I know I may not live long  this year for many unknown reasons, but please rest assure knowing that I’ve loved you and I apologize for not telling you any sooner.



I’m choking on my last breath I take and I can’t seem to find any other means to care. I’m stuck in my struggles of not caring... who knows me better than I?
I can’t crawl or climb above the surface of all my doubts and beliefs.





Last night she was a glimpse of empty pleasure, a cup filled with potential wishes. Her eyes reflected her love and desire for me and I couldn’t have possibly understood the type of love she felt for me. I took the chances of being her shoes for once and at that instance I was able to comprehend what I was doing to her to cause her to feel such compassion. She kissed me gently and with every touch and breath there was another story to be understood

Is the view of the world slanted within your rare view?
A well built imagination of what you'll love me to become
My ****** body wouldn't allow you to keep falling before your time is called to serve
Lack of understanding allowed us to become
a project of what most people have lost the feeling of
Our soulmates are ideals of ourselves
I won't attend to losing myself within your views

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Does she take your new breath away
Does her shallow heart capture your attention into blindness
I guess she's your image of beauty if I'm not
Stolen words
Leading to a stolen heart
Does she reach the depths of your lost soul
A competition you say that doesn't exist but I've seen better these times of crisis and yet you sleep to wake up in your filth and lies
Does she grant wishes that I cannot
My replacer stares me down 18 blocks away where I cannot see and you do nothing but allow her to soak you within an imagination
of possibilities
Does she carry the pavement more firmly than I do
Morning kisses forever sweet?
Conversations of reality?
Is she the full package ?


By: Leory Santana Dawn

Broken souls carry the past
Never a future to begin with
Fragments of a broken heart
Peace that cannot be found
So impossible
A thought of how these things came to be and why
Why is the broken never fixed when glued so tight?
Why does the soul fight hard to escape its temple?
My worries are not in what's to come in the future but how can fix what's current.
Do I run towards the hand that reaches to save me or do I fall on face repeatedly asking for a way out.
Pain kisses my lips more then Gods grace and forgiveness
I speak the truth with a broken soul
I eat what is good and it turns bitter all the time.
My hands shake the hands of reality that tells me that I'm hopeless, joke, useless, and yet I still force myself to find a light of beauty that everybody speaks of...
Where is this beauty that everybody speaks of?
Life is a twist within a twist
Based on confusion
Turning hope into a lost tale

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Dear love I've forgotten how to breathe
My light dimmed by the day
My life at its slowest...
Dear love I've forgotten how to cry out loud
I've forgotten who I am

Dirt over your name
Worms eating you away
Impulsive I was
Hoping for the littlest sparkle
Naïve  I was to think that the unfit would fill her way in
My poor judgement
I pity not myself anymore nor you

A letter to the unfit
Favor amongst your desires
Bring you blessings above all other blessings
I seek not time of tribulations for you
I hate you no longer
The mistakes aren't mistakes but written scripts that needed to be executed

You're free
You're free amongst your goals
What you deserve
I hope nothing more but the best
A letter to the unfit

An outstanding fault turned into something that was promised
before our very existence to happen

I love you not the same as before but through your happiness I love you


Blesseth be you who reads this
A letter to the unfit

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Can go on with all of these questions about society as a whole; but the real question should be where does justice fall when it needs a place to rest ?
Can fight until the end of the world
End results will always be what have we gotten out of wasted energy,
intellect, and youth...

In fact nothing
We are all slaves to something
Even those that refuse to face reality

By: Leory Santana Dawn

A lost of  time
Another day; same path
There's no escape
Tears take the same route down the cheeks

Gravity grows stronger
A force by death
A force inevitable
Nothing can be done

Cut the string
let it go...
let the wind take it away

It's easier to give up oppose to trying

Cloudy mind and stormy with lightning
Where's faith when you need it?

Cut the string
Let it go...
There's freedom on the other side

Perhaps a brighter day with many more days following behind

By: Leory Santana Dawn

She pinches me awake even though I'm already awake
Her fingerprints engraved in my skin
I've promised to never remove her touches
For that each one is kept dearly in my memories

She smiles to hide that she wants me to stay but there will always come times I must depart becoming one with myself in the nightfall
I've seen the tears in her happiness even though she hides it others
I know her better behind the shattered emotions

She holds me tight
Looks at  me with her soul making me swear to her that I won't ever leave and I make that promise reality even through the difficulties

I won't see her broken
I won't see her alone
I won't

By: Leory Santana Dawn

She  bites into my wrist
I love the pain she inflicts
She scratches me deeply
I beg for more pain
She takes a knife to my skin
Skin me like a cat
She cries in the process
Let your tears fall on my wounds
She beats me until I'm unconscious
I'll awakened later
She yells at me from her *****
I listen clearly  and carefully
She kills me
I get abused by her still from the other side

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Being closed minded and being ignorant could never be justified...
It serves no purpose for those whom desire a place where one lives freely as they were born

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Back to you and I'll love you dearly forever

There was a mist within my heart
Like many mysteries to uncover under the shadows of the deep; A blissful moment within the depths of life...times mine

I kept you by the warmth of my skin as love became  a new definition to detail that brief story of falling in love with the woman that caught me by the hand and I stood bluntly with a smile

Each touch became lost in time making my body too weak to ease it's own pain with the blindness in my eyes I seen an angel I'll call my own; I soaked in sadness as I carried on the weight of losing you

Moonlight against my window hitting my face with the night as I wondered around in my thoughts that there will be something that I can do to bring you back within the silence of your soul and body

My tears won't swim as furthest as the sea
Holding pictures that'll become like the lost sea scroll

Hold...me....Just....
Just hold me

My pulses are slower; my blood rushing down on the edges of my spin with my veins contracted by force and fear that you will not come back physically but by dreams that seemed to be centuries on top of centuries

I kept you close...
Close as the night painted itself in the image of my world with a spec of light that led towards you

Only a step away that seems like forever
By: leory Santana Dawn

My bandages are wrapped tightly around my body; yet I feel the pain from every angle.

My cup overflowing with  disapproval, disappointment, and fear that is greater than hope.

I'm in panic to face my shadows in the sea. The sea that reaches hell in the matter of seconds that moves faster than earths time.

Pull me away...

Pull me by the hand and not my heart for that I'll lose the very thing that keeps me from giving up. Unrivaled by the killers that lie await in the darkness to take me apart.

please help me escape...

My skeleton is so fragile. I can still feel my feet walking towards other paths that'll lead me out of this darkness to meet my fate, my fate to change my dimmed light for something that'll sharpen my vision on life.

I'll pace myself clearly when the days are within the morning light to show me my guidance and when her lips are locked with mine; I'll think of nothing more than that beauty within the moment of peace.

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Wishing I knew the feeling of having you aside me on a cloudy day
rain on top of rain

I'm parched with your presence.
No escaping in mind
No escaping
My world folds

I've lived to dive in between your arms with a gentle breeze brushing against the tiny hairs on your neck. My precious limestone you are; the walking life in my existence you've came to be.

No telling in the time I'll crash
No space within my soul
My found soul no longer cold

Bring me to the day I'll wake up, my medium size hands touching my face, my breath getting heavier, and my heart skipping a beat

What a dream
What a dream
What a dream
You were

Too much to handle with my fantasy; your beautiful mind and feminism has over flooded  my mind with questions

Spear me I beg
Hear me

I'm full spiritually with hope that the day's will bring you back to me whole and not portions of my desires
No mind tricks from imagination

A one to love
A one to be loved
And a romantic death

I'll love you when those days become promising
I'll love you without the promising days

By: Leory Santana Dawn

I've been feeling dead inside
she doesn't know me deep inside

The night falls with clear skies
A breeze that rushes along the rushing cars
My hands swing aside my body
And wonder is this what growing kids turn into after birth; some grow into anything in the category of life.
Some may ******
Some may become hard workers
Some may become entertainers
Anything in life that has a label

Start off as Gods innocent creations to turn into Gods rebellion

Aging with time has no limit to death; as a single tear will fall for those who are lost ones

What have we've became of ourselves this raging time forgetting our values and decisions

Kiss me when we're in life's fabric
kiss me with life's fabrications
Hug me when there's nothing more to hold onto as everything gets covered by the mist
Look at me exhaling your last breath to say those three words that everybody misuses
" I love you "
Promise me that the darkness won't cover your eyes and you'll continue to see my action of love
Rome in mance
Romance

By: Leory Santana Dawn

The emotions of a relation
only draws me closer to the ship
You say you're capable of loving me
I give the zero doubts for I've been fallen for you before the first breath of life
I love you whole heartedly
If God had not molded you any sooner
Where would my heart be?
In raging pain of a broken heart fixed on loves entity and existence
By: Leory Santana Dawn

I assure you
I have no place here... anywhere (sigh)
I assure you I'm only in your mind as well as everybody

I'm only a forced imagnation
I bring to you the days you shall smile and the days you shall cry

You speak to trees not and everything else
Not me

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Worshiping with a smile
There could never be another you
Elaine
Elaine
Seems to always come up in conversations
Worship away
Worship you
A time where time shouldn't exist
I wanna keep you forever
Forever a long time
But It'll be beautiful with you
Wonderful girl
You are wonderful

By: Leory Santana Dawn

I'm without myself
But with an shadow of the future following behind my steps in life
Attached to my very exi it follows me throughout life with no feelings; but my physical body feels life rejection, happiness, and pain.

What does my shadow feel?

It doesn't even smile back at me.
It doesn't hug me.
It does nothing but follow me into death...

Signs of the failure
I'm too weak to even show the fear of the unexplained and unexpected; my very peace is in middle of nowhere and I've grown wary throughout each season to only get left for the things that are bound to happen.

I can't prevent
I can't stand aboard
I can no longer cry.........

I can only sleep and wake up to repeat the scenes from the other day as if  I'm under mind control and my soul continues to try to escape the guards to life.

To ease one's mind to ease your own in respect to the inevitable.

By: Leory Dawn

Night sweat without slumber
We chased after our goals walking *****
Roads were dirt
Roads were muddy
Still I remember
We vowed to change the world
We broke our vows walking too tall
Laughing away the pain in black and white images
Nobody knew

Wives had no business
They stayed home
They knew nothing of the outside
Our pain was hidden from them
We were taught to be strong
Substitute our tears with smiles
We've lived through this
Seeing another day break in half

We build on top of historical grounds
Seeking immortality
Death was staring us in our face daily
We wanted to shape the future for those who will walk through life
Some lost their minds knowing death
Our strength was forgotten
Our souls were sold into shaping the future that we wouldn’t see
So many mistakes
So many memories collected
Nobody knew

We died offering everything to get nowhere
night sweats were adding up
102 years ago
I still remember
I could never forget
Though we've died
I've came back
I see our strength was wasted
Nobody knows hard work
Everything is too easy
Everything comes without effort
Take me back to 1915

By: Leory Santana Dawn

How many times in a day do we try to run away from our shadows?
Following us on our lonely trip called life;
This shadow these shadows are attached to our births and yet not our breaths.... attached to our spit as well as everything else.
Do our shadows die alongside?
Every decision we make is mocked by our shadows like
Kissing the lips of our false lovers

By:Leory Santana Dawn

******* kisses within the night
Nightfall will take me away
Collect my thoughts in a paper bag
You'll see the bag rip open
place your smooth hands upon my face
to tell me "worry no more; everything is going to be okay"...
I know you're a liar from that empty statement
Kiss me off to my sweet adventure called life
I hope not to run back to you
Abuse the word love repeatedly
I know you're full of ****
You can't help it
Keep telling yourself that you can't live without me
please don't choke off those words
I enjoyed the fairy tale of your comfort
Now you've opened my eyes
I salute myself
for never caring

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Where skin is torn by distruction
New skin is formed
Tears are whole
Life is molded into another form of beauty

Where lies are told to one ear to another
Many voices of the same lies are passed down until time is no more

Passion turns into empathy
As living bodies turn into dust
Something always become nothing

A beautiful meaning placed on everything to discribe the worlds twist and toss

Dead weight from a beautiful life of lies and finding meanings

By: Leory Santana Dawn

No...
I sit in the emptiness within my inner world wondering what's actually left of me to offer, to sacrifice, and to be used. My peace is not within this world but in the art of finding a chance to live.
Here I sit close to my death capturing the images that'll never escape my mind.
How  far is the drop where my body will lie and will it all end? As I expect it to...
Time overlaps
Different faces, voices, touches, and living souls have told me that there will be a day where I wouldn't see anymore falling tears from my eyes, heart breaking moments that would only make me think otherwise about not having hope.
Here I sit in my darkness capturing those words in my ears to only find out it was all a hoax, trickery to my own heart that God has bestowed upon me before my coming as God has wrote.

Did he not write about my happiness?
Did he not write about my peace?
Did he not write about my sanity?

I'm unwilling to find out...

I can only beg God for the mercy that he grants to those that are in a corner lonely within the thoughts of figuring out how to end misery, the destruction that reappear daily whenever I fall for the littlest thing such as time, hope, and prosperity.

Peace is death with nothing more to worry about other than which path to take after death...  Hell or heaven

I'm not sure about my decision, my path in which I'll take if not this day but another day would be in between the heavens and hells as I already live it being alive.

I might awaken to a better start
With nothing left to be said other than my dreams were chaotic but yet beautiful

By: Leory Dawn

Perfect question
Are we not aware of our self pride that allows us to be fooled by what should happen next?
We find passion by every excuse; exercising our minds to believe that we’re so great and not once is there an inch of realization upon what may be right or wrong.
What can be right can turn into what is actually wrong... what is wrong can be right
I’m scared to believe that I can live my life going to an end at anytime
But grateful to live this dream as if it was real.

Waking up with the other side of the world
You're too hasty to get to where you're going please settle awhile.
Allow me to collect images of you in my head don't be so quick to leave soon.
  
A morning kiss will soothe my mind
If you just slow down for a second or two...
No minuets; seconds are too fragile in case you didn't know...
minuets seem to always last.

You move too quickly to get to nowhere
Don't hurt yourself trying to beat time darling

Stay still so I can inhale your scent
I don't wanna miss an inch of you

By: Leory Santana Dawn

Sowing seeds of pain
My tears will be the rain
My heart will be the sun
My emotions will be the seasons and my flesh will be the soil
I lie awake within a loop with many different faces
but the same outcome... A visible layout of my life
These souls take it lightly to be welcomed
in a heart that want's nothing more than to give love and receive
They run around the garden with trash falling from their  pockets
I'll put flame to the candle; for the remorse that takes place

By: Leory Santana Dawn

You was once somebody I’ve loved
You sat in the clear view of my world and I’ve watched you from close view move further into the distance
You went far beyond my reach that I seen what appeared to be a dark spot
In the end I couldn’t chase you even if I wasn’t that far away
You was once somebody I’ve loved
It seemed like we breathed each other’s air in the only thing is you’ve taken all of mine away
In the end I’m at lost

By: Relaire

I’ll become a stain in your sheets
Let myself go to be without you
A fragment without choice
Reason
Dye your dreams vividly

By: Ilah Relaire

Maybe I'm use to you
Desiring all your love
Touching me with your weight
Brushing your hands against me
Your hair falling free upon my chest
Your fragrance heightening my senses
Your breath touching upon my skin

Maybe I'm just as faulty as your love
A single touch can tell lies
A single kiss can mean so much
And you're like weeds ready to root
I'm use to you... Maybe

Maybe your thorns have spread
Maybe I like the pluck
Each thorn goes a little deeper
Each bruise over-layered

Maybe you're not as bad
I'm use to you

By: Ilah Relaire

If it sounded too good to be true
I've never chose you
I just came here
Life just threw you

I've never looked so hard
I just let it go
Let the time escape
Watch you pass by

If it wasn't so good
I would let it go
I would let you drift
I would let this fall

If the time was wrong
Then I’ll watch you
Watch you walk away
No feelings no attachment

When the timing was right
Did it matter?
Did it matter that I loved you
Was in love with you?

When the timing was wrong
Did it matter?
Did it matter that I still wanted you?

If it sounded too good
I never looked for you
Life just drew you here
Life just went too far

if it wasn't for love
Then I'd let it go
Let you go from here
Watch the tides
Fall Apart

By: Ilah Relaire

When life begins to fold within itself... Will it capture us?
All that beauty and art that we can become together in this madness.
Shall we become a ball of crumble would our love get caught in the mixture of this tangled mess? Or will we despair?
If life undressed us down to the soul will you see me and
be my equal?
Or will you see past me?
If we were stuck together would I be within you or would you be within me?

Whatever gets you here
Or gets me there... Is worth the capture and unravel.

By: Ilah Relaire

“Never going to be” when is love ever pure you honestly don’t know life and love. People fight, people are different Within a relationship than they are themselves. The first thing a person does before entering a relationship is sacrifice their sanity, dignity, character and emotional trauma; to fulfill somebody else’s life and existence.  Love is not a finding the perfect person it’s about picking the fruit that has a little sourness and sweet; you talk about not having things in common but yet we did and a lot of things. You decided to change on me, I happen to like the same things I’ve liked three years ago while being with you and you look at me differently. I didn’t change you did;  the only thing that changed was my attitude dealing with you.
I’ve never changed
I’m more hurt at the fact that you never seen what you’ve been doing to me than me reminding you that I’m hurt.

By: 𝓩𝓮𝓸𝓻𝔂

Plant this pain within your womb; all the emotions at it's finest print and all these senses at it's developing core
Flower this soul with it's remaining roots
Dry and brittle
But worth saving.

Spring this heart into a fern but firm with steadiness. Birth this development into belief.

By: Ilah Relaire