It seeps into my skin and closes my eyes.
I know it's coming but there's no fighting.
it will course through my veins
I have no choice.
The Poison controls everything
It makes ice form on my lips.
I want to leave it
so badly.
Why can't I leave it?
Why is this heavy weight a comfort?
I shouldn't carry it.
It's a poison
it's holding me down, holding my eyes shut.
Forcing me into a world that does not exist.
For once I want to live here,
here with reality.
but it won't allow me to
It's soft cocoon makes me warm
but I know it's heat is artificial.
I crave the heat of the sun
But it's too far away through the cold, the cold stairs of those that do not know the taste of the poison.
those that do not understand.
No I can't take their cold.
the sun will have to wait,
Wait for the weight to lift,
wait for the ice to thaw,
wait for the world stop sounding so low and menacing.
Wait for me to be able to hear song
to feel anything,
but the poison.

This wall is here for a reason!
I built it strong
IMPENETRABLE.
Then why am I crying?
OH… yes because you make it crumble.
It won't budge if I standalone
but like water you seep through the cracks.
Your emotions mixed with mine melt the mortar,
and then I cry,
I NEVER cry.