Sumptuous velvet blood
Dripping down into the floor.
Brilliant and bright, liquid ruby's.
The pickaxe is long and bladed and sharp.
Former miner, now a jeweler.
Marveling at my precious pretty gems
As they fade away and return to the earth.

Golden sun. Baked golden skin.
Needle sins. Brown is my kin
Viens breathe new life.
Death seeks to hide. In loneliness.
Steel cast aside.
Lay in the cold.
Death takes its hold.
Just for one day.

Lie.
*****.
Die. Bench.
Crumble. Rotten.
Maggots.
Visit. Box.
Fire.
Peace.

Is it cradles of silence?
Absolution?
Fire and thirst?
To drown in despair.
You seek?
Drop to your knees and suffer the Lord.

It's too late.
To dig my own grave.
Why is it so hard?
To just fade away.
Fade to dust.
To nothing.
To be a silent poltergeist.
I dress in cadaver drag.
To human applause.
They scream encore.
I set my alarm,
Wishing I don't hear it.
Wishing for a sun that doesn't rise.
Dreaming of a total eclipse
Of the mind.

Silken sad scenes of sorrow,
a picturesque portrait of dreams.
oily and carbon and straight.
lines narrate pigment projections.
sad in itself, and its watercolour whim.
the artists vision will not waver.
The self portrait must always be finished,
to display the man.

This all you that wanted.
All you ever hoped and dreamed.
This is all that you prayed for.
Through your shallow, silent screams.
Be happy and be thankful.
The pain will soon be here.
Be still and be breathe slow now
The end will set you free.

Here I am
Drowning in this familiar dirt puddle.
That stretches for miles.
The rubber ring bobs by
Leaving it's crystal temptation trail
It's life saving trail.
And so I grab it
And float
For a while longer.

As the red life pumps away down the drain, and the knife tears the artery open. The shocking pain is subsided. Knowing I will never suffer this misery again.

Sofa sink in,
Eyes up.
Little bird flying high.
Crushed by the hourly train.

Take a generous helping of plaster.
And lets mould a tangerine.
With a bitter skin so brittle and bright.
And a juicy flesh. Hard and impervious.
The tree rattles it's branch.
It's fruit, plummeting to happiness.
Soft blades of grass impale the eyes.
Deafening impact, internal destruction.
And now watch as it flowers.

Coming to.
Senses blurred and hurting,
Vision swirls to find colour in black.
Ears hear too much,
Can't make sense of it all.
Face is sticky and warm.
Fingers trace it's source
White-hot pain turns black vision grey.
Breath is hard to catch.
Grey to white to Blue
To sounds.
Surrounded by chatter and noise.
'don't move sir, the ambulance is on its way'

Did you know?
Craziness is creeping roumd the corner. Teeth welcomeness, lights. Recycling bracing.

Sparks, giddy buzz
Smoke goes in, dry lips.
Eyes roll back.
Cloudy limbs.

constellations swirl,
under rigid toes.
such wonder and certainty.
the black plug hole drinks.
Insatiable thirst for more.

If the shoe fits, buy the matching top and let's call it an outfit.

Professional chef of a niche cuisine, pupils dilate and Michelin stars glow bright
Such succulent food the gods grow jealous. Body heavy the brain retires to sleep.
Trapped in a duvet tumbling down stairs. The peach canvas is painted in spots.
The cheetah will rise again soon, hungry once again.

Happy hands slapping a sad cheek
Puffy red, embarrassed injury.
Broken bruised.
Blueberry muffin.

Waking the void,
Blacker than black.
Emptier than empty.
The void is awake.
And empty.

Push back pain,
won’t last long
Drips and pours
Seeps through tears
Puddles in red
Splish splash splosh
Wellies on tight
Red can’t get you now.

ceiling stares,
too many stairs.
basin call ,
shower halls.
Eyes wide awake, stumbling trying to find my feet.
concrete composure, brick beckoning.
south is forward north is back, out is now.

Never been so angry in my life.

Reservoir,
Abattoir,
Miracle of life.

Have you eaten?
I heard you bleeding.
Dripping, that metallic drop.
Come now, feed.
Wrist is on the menu.
Scrumptious sin.
Seems hell is nearer and more real.

I waited everywhere for him
God it feels so good.
Scraping change from the holy fountain.
Pennies make prices.

Altar
Sacrifice
Prayer and goats.
Abattoir
Slaughter house
Sausages and burgers.

Eyes down first number,
Curtain call on pain,
That's it folks the shows over,
Game set match,
Call time
Enough is enough.

Sleep close by me tonight.
Shush your tears.
And hold me.
Startling gaze,
Clawing,
Choke hold.
Silence.
No choice.
Hold me.
Sleep close to me tonight.

Your hand in mine
Crossing clouds, through time.
I'll be there soon,
And never will I loose you again.

I'm slipping, the edge grows near.
Warmth of insanity beckons.
I try to stay away,
but my eyes stare down the hole.

I'm draining, my arms are tired
My mind longs only for peace.
I want to stay away,
but I can hear it's sweet song.

I'm grasping, my fingers slip
The hole is deep, dark and cold
I'm spinning down in fear
Familiarly disorientated.

Maybe this hole is home
The darkness I've known all my life.
It's quiet and I'm alone
The world is so toxic and bright.


Take me far, far away.

How far is too far?
when you're in far far away.

The more I want to say,
The less you want to hear,
The more I overthink.

'Are they attacking?!'
Exclaimed Lieutenant Always On Guard.
'No, the neighours are having a barbeque'
Replied General Come inside.

Don't worry.
Silken cheeks.
Powder belongings.
The curtain will come down eventually.
The knife came thankfully quick. Blood coated the next on stage and she screemed.
Until she didn't.
I am you. You are me. Monsters are man and we are true.

The string that frays
has been well tied.
Knots and pulleys
Up down all around.
Faithfully carrying out its duties.
and ultimately replaceable.

Lips painted red.
Tuck me in,
Duvet up tight.
Shopping in snow.
Customers knock. Goodnight.
Red maiden, see sunlight again.
Kleenex sunrise.
Cigarette benches.
Snowflakes are crisp to those who taste them.

Predatory lizard eyes.
Sun goes down,
Owl sees all.

Is there no simpler thing.
Suns blossom stings strong
It's white out here.
Bleached and perfect lies

My eyes are jaded
in this House of snow.
Staring into white
soft and cold
Dying, desperate for one last gasp of warmth.
crawl up against the flame
it licks and poisons
cuddle tighter , it licks closer.
Embers bright and skin terrified
scarred, blessed and burned.
Treat the wounds and warm some more.

Inquisitions kiss
Salivating touch
poisonous caress
forbidden.
Wipe away the stain.
pretty lips
pretty smile
pretty god.
pretty hopeless for a pretty child.
the wise man built his house upon the dock.
so he could sail away from insanity's port.

Wheres my guardian angel gotten to now?
Probably in the loo sniffing lines.
That's my gal.

Seek shadows,
Break the voices.
Seeing crazy lies,
Holding nothingness.

Sleeping in disgrace,
Stellar's dancing grace.
Stars and moons are home.
Freezing, biting, lone.
Icy candle warmth.
Cold is warm as home.
home is warm as cold.

Despair tastes of nothing.
Why can I taste it all the time?

Smokey hands
Cigarette sax
Silky scotch.

Cry hard when the raindrops shine
The shy marble kiss when the world crashes down.
Quarry of questions.
Granite truth.
Rivers flow in no direction.

'How are you feeling today'?
I hate that.
Can I say I'm feeling pretty ******* rhubarb and flustered?
'yeah I'm alright mate, you?'
Nosey ****. Mind your business.
And I swear if you mention the weather next...

Heavy delta.
This is the real reality.
Crystal perception
through diamond eyes.
Feel the earth in your veins.
Arteries pump with sound
So clear
So pure.
Heaven trapped in dust.
Released through me.

Sometimes the sounds at night are bright
sometimes the sky lights up with you.
sometimes the sky is drunk with me.
sometimes I watch your eyes see me.

Tip toe across the toad stools.
Your toad will be the biggest stool!
Someday.
But not today.
Tip toe tap dance silly little fool. Ghoul.
Hideous in hiding. Gremlin gonna get it.
It's a ******* monster in the mirror!
What mirror where?!
Over there!
The fool tip toe tap dancing to a silly little tune, a silly little fool.