Despair tastes of nothing.
Why can I taste it all the time?

Silvers fine. Ornate in my bed.
Crystal vase, crumbs rattling heads.
Brown is pure. Veins, dont come near.
Chocolate ship, sailing through sand.
Secrets melt away. Hide the needle.

Waking the void,
Blacker than black.
Emptier than empty.
The void is awake.
And empty.

I'm slipping, the edge grows near.
Warmth of insanity beckons.
I try to stay away,
but my eyes stare down the hole.

I'm draining, my arms are tired
My mind longs only for peace.
I want to stay away,
but I can hear it's sweet song.

I'm grasping, my fingers slip
The hole is deep, dark and cold
I'm spinning down in fear
Familiarly disorientated.

Maybe this hole is home
The darkness I've known all my life.
It's quiet and I'm alone
The world is so toxic and bright.


Take me far, far away.

It's too late.
To dig my own grave.
Why is it so hard?
To just fade away.
Fade to dust.
To nothing.
To be a silent poltergeist.
I dress in cadaver drag.
To human applause.
They scream encore.
I set my alarm,
Wishing I don't hear it.
Wishing for a sun that doesn't rise.
Dreaming of a total eclipse
Of the mind.

Did you know?
Craziness is creeping roumd the corner. Teeth welcomeness, lights. Recycling bracing.

Lava floor. Dead.
Neighbouring sacrifice.
Earthquake. Amenities gone.
All that's left is shell-shocked.
Snowflakes.
Kiss a new beginning.

Shame you're a game
Untoward and outward.
Never did understand it.
Cowardly within reason
Just a touch.

And this, my friends, is it. This brown bed of molten iron you call a home is doing everything in its power to ****** you.

Deathbed ditties
'Shame on you all', etc
'Ooo she's coming',
let's light a candle,
And play a silly board game.

constellations swirl,
under rigid toes.
such wonder and certainty.
the black plug hole drinks.
Insatiable thirst for more.

Golden sun. Baked golden skin.
Needle sins. Brown is my kin
Viens breathe new life.
Death seeks to hide. In loneliness.
Steel cast aside.
Lay in the cold.
Death takes its hold.
Just for one day.

ceiling stares,
too many stairs.
basin call ,
shower halls.
Eyes wide awake, stumbling trying to find my feet.
concrete composure, brick beckoning.
south is forward north is back, out is now.

Rain on, take all my life
Stain on, say what I can't.
Rain on, all of the past
Stain on, stain on my soul.

Silly.
Shamble. Dripping meat.
Happy is the corpse that sees no ground.
Do you see now?
Maggots in the ears.
He doesn't listen.
Begging for sunshine it finds only dark.

The line points straight on
North to no end.
It goes a long way from your drunk bunker
Climb back in or carry on?
Hold on to your hats men! We go over the top!
Bullets of beauty bounce and ricochet
As you dive and duck through barbed happiness.
The sun sets on a victorious skirmish,
The battle continues tomorrow.

All I hear shouting.
Mind is a zoo.
Eyes darting, closures.
Glass, open view.
Clapping and staring,
Rope, hand, and wood.
Flashes of cameras,
neck, noose and jump.

I waited everywhere for him
God it feels so good.
Scraping change from the holy fountain.
Pennies make prices.

Sumptuous velvet blood
Dripping down into the floor.
Brilliant and bright, liquid ruby's.
The pickaxe is long and bladed and sharp.
Former miner, now a jeweler.
Marveling at my precious pretty gems
As they fade away and return to the earth.

If the shoe fits, buy the matching top and let's call it an outfit.

Sometimes the sounds at night are bright
sometimes the sky lights up with you.
sometimes the sky is drunk with me.
sometimes I watch your eyes see me.

Forgot what it was
To say nothing but see everything
Deaf vision, a soundless landscape
Clarity.

Sofa sink in,
Eyes up.
Little bird flying high.
Crushed by the hourly train.

Here I am
Drowning in this familiar dirt puddle.
That stretches for miles.
The rubber ring bobs by
Leaving it's crystal temptation trail
It's life saving trail.
And so I grab it
And float
For a while longer.

Never been so angry in my life.

How far is too far?
when you're in far far away.

Flabby clap, slap slap
Lips flapping applauding yourself.
Encore, more, MORE
Keep going, chub rub mouth.
Nasty death breath.

Lay down softly in my hands.
Little creature cold and sad.
Keep your head up, big wide smile.
Dry those eyes my little lamb.

The world outside is harsh and loud.
Stay here with me safe and sound.
We are strong. Just you and me.
Our secret place.
Our eternity.

The more I want to say,
The less you want to hear,
The more I overthink.

The string that frays
has been well tied.
Knots and pulleys
Up down all around.
Faithfully carrying out its duties.
and ultimately replaceable.

Seek shadows,
Break the voices.
Seeing crazy lies,
Holding nothingness.

Your hand in mine
Crossing clouds, through time.
I'll be there soon,
And never will I loose you again.

Don't worry.
Silken cheeks.
Powder belongings.
The curtain will come down eventually.
The knife came thankfully quick. Blood coated the next on stage and she screemed.
Until she didn't.
I am you. You are me. Monsters are man and we are true.

Lie.
*****.
Die. Bench.
Crumble. Rotten.
Maggots.
Visit. Box.
Fire.
Peace.

I can't do this alone,
Waiting for someone to respond.
SOS to outer space.
Ground control to major Tom.
Floating around in vast nothingness.
Eye on the horizon.
The sun left long ago.

Altar
Sacrifice
Prayer and goats.
Abattoir
Slaughter house
Sausages and burgers.

'How are you feeling today'?
I hate that.
Can I say I'm feeling pretty ******* rhubarb and flustered?
'yeah I'm alright mate, you?'
Nosey ****. Mind your business.
And I swear if you mention the weather next...

Sleep close by me tonight.
Shush your tears.
And hold me.
Startling gaze,
Clawing,
Choke hold.
Silence.
No choice.
Hold me.
Sleep close to me tonight.

Wheres my guardian angel gotten to now?
Probably in the loo sniffing lines.
That's my gal.

Happy hands slapping a sad cheek
Puffy red, embarrassed injury.
Broken bruised.
Blueberry muffin.

Sleeping in disgrace,
Stellar's dancing grace.
Stars and moons are home.
Freezing, biting, lone.
Icy candle warmth.
Cold is warm as home.
home is warm as cold.

Take a generous helping of plaster.
And lets mould a tangerine.
With a bitter skin so brittle and bright.
And a juicy flesh. Hard and impervious.
The tree rattles it's branch.
It's fruit, plummeting to happiness.
Soft blades of grass impale the eyes.
Deafening impact, internal destruction.
And now watch as it flowers.

Smokey hands
Cigarette sax
Silky scotch.

They used to call it cuckold
Now they call it insanity.
Tomorrow it'll probably be fashion.

Sparks, giddy buzz
Smoke goes in, dry lips.
Eyes roll back.
Cloudy limbs.

Is it cradles of silence?
Absolution?
Fire and thirst?
To drown in despair.
You seek?
Drop to your knees and suffer the Lord.

Tip toe across the toad stools.
Your toad will be the biggest stool!
Someday.
But not today.
Tip toe tap dance silly little fool. Ghoul.
Hideous in hiding. Gremlin gonna get it.
It's a ******* monster in the mirror!
What mirror where?!
Over there!
The fool tip toe tap dancing to a silly little tune, a silly little fool.

Predatory lizard eyes.
Sun goes down,
Owl sees all.

'Are they attacking?!'
Exclaimed Lieutenant Always On Guard.
'No, the neighours are having a barbeque'
Replied General Come inside.

But how do I face those
Bitter days?
The days when cold and lonely emptiness blows through.
How do I face the
Stoney grey?
The grey thats harsh and concrete,  hideous and true.