Always Far Away From Me
These human beings

Except maybe a few

Only to a couple
Have I said
"I love you"

I wonder what it would
Be like to hug a woman
That really cared

To take a nap with her
To hold and to care

Blah

Why Do
We need a Day
To recognize Father's
Or Mothers?

Chr
Aren't Birthdays enough?

It's a stupid holiday
And no
I don't recognize it

F Father's Day

Dad, you're a decent guy

But **** Father's Day

You're the one
Who helped teach me
Not to expression emotion

So *******
On this day

Ignorance is bliss
They say
America is doomed

Financially
In just about every way

    The FDIC does not have the money to cover your deposits as it has only $25 billion in its deposit insurance fund. By law, the FDIC is required to keep a balance equivalent to only 1.15% of insured deposits on hand. Yes, America, that means that less than 2% of your deposits are covered.

Others have pointed out to me that the Dodd-Frank Act (Section 716) now bans taxpayer bailouts of most speculative derivatives activities. You remember the derivatives don’t you? They were the imaginary wealth that was built upon more imaginary wealth but were guaranteed with hard assets backed by the banks. When this house of cards collapsed, it pulled the banks down and led to the series of bailouts which has devastated our economy.


Therefore, when your bank defaults, and it will, the depositors as well as the banks will turn to the FDIC for relief. The FDIC will have no choice but to draw upon its credit line in order to cover a BofA, Wells Fargo and JP Morgan derivatives bust which has been co-mingled with savings account funds. The resulting effect is that this will require a taxpayer bailout to cover the credit line.This will negate the safety from the bailouts that the public thought that they were receiving under the Dodd-Franks bill of no more bailouts.

What very few people are talking about, and as is the case with all credit lines, this money will have to be paid back. Therefore, the coming default of the FDIC, used to cover the derivatives debt, will become the excuse for another taxpayer bailout. And on and on it goes.

Fiber is good for you
Because it keeps things movin' right through

I find myself here
Then I find myself there

I'm not really sure
And I don't quite care

No objectives
Or programs
Or long term goals

Just walking on the earth
Until I grow old

A mother walks
With child
Underneath
The Eucalyptus tree

The coy swim
Quite happily

The people
Rise and fall
Just let things be

First I go here
And then I go there

Let me explain

First I go to
The shower

Then the kitchen
To eat breakfast

Then I go to the car
Then to the job site

Then to the gym

First I go here
And then I go there

And isn't it strange
First I go here
And then I go there

The water goes here
And then it goes there
Over the rock
And through the rock

The animals drink from
The water

The water goes here
And then it goes there

It nourishes all things
Without striving

First I went
To the shower

And then to
The kitchen

And then I went
To the car

Then to the job site
And then I
Went to the gym

Then I went home
Then I watched a movie

First I went here
And then I went here

First I did this
Then I did that

As you can see
This is all
One big matrix program

FIrst I go here
Then I go there

Then I do this
Then I do that

I see sunsets
But usually not sunrises

I go on walks
In moutain suburbs

First I go here
And then I go there

Then I do this
Then I do that

I see birds flying

I went fishin'
And I was feelin' fine

I took my fly and leader
And tied it to my line

Spent a few hours casting
And enjoyed the day

I caught no fish
But that's okay

It sure was peaceful there
I have to say

What a great concept God!
Put us in bodies
We don't get to choose

Make us suffer
For decades and decades

On this miserable
******* up planet

Oh how glorious it is
And how I glorify you

Through my own
Constant struggles!

I'm so grateful for the endless
Misery of existence

Well, hey
It can always get worse
Right?

Haha

My ugly
Weak body
Is pushed to the ground

The powerful
Strong male
Shoves his big c*
In my mouth

I am learning
Learning to pleasure
My master....

On this earth
It is the rule of the stronger

I thank him
After he spurts
A large load
Into my mouth...

I hate stupid questions

And stupid people

Stupid family members

Stupid housewife

*******

It doesn't matter
How many worthless
Paper dollars
You may have

If you belong
To a country club

All that matters
Is If you have food
Clothing and water

If you can persevere
And be good
Be good to
Your fellow man

As everything collapses
As our society collapses
Yep

Sure enough
The economy will collapse
One day

I'm happy
Because I found
A footage site

Where I can see
Different times
And places
Different names and faces

It enables me
To travel across
This beautiful planet

From the comfort
Of my own home

Praise The Lord
Alluah Akbar

God is bigger
Or greater than
Anything I can imagine

And I just saw
An Eastern Orthodox
Congregation

Singing worship songs
In their own tongue

And I began to cry

How wonderful it is
Hehe

And yesterday
I saw Chinese men
Speak in their
Native tongue

Each flashed a grin
Oh what fun
And what a joy

I once drank
Milk with soy
Hehe

The body is just
This thing

It has desires
For food and for ***

And the mind wonders
What this life is
Anyhow

Hours alone
My akward shoulder
Never changing
Never improving
Despite my efforts

And look at the beautiful
Fitness goddess
On instagram

In love with herself
With her body

Better I suppose not to
Take so much pride
And devote so much time
To the body

Although I do enjoy fitness

I just wish I didn't have
An akward shoulder

Oh well, nobody cares
Walking akwardly
From here to there

A world full of emptiness

Pleasuring myself to fitness babes
On instagram

And after that desire is fulfilled
The desire to eat again

On and on and on
God the clockmaker

Sitting on his throne
Or whatever

Your earth has really gone
Terribly wrong

We are tired of waiting
For the second coming
Of your Son

The saints are crying out
When will justice be done?

Life isn't that great
Sometimes it seems just plain dumb

It turns out it is a lonely place
And not much fun

100 years more or less
Will one day be over

I guess it's just a test
There better be something
Better in store

Because human life
Can be a bore

Is there golf in heaven?
I like that game

Never loved or cared for
By a female friend
What a shame

Alone sitting under a tree
Same dull face
No one can help me

My shoulder will never change
Forever akward
Still the same

No upward mobility
No American dream

No steady paycheck
No career

It was all just a big joke

Now just store food and water
And hope to make it through

There is no future
No future for Americans

The land will be judged

I see difficult times in the near future

This poem is for
Every lonely guy
Who works out
Who is kind and caring

And who is ignored
By women

Who interacts
With beautiful
Married women

Who sees women
With boyfriends

And who
Does not
Have a female friend

And who dreams
Of the soft touch
And warm *******
Of a woman

My Fortune Cookie Said
I will travel to many exotic places

Haha
I sure did today

I was on the trail near the golf course
Looking for golf *****

I climbed up above the trail
And sat on a tree

I was at the gym too

That is an exotic place
Where I see many exotic women
Of different ethnicities

I don't need to travel
To see exotic places

I just spent $41 dollars
On a custom T shirt

Forty-one dollars
I cannot afford to spend

But you know what?
I really don't care

I have always been poor

Besides
I make twice the minimum wage

It is as though you have an eye
That sees all forms
But does not see itself.
This is how your mind is.
Its light penetrates everywhere
And engulfs everything,
So why does it not know itself?

My vacation time
Will be spent

Reading and observing
In a public park

I could never understand
Why people always said
"Happy Friday"

That day feels
The same day as
Monday to me

And it is the same

I see no need
To try to save
For a apartment
Of my own

I make about
Twice the minimum wage

Content to live here
I suppose

And inherit the house
One day

No money
No job
At home

On my ******* computer
Talking to people online
No money
To go out to meet people

Isolated
Everyone is isolated

Bank account reads -50
Tired of this ******* home

Martial Law
On the way

Economic Collapse On The Way
America is doomed
And done for

I made it down
To the local park

Got my small blue bag
And yoga mat

First I lay against the tree
And then On the dirt mound

In each position I was elevated
Like a natural lounge chair

As I lay against the tree
I watched two women do
Their workout
With kettlebells

A group of young men
Talking about twitter
And Instagram
Loud and obnoxious
Ignorant

As I try to write this poem
Fox news in the background

From the park I
Drove down to the library
Parked there

Walked down the street
And as I walked back
Saw a young woman
With what her son
I think

She was about my age
I wish things were different

And that maybe I knew her
And we could relax together
And have lunch

Or just take a nap together
I don't even want ***

But it's just more of the same

And I began to think
Of human life
As all some
Stupid joke

And Jesus is my savior
And I'm a Christian

But being alone all the time
Well, it can grow a bit wearisome

I used to see a therapist
Who was kind
She was fun

Young Americans
Are Isolated

I want judgment
To come soon
I am tired of waiting

I want this wicked nation
To pay for its sins
This corrupt land
This Sinful nation

To be judged
To feel the wrath
Of an Almighty God

American dollars
Are worthless
Worthless!

And I'd like to say hello
To all the kind women
Out there
On this site
That I never got to meet
Or hug

I'd like to hug you

The body is a burden
This life is burdensome
It drags on.............................

This country will be in ruins
Soon enough
You will reap what
You sew America!

A Cruel World

For a few fleeting moments

You may enjoy

A chat with a woman online

She is kind

Then she leaves

Is it just better not to seek companionship?

Maybe


Afterall-- Being alone
That is the natural state
Of my existence

Beautiful things they go away
The therapist
The kind woman online

You know
The more times it happens
One day I'll just forget about
Ever meeting anyone

To enjoy women
But not to know any

Oh you know
It's all so ******

We were having a lovely conversation
Ah well
You know good things are usually spoiled

Now I'm alone again
Sitting at my computer

Every time I seek
For some human companionship

Just **** it
******* **** **** **** ****

I'm not afraid you know
Of globalists and ****** teams
Of endless days searching for food

I'm not afraid
Because I spend my life alone

Alone on earth
No one gives a ****

Why, why, ****** ****

We were having a nice conversation?
I didn't say anything rude

Ugh ******
Maybe I shouldn't have mentioned the therapist

Oh well you know
I just wish I had some ******* friends
That I could see each week

We are isolated
Young Americans....
ISOLATED

No man is an island
But I am close

Make sure you have the necessary food and water
Emergency supplies
Remember to care about yourself
Say your prayers

You're all alone and just with God
Nobody ******* cares

Fuckking fuckk!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

******* **** !!!!!!!!!!!

GET BACK TO THE COMPUTER!!!!!!!

I NEED TO TALK--

WHY DID YOU LEAVE?

YOU MADE ME GO TO THE MOUNTAINS

AGAIN!

I went to the gym
The woman at the desk was so pretty
She was talking about how she had been snacking all day

She said, "Then I had wheat thins."
She remarked how she hadn't had a proper meal all day
I said, "Sounds like alot of snacking."
She smiled and the other guy laughed

That was life
Effortless
Wonderful

I wish I could meet someone like her
It's too bad
I just want to show love to people
Wherever I am

Here I am at home
I don't have the resources
To go out and meet anyone

Almost 30 now
I suppose I will go drive around
Listening to a Itunes lecture
Given by a Yale professor
About the Vikings

At least I have my La Croix
It is natural grapefruit flavored
Sparkling water

I met a man at the gym
75 I believe
Still smiling and loving life
Came up to me to say hello

We talked for a bit
I hope to see him again

I told this asian guy
With his birding book
That I saw a black and yellow bird
In the gym parking lot
He looked excited
I hope he has a great time birding

Turns out it was a California Oriole!
Next time I see him
I'll tell him I saw an Oriole

I wear a hand brace on my right hand
Because I banged my hand into a camera case

It was not as hard as a wooden desk
But still a little hard
So my right hand got a little sore

Of course the argument was about money
Money that I never have

It doesn't matter
Our currency will be completely worthless in a year or two
A big financial collapse is on the horizon

To the *******
That called me
"Old Seabass"

F* You

I may not be
As handsome
As you are

But I'm tougher
And meaner

Our country prepares
For a possible disaster

A terrible time
Will come
During our lifetime

You may be rich
Or good looking

But you're no better
Than any other
Decent person out there

So F* You

Rude obnoxious people
Calling people names
That they don't even know

You ****

New International Version
For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want.

New Living Translation
The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions.

English Standard Version
For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.

New American Standard Bible
For the flesh sets its desire against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are in opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please.

King James Bible
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

Holman Christian Standard Bible
For the flesh desires what is against the Spirit, and the Spirit desires what is against the flesh; these are opposed to each other, so that you don't do what you want.

International Standard Version
For what the flesh wants is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit wants is opposed to the flesh. They are opposed to each other, and so you do not do what you want to do.

NET Bible
For the flesh has desires that are opposed to the Spirit, and the Spirit has desires that are opposed to the flesh, for these are in opposition to each other, so that you cannot do what you want.

Aramaic Bible in Plain English
For the flesh craves anything that opposes The Spirit and The Spirit craves whatever opposes the flesh, and they both are contrary one to another, lest you would be doing whatever you want.

GOD'S WORD® Translation
What your corrupt nature wants is contrary to what your spiritual nature wants, and what your spiritual nature wants is contrary to what your corrupt nature wants. They are opposed to each other. As a result, you don't always do what you intend to do.

Jubilee Bible 2000
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary the one to the other, so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

King James 2000 Bible
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that you cannot do the things that you would.

American King James Version
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that you cannot do the things that you would.

American Standard Version
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are contrary the one to the other; that ye may not do the things that ye would.

Douay-Rheims Bible
For the flesh lusteth against the spirit: and the spirit against the flesh; for these are contrary one to another: so that you do not the things that you would.

Darby Bible Translation
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these things are opposed one to the other, that ye should not do those things which ye desire;

English Revised Version
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are contrary the one to the other; that ye may not do the things that ye would.

Webster's Bible Translation
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other; so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

Weymouth New Testament
For the cravings of the lower nature are opposed to those of the Spirit, and the cravings of the Spirit are opposed to those of the lower nature; because these are antagonistic to each other, so that you cannot do everything to which you are inclined.

World English Bible
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, that you may not do the things that you desire.

Young's Literal Translation
for the flesh doth desire contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit contrary to the flesh, and these are opposed one to another, that the things that ye may will -- these ye may not do;

Look at my little
2010 Honda LX run

But at $4.50 a gallon
I can't have too much fun

I can't drive
Here or there
Without a care

Because
Gas --Well
It just costs so much!

Day into night
And night into day
It keeps happening
Here on Earth

It is very persistent too
Haha!

Get Back To The Fight Soldier!

This WWII game shouts its order

I never left the fight sir
Still fighting..

It shouldn't be a fight
This life
Should happen naturally

But it can be a fight
When you spend it alone
With no job

None of this should be surprising in light of the following:

In February of 2010 the Internment and Resettlement Operations (FM 3-39.40) was leaked, a U.S. Army manual outlininghow to process detainees into FEMA camps.

In 2009 the National Guard posted advertisements for job as they were looking for Internment and Resettlement Specialists (31-E) to work in “civilian internee camps”.

he National Defense Authorization Act For Fiscal Year 2011, which was signed by Barack Obama on New Year’s Eve of 2011 and it allows for permanent detention without due process oflaw.

Civil Disturbance Operations (FM 3-19.15), describes the “operational threats of the civil disturbance environment,” the “general causes for civil unrest,” weapons deployment, the legal considerations of “control force operations,” the legal considerations of “apprehension, search, and detention,” and recording the “number of cadre and inmates injured or killed.”  The manual contains rules of engagement regarding the use of “deadly force” in confronting “dissidents,” which were made disturbingly clear with the directive that a “warning shot will not be fired.” This is a shoot to **** document.

Could it be anymore clear? And this is only the tip of the iceberg.

I live in a small town outside of Tampa which used to be a small farming community, and still maintains some of it's small town charm; railroad tracks and farming fields. This being said, we live right off of the main road leading in and out of Tampa, and if we were to take a right onto said road, we would hit a SuperWalmart on the right just a couple miles up.

Around January of this year, I noticed a black military helicopter flying very low, back and forth along the above mentioned road - almost as if they were surveying it. I thought it was strange because it happened several days in a row during the work week and during the same time of day - middle of the afternoon. the flight pattern was the same each day - always on the same side of the road (the Walmart side of the road) with the helicopter making it to just about where the Walmart is before turning around and coming back toward our neighborhood to the the nearest intersection - then back to the Walmart again. This all happened a few months before JH was disclosed, so while I thought it odd, there was nothing to connect the dots to - until now.

Last week as I was driving my child to school and was shocked to see that 2 ****** recognition cameras (one pointing in each direction of traffic) had been erected at each stop light along the main road. These cameras were not there the afternoon before when I picked my child up from school. During the middle of the night, during the time span of about 12 hours, these cameras had been placed all along the main road of our small community, which also runs along a railroad track and leads right up to the Walmart.

4 days ago, there was a black helicopter hovering very low over our neighborhood with a man sitting half outside of the helicopter, his legs hanging outside the door, facing our homes and pointing what appeared to be some sort of scanning device toward the homes in our neighborhood. They were so low and so close that I could have tossed a tennis ball to them and they would have caught it. I noted that this helicopter activity also occurred during the middle of the afternoon, and on a weekday (when most folks are at work and would maybe not notice this type of activity). This continued for almost 10 minutes, rattling my windows and my nerves.

2 days ago a Sheriff's helicopter was hovering over our neighborhood, in the same area, but above the homes instead of in front of them like the helicopter from the previous 'visit'.

Now I'll share what I saw today that makes me feel we have much less time than we thought: This morning my husband and I drove to the feed store to pick up more chicken feed - which is just a few miles up the road past the Walmart I referenced earlier. As we were driving past the Walmart I saw an unmarked beige prison bus with blacked out, bar-covered windows driving up FROM BEHIND THE BACK OF THE WALMART. With all of the talk of Walmart storing up equipment for JH and the FEMA camp round-ups, I felt that his was very noteworthy. Anyone who has seen a correctional institute bus knows that correctional institutes mark their transport buses with the name of the correctional facility they belong to - this was not marked at all.

I don't think it's a coincidence that people all over the country are reporting the same combinations at the same time (military movement - helicopters and vehicles / Walmarts / train tracks / ****** recognition cameras / FEMA prison buses - some, like the one I saw behind a Walmart).

Please everyone - get ready - get right with God. Repent. Pray. Ask God to show you how to be ready and what to do when things unfold.

Your Sister in Christ

Get Some Real Food

There is never much
Chicken, fish, or turkey here

If there is some
It doesn't last long

I resort to eating
The canned beans and salmon
I have

Go to the market
Get some real food

I don't care
If you heard me cuss

Get your own package
At the door

You good for nothing

Laziest person
That ever lived

And a true good for nothing

Just Some Guy
All alone
I ate too much peanut butter

I work out
I'm not that strong
Not that fast

I do not rely on the strength of my own flesh

I'm tired
I never really feel that well

I don't have a job

Our country is dying
Slowly dying

My ancestors
One served in a Delaware unit
During our war for Independence
Another fought for the Union

One grandfather was a submariner
Another a soldier
Great uncle was a paratrooper

I'm not going to the FEMA camp
I'l fight, fight, fight
To the bitter end

Give me liberty
Or give me death!

Knocking on my door
Just to say "Hi"

Well, "Hello"
Now, "Good bye"

17 years I've lived here
And I find it quite queer
You feel the need to say hello

Just come, and go

I do not care
Where you went
Where you need to be

Your life is meaningless
Anyone can say

Hello To you
And one day
A final good bye

I do not cry
For fake Christians

I don't care
What you are
Making for dinner

Or what you shot
At the golf course

In case you haven't noticed
I don't eat dinner

When you are eating

I eat later

Knock on this door
And ask if I want to eat

And I'm going to make
You feel very stupid

Go away
Go away

I do not care
If these people
Survive the day

If they die

I do not care

Life is not
At all fair

Not enough money
To move out

Shut up
Shut up
And go away

Or you may not live
To make it through
The day

If you die
I will not care

The funeral
I will not be there

I'll send a representative
To fill in for me

It's plain to see
You really bothered me

I build walls
Around myself
A thousand feet high

When terrible times come
I won't share my food
I'll let you die

Family is obnoxious
And I'm done
Life with family
Is not at all fun

I hate this place
I'll burn it down

Every last pice of wood
Will not be found

The fire was
Very hot

Nothing was left
What a great thought

Hello Goodbye

Blah Blah Blah Blah

I live here

Stop saying "Hello" to me

And go away

Idiots

The Flak hits the wings and body of the plane
506th Easy Company
Of the 101st Airborne

The leg bag
Tore right off
They jumped lower than they should have been

Tracer bullets burning holes through the parachute
Tracers spraying around in the air
Firing in every direction

Paul "Buck" Rogers
Lands in a tree

Some worked their way down
Through a farm area
To a hedge row

Easy Company captured and destroyed
The guns at Brecourt Manor
Saving countless lives on Utah Beach

They helped to liberate the Dutch
Angels from the sky

The black and white footage is amazing
The gratitude and love the people show
To the men is wonderful

Finally free after four years
Of Occupation by the Germans

Battling from village to village
Along "Hell's Highway,"
Easy Company crossed Holland to the Rhine River

Nine men of Easy Company
Lost their lives
Battling in Holland

By the End of the Holland campaign,
Easy Company had been on the frontline
For more than 70 days

On Dec. 16, 1944
****** launched his offensive into the Ardennes

The Battle of the Bulge would become
The largest engagement
In the history
Of the U.S. Army
600,000 soldiers would fight in the battle

Easy Company was told to hold the perimeter of Bastogne
Surrounded by Germans
Branches knocked off of trees
Holes in the ground

Artillery attack
88s, mortars, rockets
They jumped into foxholes
He could see all the shells hitting from the foxhole

The wounded got relief from battle
Maybe a ticket home
If they died they were at peace

At Berchtesgaden
They uncovered artwork

In Zell Am Zee, Austria
Easy Company helped secure
The surrender of 25,000 German troops

On November 30, 1945
The 101st Airborne Division
Was inactivated

Day after Day
They fought together
Fought for each other
Knowing some would not return

This veteran said,
"I cherish the memories
Of a question my grandson asked me the other day.

'Grandpa, Were you a hero in the war?'
Grandpa said no
But I served in a company of heroes."

I watched myself
From space

Eating, sleeping
Going through
These motions

This is quite a thing

I may as well be
That guy
Floating in some galaxy

I look up at the stars
Wave to him

He waves to me
We are one in the same

Although we exist
In two different places

Although we occupy
Two different spaces

He wonders what
It would be like
To have a female friend

And so do I

We hope we meet
Our goddess of the galaxy

God First
Is the University's slogan

God is the creator
Without beginning or end

Human beings
Do not put God first
In all that they do

They are selfish
Miserable
Broken creatures

They can try
To put God first
Put they will fail
Time and time
And time again

They will hurt others
Like what my friend
Did to me

They will put
Their own
Lives first

So is it the trying
It must be the trying
At least Christians
At the university
Are trying

To put God first
In all that they do
They will fail
Definitely fail

God First
(At Least We Can Try)

Have mercy on us
Prideful, miserable
And wretched
Human creatures

We have failed
In putting God First

Forgive us Jesus
For our multitude of sins

Running fast and flying high
When will I learn to stop asking why

I'm all alone
Alone again

No one notices
No one cares

It's a rough place Earth
You got to have heart
Be tough and mean

They'll hate you!!!!!!
They hate you!!!!!!
They hated Jesus too

They never understand love
They ruin everything
Ruiners

But love overcomes all
Batman the last movie

You remember the scene
His arch rival what's his face
Was awfully mean

A spiraling stair case going straight up
No one had ever escaped, but he didn't give a ****

Leap of Faith
Be not afraid

Alahu Akbar
In any language
God is Greatest

Have you been through enough
Enough yet?

Tell me how you feel!!!!
Are you feelin' fine all the time?

Words never describe how we are
They always fail

There is just this experience

And I'm not ashamed to say I *******
Because no one touches me

Sometimes I laugh
Sometimes I cry
I never ever ask why

I'm just goin'g along with my program
Goin' along with my program

I'm synced up
I'm linked up

This is my earth program
I'm just going along with my program

I walk along a suburban street
And need some new shoes on my feet

I'm just going with the flow
Showing love to those
I do and do not know

It's plain to see
There is no me
Separate from me

Just goin along with my program
And lovin' my earth program

I just wish I had someone to hold
But I'm going to bed alone again
Oh well, at least I have stuffed animals

The clock slaves
Their lives
Are regimented
By clocks on walls

Oh the misery
Of it all

I saw the most beautiful
Things today

Heavenly smile
Of that Chinese man

And I was so grateful
To be alive today

I saw the black bird
Standing tall

I saw the small turtle
The mystery of it all

Women discussing
Something about
Rich men

I was wondering around
Yes I did it again

And all because

I couldn't give a ****
About clocks on walls

There were deer
Behind the driving range

Geese
And a squawking
Sparrow hawk too

All on the golf course
What a beautiful place

I hit the ball well

I think I will play again soon

Wonderful
To be alone in nature

Gone Gone Gone
Are the times I spent with her
My final session today

It went well
And I shared my poems with her

I read her final comments
I suppose they were appropriate
Less than ideal though

The Tagatha returns to the mountains
People always leave me
But earth is consistent
Earth is good mother

I return to the trail with my podcasts
Enjoying my life alone

One day I just decided
I wasn't going to work
That I didn't care

They wouldn't give me a job
Wouldn't let me do what I wanted to do
After I did everything I was supposed to do

And so I became a Tagatha!
Gone Gone Gone into the great beyond
Living on the mountain trails
There I am happy
And there I will stay

I just don't care about bills anymore
Okay!

Gone Gone Gone
Into The Great Beyond

I inhabit a different realm now

I went to chip golf *****
At my usual place

I chipped for a bit
Then drove over to a beautiful park nearby

I sat beneath the trees
A long dirt path behind me

Completely alone
A beautiful afternoon

As I walked down the hill
And saw a lizard doing pushups

It scurried behind a tree

As I found another spot in the grass
Underneath the shade of a tree

I read a chapter
From Bertrand Russel's
The Practice and Theory of Bolshevism
Entitled, Why Russian Communism Has Failed

It appeared as though the black mother and child
That I saw earlier had left

The familiar voices of children playing
On The playground to my right
Could be heard in the distance

American families
Enjoying their American dream

Far to my left a couple enjoys the afternoon
Lying together in the grass

I look above as the birds descend
Across the park
They ride the wind

Simply extending their wings
And gliding across the park
They land on a tree opposite of me

And there was the ice cream truck
Circling its way
Around the park

With the familiar tunes
Of childhood days gone by

Then I came home
She is still announcing
What food is in the fridge

"I can see"
I muttered

Doing everything I could
Not to scream in her face
She just repeats that over and over

And then I went to the nature park
I took pictures of the birds
A video of a lone rabbit too

These animals just do what they do

A woman asked me what was the easiest trail
As I took a picture of the cross
On the monastery gate
I told her the way

I waited until she returned
To see if she would tell me
If she enjoyed the hike

She walked by
Ah well

I no longer seek a companion
I am alone
Forever alone

Oh look
This is the classic
American Scene
A summer American Dream

This is an expensive neighborhood
Don't you know
And fancy cars line the street
In front of the large home in Sierra Madre

Everyone is chatting
This is Tao
I walk by

I wonder if they even realize
That our country hangs in the balance
That our very way of life
May soon end

Oh, they are content
Just to carry on as always
Most people are

Our country has been ruined
Ruined!

A debt we cannot pay

A Chinese, Russian, and U.N. takeover
Likely on its way

Weaponized weather, A grid attack,
Most definitely a total economic collapse

But these Americans just want to enjoy
Their barbecue
As they often do

And on my walk home
Four steps
Thud
Followed by four steps
Thud

And after I go to the gym
I will return
And they will hear the thud
Yes they will hear
As they try to sleep in their beds

Thud

Get ready, Get Ready
Your American dreams will
Soon have gone away

Foot shortages and economic collapse
On its way
U.N. vehicles are here to stay

My therapist told me that
"God never gives us more than we can handle"

She being thirty-six
Accomplished and having had every
Opportunity to succeed in life

Her last words
She uttered a "Take Care"

You know when she told me she was leaving
I cried a bit and composed myself

She said, "I know its a lot to process"
It would have been respectful to be silent
And not say anything
And in that moment
I learned more about her
She did not honor what was sacred

How could she have said that?
Meeting with her was important to me
Quiet, please!
Your words are unnecessary

I didn't say anything to her about that
And that's fine
I had hoped for something higher
A companionship

Blah
To her I was just another client
Another paycheck

I don't trust her
She left me and her other clients

She never said the savior's name
She never said Jesus' name
Just her "higher power"

She told me to email her
If I get a job

I will not ever contact you again

Why are people having kids?
Why the **** are they?
So they can grow up in a FEMA CAMP!

Terrible times are coming for her and for me

That expression
"God never gives us more than we can handle"
Who says that?

Tell that to those who have starved to death
To the German men who spend over a decade
In Russian labor camps

Americans will have a lot to handle soon
And your money
Won't save you

Neither will your **** looks
Or your car

I'll survive
That's all I know how to do

Is to survive
And to keep feeling emptiness
And that ******* therapist
Who left

It was enjoyable
To meet with her
It was consistent

She did not give me much notice

I am pure
I do not engage in ****** *******
Married couples they disgust me
Slamming their privates into each other
Lusting after each other

I do not want to shake another's hand anymore

I do not know
Where that filthy hand has been

******* therapists
I'll never see one again

Remember---They don't really care about you!
Remember!!!

They are there for the money only
And they will sit and lie
Right to your face

Remember to care for yourself
In this world
Trust in Jesus and yourself

On my hike
I greet others with a friendly hello

Perhaps one day
I will meet another friend

I have three I trust now

Until then I will walk the streets alone

The therapist
She left, she left
And she did not give much of a care

Bah
It wasn't her fault
I just shouldn't have allowed myself
To care about our meeting

Now I don't care
I don't work
I don't do anything

Except read
And walk
And listen to podcasts

Gone Gone Gone
Gone Into the Great Beyond

Thud
Can you hear me?

Form is emptiness
Emptiness is form