't want to feel
Anything
Just want to be left
Alone

Just want to sit in my room
And write these **** poems

I won't be respectful or nice
To the one who paid the price

All we do is suffer here
Jesus I find it queer

How many thousands of years
Do we have to wait for your return?

The suffering saints
Growing wearing
And waiting each day

When will Jesus come
To make the pain go away

My shoulder bothers me
But Jesus doesn't seem to care

I'm the guy you see
Standing alone
Standing over there

At the gym I'm on
The bike

I watch the members pass by

And as I walk out the door
I look up at the sky

No community of professional
I'm just a sub after all

I am a dull
And akward man
I stand about 6 feet tall

I want to share my poems somewhere
With women who would care
Who would hug  me
And say there there

And the movies all
A F** lie
That has not life has
Been for me

No joking with friends
Or any type of
Social community

No money to date
Or to do anything fun

For exercise
I sometimes run

Just go on suffering
That's what the Buddha says

Don't try to stop it
After all
One day
We'll all be dead

Friends and family
All loved ones
They will one day
Pass away

It's just human life
It's not that special
Okay

The same dull frown

I just sit at parks
I don't make a sound

Miserable life
What a dump

Don't eat fattening foods
Or they will make you plump

I am paid twice
The minimum wage
To tell people
To write words
On a page

I press my shoulder
Into the ground
A small grunt
I make
Can you hear the sound?

If I had enough money
I'd see a therapist
A therapist to be my friend

The last therapist
She left without much warning

That wasn't fair

Because of her
I learned not to be too trusting

The Show Must Go On
No Matter What You Feel

Or No Matter If You Are Always Alone
Even if you will never work
Or leave  home

The show must go on!
This great big show

And I am just a man sitting on my porch
Watching a play
The tragedy of human existence, lol
I am enjoying the show

Oh boy, what a show
Tonight I will enjoy recording my articles

The Ultimate Attainment
The past is already past.
Don't try to regain it.
The present does not stay.
Don't try to touch it.
From moment to moment.
The future has not come;
Don't think about it
Beforehand.
Whatever comes to the eye,
Leave it be.
There are no commandments
To be kept;
There's no filth to be cleansed.
With empty mind really
Penetrated, the dharmas
Have no life.
When you can be like this,
You've completed
The ultimate attainment.

Now she'll be watching the news
At this time

And playing golf at this time

And it was an entire life
Without using the mind

A mindless life

The unexamined life is not worth living

What a colossal

Idiot

You can stop knocking
On the door

Announcing what you made
For the **** dinner

I know there is food in the kitchen

I eat when I please

You are a nobody

To me you do not exist

I delete the holidays

I delete these obnoxious people

From my memory

Go watch the news

One who "exists"

And makes dinner.

Go plan tomorrow's dinner

You'll have all day to do it

While you watch the news

F** idiot

It's the repetitiveness of it

Go away

You are not welcome

As far as I am concerned

This room is a different home

Go away, go away

Away, away, away,

Stay away from me

Village idiot.

And I do not like

To be negative about people

But some get on my nerves

They do not change

They do not live

They simply exist

Truly sad.

I was asked if I had

A "nice day"

It's a day

It's not nice or mean

******* idiot

Repeat, repeat, repeat

That's all a sixty something
Career homemaker can do

Just shut the f* up

I have told you before

I don't have nice days

Nice days are for idiots like you

I know you had a nice day

In front of the television

Running errands

Idiot

Stupid idiot

That does not have a life

You can ask this idiot

To stop saying the same thing
Over and over

But she can't remember
She's too stupid
Too stupid to remember

Try a different word
Besides "nice"

Life is not "nice"
You ******* idiot

What is your IQ?
Does it even reach room temperature

Go look at your iphone
Idiot

Check your email on your iphone
You know that phone does much more
Than provide emails

You can listen to podcasts
Learn about things you are interested in

But you won't do that

That's why you are the village idiot

Wandering wandering
Wandering again

To the mountain suburbs
Look at the big homes
And the fancy cars

And don't they have it all

I wear plain clothes
And keep the secret in my heart

Ignore the material
And pay attention to the spiritual

Off I go

No plans
No plans to do anything
Except wander

Chipping golf *****
Eating dried apricots

Sitting alone on the trail
It's wonderful

Know thyself and love thyself

This morning I talked to a woman
About her boyfriend's big 9 inch *****

I squirted ***
And wasn't it fun
To enjoy the creamy treat

Mmmmmm

Wandering in the
Mountain suburbs

Birds in the sky
Voices in the distance

I think I will spend many hours
Today

The therapist
She went away
To another place
To her new big home

Hooray Hooray
For another day

I will go eat
Some breakfast
Then go wandering

Mmkay?

Enough is enough
And I don't care

Alot of things are not fair

Wandering all day
And all night

My beautiful eyes
Filled with light

I love Jesus
And now I'm
Like a wandering monk

And I don't care
If you laugh, point, or stare

I'm just a wanderer
So there

I saw her walking on the suburban streets of my neighborhood
She is tired
So tired
And her face...

I have never seen such a face of anguish and despair
She curses to herself and outloud

Soda bottle in hand today
No, she is not okay

If I had some money
I'd get her some food

She has some type of mental disorder

Still she lives on
And for this she is great

If you are tired and weary
If you are poor
It's okay

If you had three meals today
Try to be thankful

Some people have a much worse time

The thoughtful who enter the way
Are free from the passage of Mara

Cut down the whole forest of lust
And its undergrowth

So long is his mind in *******

Cut out the love of self
Cherish the road of peace

"All who hate me whisper
Together against me;
Against me they
Devise my hurt, saying,....

"Like, is he stupid?"

No Monica
I am not stupid
I am fairly intelligent

Regardless of what you think
Was it the keycards?

I was thinking
I could share one with
My friend

I asked him where he
Would leave it

I wasn't sure where
You had put your
Keycard

I didn't know
If you would be
Needing one
More often

Or where you would
Be going

I didn't know
You would put it
On the counter

I thought you might
Keep it in your pocket

That is why I asked
Where my good friend
Was going to keep

One of the cards
Or, "our keycard"

Your keycard
Can't be relied upon
You never said

You would keep it
On the counter

I didn't know
Where you would
Keep it
Or how often
You would use it

Yes, I understand
Keycards are
Interchangeable

But I didn't know
How often
You would be using yours

That is why
4 people
1 keycard for each
Group of two

I asked him
Where he was keeping ours

Because I didn't know
Where you were placing
The other one

No, I'm not stupid

Should I forgive you?
No, I won't

I remember these people

The woman who works at
The local pharmacy

Who always talked
And made conversation
With people

These people are great
These loving people

I remember how they tried
How they showed care for others

Have mercy on me Jesus
For my wicked thoughts and deeds

Woe to those who plan evil
Woe to those who do not repent

One day there will be judgement
Those who delighted in evil
Who did not repent
Will be cast into the lake of fire
They had their chance to repent
To change their ways

They did not, now let them burn

I'm no preacher
And I'm not judging either
I'm just saying
Evil people won't be
Allowed into the light

Those who did their best
Who prayed for mercy
Those who lead good lives
Who showed others love
Who asked for forgiveness
They will live forever

God is just
And justice will be done
Amen.

I hear on an ad
That those who dare to dream
Drive the world forward

The world is not driven forward
Life is a natural process
Cease striving

The world cannot be driven forward
The world does not need to be saved
It's just the world
And let's just let it do it's thing

CONSIDERING THE FLU NOW HITTING THE POULTRY INDUSTRY AND FUKUSHIMA’S DESTROYING SEA LIFE IN THE PACIFIC,FAMINE IS ACCELERATING AT BREAK NECK SPEED.FAMINE IS THE ORDER OF THE DAY AS GEO-ENGINEERING NOW MANIFESTS ITS DEADLY RESULTS IN DROUGHT,FAMINE AND DISEASE.IF YOU HESITATE YOU MAY VERY WELL STARVE,AT LEAST THATS WHAT THE GLOBALIST DESIRE! PROTEIN WILL BE THE FIRST THING TO DIS-APPEAR.IF YOU THINK IM KIDDING ALL THE TRUCKERS WHO ARE CARRYING FOOD,MEDICINE AND FOOD STUFS TO THE UNDERGROUND CITIES AND BUNKERS ARE AMAZED AT HOW MUCH OF THEIR FREIGHT IS GOING TO THESE ELITE ‘BUNKERS' VERSUS HOW MUCH FOOD IS BEING HELD BACK FROM SELECT STATES AND AREAS SUPER MARKETS AND WAREHOUSE DISTRIBUTION CENTERS-IT ONLY GETS WORSE FROM HERE

May 5, 2015

I have food stored but it won't be enough I suppose
Oh well

Steve I have confirmation from a Ft. Hood (Killeen TX) source regarding certain army personnel being trained for martial law lock down and house to house raids. I have a friend who works in Killeen Texas in a business that many soldiers go to. I have gotten my friend up to speed on the current situation and he has been asking some of the soldiers if they know about JADE HELM 15. Over 80% of the soldiers have no clue about JADE HELM 15. Recently one of the soldiers told my friend he was aware of JADE HELM 15 and had received training connected with it. The soldier talked about going to people's homes looking for gun owners and food hoarders. My friend asked him who they considered to be a food hoarder. The soldier replied it was anyone who had more than 7 days worth of food on hand would be labeled a food hoarder. Guns and excess food would be confiscated. The soldier also said no more than 8 people would be allowed to live in any 1 home.

It appears Special Forces Operators are posing as Reliant Electricity sales people. I read where they were operating in a Texas town and one person called the County Sheriff's Office about suspicious people. He was told they were for the government and to worry about them. The Sheriff’s office also told him he should not have run them off with a shotgun since they work for the government I told my friend at the local gun store about Reliant Electric cover and them being in groups of three. My friend told me there was a group of 3 of them in the gun store a few days back dressed exactly as I described them. Dark blue shorts and light gray pin stripped golf shirts. When they show up they have no paperwork but want to do an electrical audit to see if you are wasting energy and see if they could save you money on your electric bill. A great way to get you to take them all through your home and out buildings.

Nothing but
Salted fish to eat

On the way
To the Goulag camp

And the train
It was indeed

So dark and damp

Hope was not lost

No water

So she licked
The train parts
Covered in frost

They Sang For Their husbands
On the way to the Goulag

I want you
To point and laugh
At me

To laugh as I cry
To make fun
Of my meaningless
Suffering

Until the day I die

I don't like
This body

That much
You can probably tell

But "that's life"
Or "that's how it goes"

Oh well

And as I eat
And **** in
Each painful breath

I read about
How Fukishima radiation
WIll continue to damage
Our health

The healthy and happy
Prosper
And their contententment
Continues on

As I am left
To sing
A miserable
Sad song

Hours in chat rooms
And what the
"F* for?

Just so women
Can mock me
And I can be
Their *****

I'm a sad pathetic guy
And it's plain to see

That there therapist
Could do nothing
To prepare me
For this misery

And I know about hope
And all of that too

Struggle through another day
Is all I can do

And I see women so happy
And so satisfied
When well-hung men
Bury themselves deep
Inside....

And I told this woman
About how Matt
Is not my real name

How when she calls
Me "Maddeline"
It takes away some pain

Do I even exist?
Am I even really here?

Without much human contact
Not much to fear

Three different chat rooms
And I move
From one to one...

And as I furiously *******
I have so much fun!

This is my life
And there is no one
Else here except me

At 12, at 2, at 4
It's the same misery

And the awkwardness of
The left shoulder
Still continues on

And in this game
Of life
I'm just a pawn

And I want to pleasure
Real men

Want to pleasure them
So bad

And I need a woman
To remind me
Of the gay feelings
I have had

And it's all so ******
And so much fun

And it helps me
Release
My healthy load
Of c

I'm thankful
For a home
Food and water
Showers

My Ipad
Friends and family

Because I know
In an instant

Our whole way of life
Can change

One day I determined
That life is just a bunch

Of things that happen to me

I live inside the mind
That is the only place to be

They say Lincoln did too
And Lincoln was an important man
Dedicated to preserving the Union
Through and through

You know I find this life quite strange
Some type of game

Don't be too trusting of people
This I know

I learned this
From their actions
You know

I feel akward and out of place
I hope to be a recepient
Of God's grace

I am not completely symmetrical
But that's okay
It's just a human body anyway

Happy Sunday to everyone here

A terrible time is coming to America
So say the seers

I have given serious thought to
Living the life of a hermit

Walking near the mountains
Listening to my podcasts
Sometimes Biblical scripture or podcasts

I can't actually live in the mountains
But can spend a good amount of time there

Perhaps like Antony The Great
But in the mountains
Instead of the desert

Nearly 12 dollars
In my account
And what's it
All about?

I hear people
Blabbing about money

And I think
It's kind of funny

It takes different kinds
And no
I don't have the time

I don't wear a watch

Time is money
Well, life is funny

And who cares
About the bleepin' money

I will smash that t.v
In my mind

Remember
People will hate you
For your freedom

People hate freedom
That will hate you

For your emptiness

They will hate you
For your wisdom
And for your compassion

Slaves slaves
As the world turns

Ignorant
Obnoxious slaves
Punch one in the face

Now I'll take a turn

I get so tired
of some people

I imagine a world
Without these
Obnoxious people

I have a problem
Sometimes
With having to love
People

And forgive them

Sometimes I'd rather
Punch this idiot

I drink white Ambrosia tea
I read a book on Lincoln

The Kenmore fan blows

No money to go out

This is Friday night

What's Physical Intimacy?
I would not know

And after a long time
Spent alone

I have decided to remove myself
What is it called?
Prajakta Buddha?

Gone gone
Into the great beyond
And it is fulfilling

I enjoy it
Being alone
The silence

And I don't care
At all

If it's not what
Other people want for me

I like being this way

This Is Life
And I am 30

You may be older or younger

I can tell you human beings share many things
We seek a purpose
Most all of us want to live in peace
And love each other

Most all people love the earth
And respect the earth

We seek a way to make a living
Where we can benefit others in some way

We recognize that material possessions will not last

What does last?
What are the most important qualities the human should have?

I would say to love others
To forgive others

There is too much hate in the world
Let us live with love in our hearts

We are the human race
We live on earth
A planet that orbits the sun
In the milky way galaxy
Isn't that amazing?

But our human race is in trouble
Wars across the globe
Economies on the verge of collapse

Examine yourself
Who you are
And what you stand for

How would you like others to remember you?

The impact we have on others

The people we have inspired or assisted
In their life journey

Will be written into our memories

They won't give you a reason

They'll just say
You need to do this

And you need to do that
And blah blah blah blah

That's all it ever was to me
"Blah blah, blah, blah"

Just like the radio
That is always on
Goes, "Blah, blah, blah"

And I learned that
Their concepts were
Almost always wrong

I was once told I had to work
Forty hours a week

I don't think I will
I have a few times

It doesn't suit me

More like thirty
That suits me

The angry man
He said, "Forty hours a week."
I lied to him

Told him
How I was going
To work and work
Until I was old like him

That was before
I discovered the Tao

That was before I learned
To do the minimum

And so
Whether these people
Love me or hate me

They will help me
Pay my bills

I make just enough to pay mine
Most of the time

No, I don't pay rent

Have you ever known someone
That repeats the same thing
Over and over
Every hour of their life?

So strange

I am happy being poor
It pleases me

If it angers them
Let it anger them

Kick me out of this house?
I don't think so
I have a house key

And if they did that
I would lose my job

I will pay no rent
This house will be mine
One day
After they pass on

My home
It was always my home
I'm the one that cleans it
Everyday

I am the caretaker here
Lived here since 1997

I'm not motivated
To do anything really

Just a thinking brain

I don't really
Buy into the
Human experience

People may mock me
For being poor

For working two days a week

I don't care

Why should I care

This life program
Bores me

You won't succeed
In changing me

I'll always do the minimum

My private health insurance
Is $163 a month I think

I'm poor
Like millions of
Other Americans

I'm not ever moving out
Of this house

I don't believe in
A 40 hour work week

Maybe
I should get
A Twitch account


Getting payed to play games
Sounds fun
A portion of what you earn
Goes to the company

I just don't have any money
To buy the game console
And other equipment I need
To start it up

I'd like to buy some things
But I don't have the money
****, gosh ****
Oh well, heh

No No No
I'm good at saying no
When they tried to make me
Play with others
In preschool
No was my response

No, No, No
I will not work more
Than twice a week

This is my life

I'm going to do
What I want to do

I can be very selfish

There comes a time
When you are
Supposed to

"Choose a career"

I never saw the point

I do what
Makes me happy

I suppose some people
I know

Will grow
To dislike me
In time

That's okay

I'm just doing
As I please

Time here
Time there

Bank account
Almost zero

But I
Do not care

I choose
What days I will work

I refuse to be a slave
To a system

I have the freedom to choice
Where I want to go
When I want to go there

Three days a week
At most

I will show up to work

I don't believe in a 40 hour
Work week

That is what my father does
What a terrible existence...
Well he needs the money

And with more possessions
More money is required
To pay for them

The car payments
The country club

This is my time
And I go where I please
Most of the time

And I do it
Without any guilt
This is my life

I remember when this guy
Told me I should work
40 hours a week

I don't think so
This is my time
This is my life

I won't change

About 100 yds south of my home

A man turns right and walks down my street

A few houses down a neighbor closes his car door

The evening breeze blows

A woman walks on the street
That runs east west
Beneath my block

This is the Tao

Dictating articles
On my Iphone

At the nature park

As I leave
A man walks by with a beautiful woman

Mysterious these women are
And beautiful
Her black hair shimmers
She had a beautiful smile

Don't look
Don't look at beautiful things
For she will be there for a few seconds
And then gone

On a hike with another man
A man who is not me
Well that's how it always is

My clothes are plain
My left shoulder is a bit akward

I think of how beautiful she was

Smiling women
I have to remind myself to be carfeul
I must protect myself from them

My therapist smiled wonderfully
Then she left me

Do not wish for a female companion
Be content to have nature

I continue down the street
A hybrid sits charging

A man in his garage
Listens to "Get the cool, get the cool shoe shine"

This is a small town
Quiant mountain town
Of Sierra Madre

Founded in 1882
By Mr. Carter
Carter is the name of the street
Where the nature park is

Home of the Pinney House
I passed by there earlier when I went to the mailbox
Built in 1887 as one of the original railroad hotels

I begin recording the birds
There many sounds

They seem more clear than before

A parrot sits on top of the tree
His, the loudest call of all
Yes, this is the time of year they migrate

Two people emerge a few hundred yards away
Entering Sierra Madre
We eventually converge

I am heading west
They are heading east

In the far distance two walkers
Walk parallel to each other
Heading south

A man and a woman
Walk their dogs
They decide not to go any further
But to turn back

These are the 10,000 things
Who come from the same source

This is the Tao

Most everything
Is predetermined

And I live on a computer
And this matrix is stupid

I want a female friend
That would be fun
And add something

To this miserable existence

I hate living here
In this place

I am tired of these people

We never get to leave
Our parent's homes

There are no good jobs
No decent pay

Of the politics
And the negativity

I'm sure sick
Of mine

I sure don't like
It here

Sometimes eating
Sometimes doing my job
Sometimes sleeping
Sometimes reading
Sometimes exercising

Sometimes walking in nature

I do different things
At different times

I live on the earth
It is an organic computer

End all desire
Live in the present
No past or future

I'll barely make
Any money this next year

Probably just a few grand
And I find it all quite queer

That college and post B.A.
Totaled about 120 grand

I will probably be living here
For another few years

There is no upward mobility now
America
A fat and bloaded
Debt ridden cow

I suppose some day
Maybe soon

Everyone will be singing a different tune
One EMP strike
From China

The systems will be down

Not much food
At the markets
And no one in town

This economic system
Is not viable anymore

George Soros' associates
Buying up gold galore

There is the super rich
And the poor

Board up those windows
Store water and food
The people are angry
And in a bad mood

The lies they have been told
The lies they have been sold

They work the day away
And get to barely keep anything
Anyway

Debt and more debt
They cannot pay

18 trillion dollars
Piled high

Piled up to the sky

The Fed will print and print
That's not a solution

One can't put out a fire
By pouring gas on a fire

It's not the same
Don't you see

It's a dim future
Here in America
For you and me

So look out for yourself
Is what you should do

Because in this society
The middle class
Is getting *******

I ate an avocado
Or two
Maybe a bit too much

Yes I am full
Adding popcorn
To that lunch

I sometimes expect
For food to do
Something more

To help make this life
Less than a total bore

But all it does is fill
The stomach again

It's just food
It just fills the stomach
Not the emptiness within

How many hours
Do I spend alone

How many hours
Sitting in this home?

It's just a program
I say

It spins around the sun
And I'm here another day

Hopefully my time will come
To start a career
Money- I do need some

Watching videos
Of attractive women
Being interviewed

They laugh
As they are
Asked how often
They *******

I don't
Know any women

I'm not that
Attractive

With my akward shoulder
I spent life alone

Hitting golf *****
On the range alone

Oh well
I suppose
Everything
Could be worse

And its going
To get much worse

In America
This corrupt
And bankrupt land

This life is so real

What is it?
What is it?  
Alan Watts asked
We can't get at it

There is republican and democrat
Christian and Jew
Young and old
The mind creates categories
What is the category of all categories then?
It must be love

Love is the source
The source of all life

It's quite a thing to be a human being
In the 21st century
I follow the ancient way
Of the teacher
From time to time
One time to the next time
That's it?

Crazy I know
How the times change

I try to do what is right
To cultivate the loving compassion
Of Jesus and of the Bodhichitta

Nobody ever told me
About the emptiness of existence
About the longing I would feel
I hope to be loved

Trying, trying so hard
To be happy
Trying to do what is right

Nothing like a good hard try

I graduated
From college
Over seven years ago

And have just over
300 dollars
In my bank account

At the gym
A lone gym bag
Was on the ground
Next to an empty treadmill

I assumed
That it was the woman's
On the adjacent treadmill

So I got
On the empty treadmill
She looked at me
And said,
"There's someone on there."

Her beautiful smile
And stunning figure
Well

I should have guessed that
But I always use the treadmill
On the end

Well
At least
I got to get close
To a beautiful woman

And see her
Lovely smile

I ran three miles
At the gym

I will return
To workout some more

Maybe go listen
To podcasts
At the park

Life is lonely
I'm used to it

Just wish I had
Someone
To hang out with

Once in a while

Oh well

At least I had
Some good kidney beans

And a hot glass
Of Ovaltine

Hello out there
I die in different ways

And tomorrow
It's all the same
Just another day

Don't make hardly any pay

Stupid ***** went
Through my room

Does it again
The gun will go boom

Shot her right
In the ******* head

Don't respect my privacy
Now you're dead

I really hate
These people

Prayed underneath
The church steeple

Maybe God is just stupid
Deaf or dumb

This meaningless existence
Isn't much fun

So **** the old therapist
And **** the world too

Nobody cares
What I go Through

I never cared
Much for this life

The lonely intellectual

I remember how beautiful
She was

And how she seemed to care

She probably didn't care
Too much at all
Just lies and a big act

Perhaps she is no Christian
At all

Just an atheist or
A "spiritual person"

Never got a Christmas card

Her husband wears
Those Obey shirts
That have the heads
Of Giants on them
The children of the Nephilim

Does she know about that

You and your Starbucks
And Disneyland
You love Disneyland

Home of the
Illuminati
And every kind of
Wickedness

Should have been
Reason enough
Not to trust you

Maybe you think you are better
Than me

With your Master's degree

You left
Only gave me
A week or two notice

I enjoyed your company
Do you have any idea

How much time
I spend alone

No
And you don't care

Nobody cares

I build the tower high
I don't let anyone in

High walls
To keep me
From the people
Who are full of sin

Lord Jesus have mercy
On my soul

I will remain chaste
Until I grown old

Even Augustine
Enjoyed the pleasures
Of the flesh

But I have not penetrated

Who would have guessed

Man is full of pride
And his wicked secrets
He will try to hide

I am alone on this day
Trust no one
That is my way

The night it turns
Into the day

I do now know
What to write or say

America has debt
It can never pay

Maybe World Wor III
Is on its way

We strive, we struggle
We cry we fight

Do not go quietly into
That good night

No one to comfort me
No one to care

I write alone
On this **** chair

I believe in love
This love
I try to show

But I have no one
To give it to
You know?

All the people
Have gone away
And so I sit alone today

I do not want
A full time career

Sitting underneath trees

Do you find it queer?

The character
In this show
Says you have to
Decide who to trust

I'll trust in my savior
It is a must

When we are done
With life this game

Not everyone
Will be treated all
The same

I love the times
I love the view
It seems sometimes
There is nothing new

Just one night spent
To hold someone

I suppose it would
Be fun

Who knows in the morning
They may decide to leave

Tell you they don't want
To hug again
They will not grieve

It's just their will
To do as they please

That one night
Of hugging
Was just a tease

And so I hold
My pillow tight
Thankful I am alone
As I turn out the light

People will hurt you
But that is okay

I learn to ignore them
And love myself
Everyday

Yesterday
I walked to
The familiar
Open space

At the beginning
Of the trail

The birds flying
Around me

I thought to myself
What it would be like
To meet the Yeti here

To enjoy the berries
He enjoys
And to talk with him

He knows what it
Is like to live life alone
And so do I

There is peace there
In nature
Amongst the trees

And everyone always asks
How everyone is
But no one knows
How anyone else is

We just keep saying,
"How are you?"A
And that's good
It's good to be polite

I just say "good"
Or "pretty well"
But one could never know
How I am

I'll tell you how I am
And what I feel
At the dentist

There is the most beautiful
And caring receptionist
Melissa is her name

And I wish I could spend
Thanksgiving with her
To spend time with her
And just have a good time

And give her a hug
She has the most loving smile
I think I have ever seen

So much so that I am
Taken aback
Even when I look at her

Well I had a friendly conversation
With her
And that will have
To suffice

The beautiful women
Come and go

There is no female friend
That's fine

What we desire
We often do not get
And that is okay

I'll just go
On a hike
Into the mountains

I don't care
About meeting
Any female friends

I won't be here
For Thanksgiving

Walking through an
Empty world
Full of emptiness

Thinking one day
That someone
Might return
The love

That I have
Given to just
About everyone
I have ever met in life

And so I go to the gym
And then to the mountains
It's just another day

Remember
Everything can change
In an instant

Life will become hard
Very hard in America

I hope someone
Out there
Thinks this is
A good poem

Or good thoughts

Not really a poem I guess

Isaiah Berlin points out that liberalism and democracy
Are the hardest of all human aspirations
To codify, quantify, and assert
Because the moment you start doing so
You are in danger of creating a structure
That is anti-liberal and anti-democratic.

Why is the television always on?

Turn it off
I ignore it now

Sure, I'll watch an occasional sporting event
At the gym it is usually on

But the news
Ugh that is the worst

When people just sit in front of the 4 p.m. news
Just seems like a waste of time

I think every American household
Would be better without a television

And as I type
The television makes a noise
In the background

I come back from the stillness
Of the hike

Sitting behind the tree
Observing the birds
Hopping and eating berries

I saw a bird fly about 4 feet
And grab a berry in midair
Then return to its resting branch

Reality beats television
Reality is reality

The program is the program
Tune into what is real
EARTH

Destroying All Pictures
In that Room

No they won't be there
To view next June

She sits in front
Of a television
Each and every day

Her life didn't matter much
Anyway

Many interesting things
To do and to see

She is just happy
To sit and to be

Yes
I'm destroying all pictures today

It is the past
And the past
Fades away

Remember the images
In your mind

Is it too much to handle
When I burn past times?

I don't ******* care
I'm not going to look
At myself anymore

The pictures
The pictures

Bleh
I can just barely tolerate
These people

I read in an article
That Tiger Woods hooked up with a ******

That's why Lindsey Vonn broke up with him

What's wrong with people?  

Lindsey always flew to be with Tiger
But Tiger always put his game first
According to the article

The friend of Tiger says he
Wished she had forgave him when they went to therapy

Well, I can understand why she didn't

Falling into an old habit
Hooking up with a ******
When you have a beautiful woman
Like Lindsay Vonn

I don't get it
How can someone who is so dedicated
And has won as many tournaments as him
Be such a big ***** up

I'm in no position to judge
As we all make mistakes
But things were going so well for them
And they were so happy together
Ugh!

It must be because he is pretty much
A self-centered person

Well Lindsay
I can run a bit better than a 7 minute mile
And I am a pretty good golfer
Let's go on a date, lol

Through Time and Space
I'll keep the same face

In an ice storm
In the desert heat

I love sweet jam
Oh what a treat

The same dull expression
It's plain to see

That this human life
Is not thrilling to me

I do my duty at work
And spend hours at the gym

I hit golf ***** on the range

And pray for forgiveness of sins

I purchased a book about
Abraham Lincoln
And the Coming of the Civil War

Welcome to earth
It's kind of a bore?

I don't want to be touched
By another human being

Some say that is a symptom
Of Aspergers it seems

These people
Seem clueless
To the dangerous economic
Situation our country is in

Politicians on the television
Say the same slogans
Again and again

The dwindling middle class
In this country
Cannot win

So what is this life about
I do not know
Seems like one big movie
Just watching a show

Looks like I found some work
That's good for me

Just want to do my duty

And so in the world
Of time and space
I hope to feel
Heavenly grace

My shoulder a permanent
Burden to bare

Picture me
On the driving range
Hitting golf *****
Without a care

Flowing water
Is what I want to become

Don't worry about being loved
Become love
And that way
Life is more fun

She was talking about
Monday being "**** day"

Because of the three day week

She couldn't wait for
The four day weekend

So stupid

My whole life
Is one vacation

Monday equals Saturday

Time does not
"March on"

It is not linear
It is not pushed
By some drill sergeant
Shouting orders

Time Is cyclical