Even when you know the outcome, it still hurts, mostly because of the meaning behind it all. Von

Take a look around you and think
Think about someone you
Love
Admire
Cherish
and tell them I love you
or give them a hug
or spend a couple of days with them
why?
because that's the moment you're going to look back on when they die
Expect the unexpected is what I'm telling you
if you can't say it
Text it
if you can't text it
Write it
SOMETHING
that will remind them that you're there
you'll be grateful you did  
you'll never know when their last moments with you are.

Reinsurance is a 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭!
With goals so far, it's simply out of reach
Things in life will **** me, there's no doubt.
But the path I'm ought to take, I can't reroute

𝙸'𝚖 𝚜𝚘 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎, I want to believe but that's just life making me deceive.

I'm perceived from what my gut is saying, but I can already feel my future, slightly delaying.

666 the devil and his mistress
with no witness they run

away from her mother and brother whos a hunter
with wonders how this all begun.  

The mistress so delicate, fragile, and weak
the devil was so dazed by her, he couldn't even speak

"It's been an hour" she cries, and my legs are getting sore
The devil nodded and yawned, both dropping on the flowered floor.

999 the devil's mistress is so fine, and he's very glad to call her mine.

Dark starry sky, the warm breeze fills my mellow heart
My eyes are starting to close but I coerce them open

Unspoken during this time, I lay in silence
as lifeless as I was before

Death is instore for me "hurry" I whisper

The blood runs down my arm, still calm, I drew my last breath,
this might be my last night.

one cup of tears
1/2 a cup of sweat
whip and blend till there's nothing left
steam my anxiety
Simmer in depression
trust me, you might not want seconds
peel my self-esteem
melt my ego
it adds some spice like a jalapeno
bake and boil I'm ready to go
behold the dinner you were not ready for.

Imagine someone so beautifully pained
Jade-Green eyes that complements the sky
Hair honey golden that swore by the sun

Now this Lynx is something else. someone you've never seen before. Searching for the meaning of life and what he's here for.

Many underestimated him which was pretty funny. Once he took all of their money.

Many hated him, but for what price? If I were them I would've thought twice.

He's pretty, but dangerous if you chose to cross the line
Never anger this Lynx, oh no or you'll be petrified

He's just like everyone else, just like you and me
his weakness are his loved ones who didn't deserve to die, although he kept it inside to show he'd never say goodbye.  

His views on life was not something to hear, but talk about death you'll never feel fear.

"Death looks sweet and peaceful, and unbearably enticing" I don't know about you but that's more to my liking

"I’m not afraid of death" he said as he looked to the sky. Everyday he seemed more like he wanted to fly.

He could've changed the world if only he was ᵃˡⁱᵛᵉ

As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you
cause you'll be hurting yourself
My unhappiness entirely came from me
no point in pointing fingers at anyone else

If it broke don't fix it, you leave it alone
and let 𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝒷𝑜𝒹𝓎 𝑒𝓁𝓈𝑒 fix it.

We don't seem to be dead
we want to be dead
we don't live in order to sleep
we sleep to avoid living

when you sleep, you're not dead however you're not awake

no one can talk to you
no one can judge you
no one can hurt you

until you wake up...

𝙆een on the actions he makes
𝙐nmotivative at first, slowly found meaning
𝙕oic type of person, some feared some not
𝙐ptight he was, his claws wanted a fight
𝙍egret to blame for his lovers death
𝙄nteresting... he really was

Here lies a girl who dreams big
Here lies a girl who knows what she wants in the future
Here lies a girl who hates herself
Here lies a girl who wants to travel the world
Here lies a girl who left her friends and family
Here lies a girl who feels guilty for thinking and feeling sadness
Here lies a girl who gave up on the life she thought she had

Now who is this girl? You maybe thinking
Even she doesn't know the answer as to 𝐰𝐡𝐨 she is.

How are you?
I'm fine, she replies

How was your day?
It was fine, she replies with a sigh

Are you okay?
I said I'm fine, she says holding her tears

what's wrong?
She doesn't answer, instead she walks away

she knows she's not fine, she knows she needs help but...

saying you're fine is easier to explain.

These reasons keep me alive, day and night
dusk till dawn
let me be selfish this one time
Leaving means I'll be hurting the people that love me
however staying is burying me into a deeper hole which even now is hard to get out of.
once these reasons to stay is no where in sight
I'll be the first gone before you even knew I was here.

I'm not h̶a̶p̶p̶y̶
          



                                        ­                                       but I'm not s̶a̶d̶ either








What do you call that?

When I met you
I didn't know you
I was scared
of dying alone
Years later

You're like a father to me
you helped me through the unimaginable

Even so, you found it easy to lie to me
and ignore my wishes

Because of this my life could of had meaning

Now you're gone, down deeper in dirt and I'm hurt
wishing I had more time with you.

Realising I did have meaning
told you I'd try to forgive you

Didn't know I had to be

          𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓉

for it to happen.

We have a angel now
Did you hear that? They called you angel
But sometimes an angel has to spread her wings and fly.
But that means to leave what they love behind.

She has feistiness in her eyes
And love in her heart
But most importantly she has peppermint in her blood.

The decisions she makes hurts and helps
Yet she’s the most damaged

Big world around us brings us down
by time, we learn to get up

let the sweetness and the sour taste linger
of the broken down peppermint

If I wanted to run away,
where would I go?

Is it as magical as my dreams show?
or maybe a place well known

people say don't think about it just go with the flow

even so, the surprise is nice
it wouldn't really fill me with suffice

If I wanted to run away
I wouldn't be alone

we've made an oath to be together as one

so it doesn't matter where'd we wound up

cause passion is just another word for love

Day turns darker
Warmth turns colder
Everyday I'm getting older

sleeping is my own get away
pray that what I want consumes me
Even knowing that it will doom me
Thoughts become louder
Love becomes deeper

Why can't you make this easier for me?
I now really have to hold on...
but for how long?