I had a ***
And wasn't it fun

One small moment of pleasure
Having naughty talk
With a woman on a screen

These days
It's so hard to find an actual human being

Alone I live

Now it's back to my articles

Dictating onto my iphone

A labor of love

No woman is near
To give me a hug

I used to enjoy sharing
My poems with her
Then she went away

I won't see her in this life
Again

It would have been
Better perhaps
Had I not met
A woman as kind
As her

But it's okay
I'm thankful for
The times we had

I never told her
That I felt close
To her in some way

And that I hope I
Can see her in heaven
When our earthly lives
Our over one day

There I can be intimate
With her and give her
A hug perhaps

Hmm
Have a good day Liz

I cared for you
You left for good

And that's fine
I'm going to the mountains

And then to the gym again

We had a good time
Together

I wonder if you
Ever think of me
Miss Lizzae :)

Probably not that much
But that's okay
I shouldn't expect
Too much
From human beings
Anyway

They leave you
And let you down

(Even though she had to go
She didn't have a choice you know)

But never the One
Who wore the crown

King of Kings
With me to the bitter end
My best friend

Jesus is Lord

Amen.

He said I was so young
And that he wouldn't mind trading shoes with me

I told him well age is just a number
He is 55

What a strange man
Just live in the present
There are no problems

There is no youth or old age
Free your mind sir
Of these concepts

It reminds me of the license plate
That says
"I'd rather be"

You would rather be
But you are not
So do what you do
And live in the present
That's all there will ever be

Yes, this life is quite strange indeed

Ages passed
Eons passed
And nothing changed

Nothing changes
On matrix earth

And I went inside
The mainframe
For what it's worth

I've been
Observing the times
Since birth

Don't you
Threaten me

I sat underneath
Shade of oaktree

I'm a man
So I stand
When I ***

A good hubby puts his wife's needs first!
Yes, he should treat his wife as his goddess
Every woman deserves a man
That is devoted to her

A small tear falls
From my eye

Sometimes I wonder why

Seems this shoulder
Is meant to be

But that's okay
It's just me

A bit of an akward shoulder
I will bare

It is my responsibility
To show great care

Loud music
Fast jerky movements

This is their "cardio"

Controlled breaths
They are out of breath

This is not
The way of Tao

Thank you
Dr. Heimlich

For your
Life saving maneuver

It has saved many lives

And you used it
To save an 87 year old woman
From choking
On a hamburger

At the senior center dining room

He was interviewed and said
This was the first time
Using the maneuver

Although in a 2003
Interview with BBC online
He said he used the maneuver
One previous time
Three years earlier

So that is one confirmed
Successful application
Of the Heimlich maneuver

And possibly two
Successful applications
By Dr. Heimlich

This is a heartfelt thanks
To you Dr. Heimlich
To a technique
That has undoubtedly saved
Thousands of lives

We all breathe the same air

The prideful rich
The humble poor

Each of us
Sets foot
Outside of our doors

Off to meet
This life a test

Love your neighbor
And be true

Do unto others
As you would have them
Do unto you

Are you meet
With comtempt
Or disregard?

I know life
Can be sometimes
Quite hard

Each one of us
Has so many times

Use them wisely
And at the heavenly banquet
You may one day dine

All the wise and loving humans
Will be seated there

They have one thing in common

They showed great care

The treadmill
Is on an incline

I am running uphill
I am not stopping
I am not stopping

This life
It just comes and comes and comes
And comes
Almost 30 now

How far
How fast
Would I run
Could I run

The therapist
She doesn't understand

There are no words
No philosophies
For this life

There is my experience
My earth experience
Nobody told me
It could be like this

My Life is
Repetitive

At times
Lonely

Times
Places
Names
Faces

It's all the same to me

I'm going on a hike
Up a 14,000 ft mountain

I may just keep on hiking

Oh I'm not serious about that

It will be nice to hike
With friends

I hope to meet a hiking goddess

Maybe when I go to Yosemite

In my dreams

She has similar interests as I do

She enjoys history and philosophy

She is fit

And has a powerful

And athletic body

She can even squat more than me

In my fantasy

And with those powerful legs

Can easily pin me down


We hike the trails together

And at night

I give her oral pleasure

For hours on end


What a way to spend

A few days at Yosemite


I told her about my pledge

Of chastity

And it is so hard for me
(literally, lol)


She came equipped with many toys

And so I put on
My chastity belt
Just as she requested

She is staying in another tent
I take a peak
And see a taller
More powerful man

Caressing her with his hands!

I cry a bit inside my tent

She told me she was a ****** too
And I won't let that man
Take her virginity away

No, not ever
Not on this day

I steal her away
From that man

Virgins we will both remain
I tell her
He will just leave you
*** is a dangerous game

And so better companions
We came to be

Me providing oral pleasure
And both of us

Committed to
Our pledge of chas-ti-ty

The Lion of Panshir
United different ethnic groups
Uzbeks and Turkmen
People from Kandhar, Paktiyah, and Jalalabad
Under the Northern Alliance

He went to try to negotiate with the Taliban
He said they were "In a different world"

The Taliban are not Muslims
They are murderers and thugs
They do not serve Allah

The Lion of Panshir and the Mujahideen
Defended his native homeland from the Taliban

The Taliban could not enter the Panshir Valley
10,000 Taliban were slayed
By the Mighty Lion of Panshir and his forces

The mighty lion went to try to negotiate with the Taliban
He said they were "In a different world"
Death to the Taliban

May God continue to bless the ancestors of the mighty lion of Panshir
And the people of the Panshir Valley
The true followers of Allah
The Most High God

100,000 people gathered
For the funeral of Ahmed Massoud
Great leader, Loving father, Proud warrior
They built a musem in his honor

Your spirit lives on Ahmed Massoud
Allahu Akbar!
God is greatest
And you were one of His greatest servants

xsdsds

Elsa is so kind
She always writes
Supportive comments

I send a hug
Through the web
To you Elsa

Maybe I'll give my pillow
A small hug and pretend
It's you

Well,
If that's okay with you

I heard some scientific materialist
Talk about the future of robots in our society in a podcast

He said human beings are just machines
He laughed at the idea of consciousness

I'm not a machine
A man is not a machine

A man has hopes and dreams
People show empathy and love
People create and inspire
And overcome cancer

Any fool can see
We are not machines

Regardless if you are atheist, agnostic
I don't care
I have respect for you even though I disagree

Don't call me a machine
I am man

She placed
Her young husband
In a chastity belt

It was important for
Him to learn self-control

He wasn't going to
Just have *** whenever
He wanted to

If he was attentive
To her needs
And the house was clean

Well, then
Perhaps a release
Would be allowed

But it was up to her
When that would occur

No clinging
No grasping

Changing names and changing faces
Seeing different places

A strange world of happenings

One time to next time
That's it

Three days
Of work per week

Is plenty for me

Yes, I'm Lazy

A lazy idiot lives in this home

Countless hours she spends glued to the television

Never bothered to contribute to society

An unexamined life is not worth living

A meaningless life
Filled with nothing

"Did I get something to eat"

She asks.

Yes, I can see the food

You are the most ignorant, obnoxious person
I have ever met

People like you
Should be sent to India
To work 13 hours
In a sweatshop
Just to make enough money
To survive

Your luxury car impounded

People like you
Get Alzheimers
Because you never use
Your mind

You are one of the laziest
Most obnoxious people
I have ever met

You don't live
But exist
Like a picture on the wall

And I hate to be harsh
But it's true

You are an incredibly stupid
And lazy individual

I won't be here
For the holidays

Hello Steve,

In 2006 I was part of a team that worked under the Joint Chiefs of Staff. I was an analyst, my job was to look at CBNER equipment and report on compliance at military installations and hospitals, as well as give my opinion on what possibilities terrorist would pursue.

During one of my visits, I had completed my assessment, the officers that read my findings were very impressed and wanted to speak with me. During my questioning I was asked “what do you think would be the most likely scenario for the U.S. coming under attack? This was my answer:

“Looking at all the possibilities, current strength of the U.S. and the amount of firearms and patriots in the U.S, the only way an invasion would be possible would be if a devastating event fell upon the country. The event would have to weaken the current infrastructure to the point where all emergency response elements would be exhausted. Fire and rescue, police, National Guard and reserve military units would be overwhelmed, and the rest of the military would be overseas unable to respond in a timely manner. When this occurs, that is when foreign entities will invade the U.S, when it is weak and overwhelmed”.

Steve, the massive military movement and placement that is hurriedly going on right now is for a reason, they are preparing for something big, within the natural disaster category to occur, and it is very obvious. The powers at be know an event is inevitable, that is why food, water ammo and communications are being quickly placed underground, they know how devastating the event will be, and they know the U.S. will be over run and they are going to hide during all the chaos.

When this occurs, people are going to be taken totally off guard, because they are not telling the public what is about to occur openly. Through movies, music videos and in a massive way video games, the public is being covertly warned about what is coming, and the public is not paying attention.

Even though the word of our lord and savior clearly states, through his word, that a strong delusion will fall upon people, diverting there attention and blocking them from noticing the signs, I am still blown away watching the delusion occur. I will be fasting with you and the other men of god for the salvation of this nation.

God Bless America.

We sent her off to India
To make a living there

This fake and phony Christian
Who sits all day in a chair

Now she'll work in an orphanage
12 hours a day

You pathetic human being
You have a debt to pay

For all the years of nothing
Doing nothing
For your fellow human beings

Now they'll put you to work
For a few rupees

This is no lazy American Dream
You are a selfish and lazy person
And no one really cares

Never doing anything of value
Just sitting over there

The television comes on earlier
And earlier each day

I'd like to throw it away
All this television is not okay

I'll donate the car to a charity
You don't need it anyway

You can walk down to the market
You don't need a car to earn your pay

Yes there still are people out there
Who never live at all

They just exist for nothing
Content to ignore God's call

"My God"

She says in an annoying voice

Go to sleep

Your whole life

You have slept

Done nothing

The American housewife

You are a do nothing

That cannot keep the house clean

What Would Life Be
WIthout Goals?

The shirt read

Well, It would be
Life Without Goals

And that would be my life

I have principles
But not goals

I am Crying
Alone In My Room

I have the music though
I have the music
It's the small things
Look for the small things in life

I will not give in
I will not give up

They try to push me down
Down into the ground
No, no no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Any time
Any place
It can be expressed in any language
You can feel it at any age

Love overcomes
Love heals
My love goes out to my followers

Well, thank you
Thank you very much
I am honored that you enjoyed my writing
All you need is love

It is plain to see
I'm a log

Adrift in the sea
Nowhere important to be

And it really
Does suit me

I lived on an island
Underneath the shade
Of the coconut tree

Then a storm came
And changed my reality

And so I drift here
And then I drift there

Yes I'm a drifter
Who cares?

Went on a walk
The fields covered
In snow

How the
Full moon gave
An ethereal glow

Why do I have
To live on
This planet?

I do not know

Open spaces
Wide places

I see what
The creator
Of this planet sees

I am a miserable person
Just let me be

No female friends
Barely any money

A sad frown
Upon my face
I have had
Spiritual experiences

Where I learned
About grace

I try to fix my body
I have tried every day

Just seems like
I am meant to
Be this way

My left side stronger
Than my right

The night feels
Just the same as day

Nothing is alright
And I'm not okay

Hope one day
I won't be alone

I love this planet
I will write this poem

Alone and Unloved
Life Never Cares about your feelings
You may like someone and they may marry someone else

Life never cares

And I wonder what the point of all this **** is
All these years on this rock ball
That spins around the sun

And it's all the same
Same seasons

Self-identity an illusion
I go from one day to the next

Getting ****** again

And America will soon be over
An economy ruined
Marshall Law and Fema Camps

So **** our corrupt leaders
They ruined this country

After our emergency food runs out
I'l just go to the mountains
**** FEMA camps

And I'll just sit there
Eat my remaining food
And starve to death I guess

To all the lonely people
Who never get hugs

Who don't like
Their bodies

I know how you feel

At least we can never
Get hurt

Cause we will
Never have a bf or gf
Or never get married

I returned to the mountain
Becoming part of the mountain

I'll live by my own rules

I refuse to work
For worthless dollars

I spend my days alone
Listening to podcasts
Playing golf

I wish I had a close female friend
That I could spend a few hours each day with

Well
Wishing something will not make it happen

That close companion will probably never come

Always alone
Hoping I could feel loved
By this female friend

Well its just a dream
Better to forget about it
As I don't think it will ever come true

Go on suffering
That's all I can do

12 turns to 1
And then to 2

No smiling woman
No woman who cares
To give me a hug
Or say "there there"

Just more hours
Alone and alone

And I still keep writing
These rhyming poems

An afternoon
At the park alone

And who really cares

No woman to comfort
No woman to say. "There, there"

One day it will be over
One day it will be done

And turns out earth is lame
And not much fun

I enjoy my job I guess
I try not to let my room become a mess

There is always less
Less and less

Welcome to life
Some type of test

I didn't get a gf
And I live my life alone
Listening to podcasts
And watching amazon video
At home

Life is full of emptiness
And loneliness too

No female friend I guess
Nothing I can do

I'm 31
I wasn't sure
Where to go

What to do
This afternoon

So I watched
People stream their games
On Twitch

It's a big world out there
With many people

But I don't know
Many people

I watch videos
On Youtube

I work out
But I don't get noticed
By women

Too poor to go on dates

I wonder about this world
What I am doing here

Big muscles would
Get me noticed
Or a good voice

Life is so lonely
So isolating

I am experiencing how
Lonely life is

Strange
All so strange

I wave
From my
Suburban bedroom
In southern California

Hello online people
Somewhere out there

I am alone again...

Waiting for something
But nothing is coming

And I'm all alone
Again

On my Ipad
It's 2016

And I am alone
On a Friday night again

At least I have
Documentaries
And podcasts

Alone again

Day after day

Month after month

Oh well.....

America is doomed

No money

No where to go

On a Friday night

Repeat, repeat, repeat

Repeat, repeat

There he goes to the mountains again

To the mountains again he goes

Society it isolates me
I still can't find a job

I sit alone
Listening to podcasts

History, philosophy, or foreign affairs
Our country is *******
And California too

Governor Brown announcing
That water consumption
Has to be decreased by 25%

I'm not going to the FEMA camp

Americans are angry
Our future ruined

Seems like nothing ever changes
In my life

I went on a beautiful hike today
And will be going on a hike with my good friend
In a week and a half

Maybe one day I'll meet a woman who enjoys
Hiking as much as me

No money for dates
Don't know any women

Alone again
On a Friday night

Does my therapist
Give a **** about me?

I doubt it, haha

In this world
One must look after yourself

Cause it seems
Nobody really gives a f*

Where is my mistress?
Where is my loving mistress?
I hope to meet you one day

When you live your life
Alone

It is not that great

Human life
Kind of ****** in a way

I'm thankful though
On this day

And no
I will not work 40 hours
A week

I will not leave this home

If I had friends
It would make me feel
More content overall

Strange for a human being to be always alone
I don't think it is meant to be like this?
Human beings are meant to be social

But my situation these days
Means I'm usually alone
Just me and my podcasts

I had a female friend once
And she left

Why?

She was my therapist

I need a woman

A woman to comfort
And to care

There are no female friends
Anymore

And I'm tired

Of another day alone

Alone Alone Alone
Alone Now

I don't want to work
My therapist left me
I guess she is just a liar
Who doesn't care

It was a robotic voice
A cold voice

"Hello"
The IRS has filed
A lawsuit against you

Refer to case#......

One of those
Computerized voices

I think it was chosen
To be that way
The IRS wants its money
It is uncaring, unfeeling

So is life
It is uncaring
Remains aloof
To the individual's needs

Better to turn hopes
Desires
Better to turn that all off

I'm just a tall
Akward body

Why do I watch
Others play video games
I'm not sure

Must be nice
To have relationships

I will
Do things my way

When they get back from
Their trip
They will be greeted
By the IRS Message

Poor taxpayer
Half of his live
He's just been working
For the government

I rely on the generosity
Of others

A drifter

Who knows, one day
I may not be able to pay
My bills at all

I will inherit the home

An isolated life
Is misunderstood

Same dull frown

I often wondered
Like Data

What it would be like
To be more content
Like most people

Changing times
Changing places
Changing names
Changing faces

Not many connections
At all

Just sounds
Sights
Days
Times

We are tired of waiting
For Jesus

We are waiting

Make things better
Make me feel happy
Make my chest stronger
My body less awkward

I suppose you can't make me happy

Oh well

I don't feel anything

Leave me alone

I don't "do work"
That is so eighties

Drive to some office
Sit there for 8 hours

Blahhhhh
My parents have money

I watch documentaries
And spend years alone

I'm isolated

I'm alone in America

A few people will read this
I'm in a library

In the Los Angeles area.
I cost $900 bucks a month

I don't earn

I'm out of position

I'm driving around
Suburban neighborhoods

This is my life

I've just got
To make more money
Just got to work
40 to 50
Hours a week

Just got to

I don't know why
No one can tell me why

That's just how
This earth system operates

I've just got to
Love full time work

And the American Dream
And blah blah blah blah

I've looked for work
I can't find any

There are thousands of other
People like me
With a college degree
And a teaching credential

They don't
Pay us
Hardly anything

I don't make enough
For my own apartment

I don't make enough
But I've just got to
Got to keep on trying

To find full time employment

Blah blah blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah blah blah blah

The ego is an illusion
The Taoist is understood

Here in America

Loud sounds, shouting
Flashing lights,
Going here going there
Busy bodies

I'm just here to do
The minimum

I don't care
If I'm hated
By everyone

Who cares

I'm tired
And I'm lonely

And I don't have
Any female friends

Blah blah blah blah
Blah blah blah

I sit in front of my Ipad
Watching documentaries
There are no people here

And no
It's not
A "nice day"

No matter how much
She says that

It's not nice at all

Just another day
Alone in America

I'm not going to work
And I'm not paying bills
And I don't give a ****
And I don't want a gf
And I don't want a hug

And I want to be alone
Completely alone
And I don't need a friend

So I'm going to the gym
Then I'm going to the mountains

He wants to be left alone

Just leave him alone
Just leave him alone

Alone in parks
Or at the gym

A solitary life
It is God's will
Just for him!

He is content to be broke
And live in
His suburban home

Matt thoroughly enjoys
Composing poems

I do really love times alone now
It's mostly all I know

To the gym
Then to the golf course

The month of April
Or of May

It's just another month
In this computer program

Just another day

I'll hit ***** on the golf course
Yes I like to be alone

Some people have a bunch of money

But they will die just the same
They can't take money with them
In life this stupid game

And most people
Struggle to have enough food
Which is a shame

And maybe I don't want
To be a part
Or a player in this game

So I hit ***** on the golf course
Because I like to be alone

Why did my good friend
Not call me back

I guess he doesn't care
I guess I don't care either
And won't bother him anymore

Living on planet earth
Where everything is a chore

Dragging around this body
From here to there

I enjoy fishing on lakes
Without a care

I remember when I caught
A small mouth bass

I ate it and it tasted yum
A yummy little bass
As it digested in my tum

And this rock ball it spins
Around the sun

And you can't really ever
Have a gf

When you are dull and not that fun
And I just want to be a ******
Forever alone

And I do like writing
Writing these poems

As I sit in my suburban home

Life is some type of saga

Or some type of dream
And yes I do *******
In front of the computer

And no it's not a big deal
I'm just writing about my life
And what is real

And everyone is my neighborhood
Has a fancy car
And loves their self
And maybe most
Are just concerned with wealth

Life is so easy
When you have a paycheck

Maybe I'm not concerned with money
Anymore

I'll just go sit on park lawns
And be a total bore

Sometimes it seems
As though life is just a chore

And people never stop
Making fun of Jesus
Yes it happens everyday

But this is nothing new
Christians have always been
Persecuted in some way

And our government created ISIS
And Iraq is out of control

They over took
The Shiite minority
And our running wild

And here in America
There is no future for the child

Darpa creating more
Killer robots
In the name of
Technological progress

But I don't think it's okay
I think their technology
Will be used in the wrong way

And a big drought
In California
Makes me want to shout