I can’t take this pain
they tell me to not complain
you are here to entertain
I am just a woman whose trapped in chains.
My whole world is pouring rain
guess I can’t differentiate raindrops from tears
my mind is unclear,
tell me, am I going insane?
It’s not easy to explain
why I keep feeling this way
again,
and again,
and again.

The moment I stop and remember all the things I fear
I hear the blood rushing through my ears
It feels like something is ******* all the air in my lungs
or as if I am swallowing my own tongue
perhaps it’s the devil feeding on the atmosphere
I lay in my bed sweating like crazy
picturing bugs suffocating me so badly
then I dream of a world where there is nothing to fear
where everyone who thought of suicide would never be this near
I’m getting tired of everything that bothers me
maybe all I have to do is sleep
and set me free.
م.ع