LJ Chaplin

LJ Chaplin Sep 2013

Susan

Your life is stained with cigarettes and whiskey,
Drunken calls late at night to tell me that you miss me,
You like to think we'll take you back,
But we'll leave you drowning in a bottle of Jack,
Family? You don't know the word,
We're better off without you,
Because Susan you'll never learn.

Sit back down and I'll tell you a story,
About how you've ****** up and never said sorry,
About how you said you'll always be here,
But it was the bottle of ***** whispering in your ear,
Feeding you words to say out loud,
Telling me how you were always proud,
Are you even aware of what you say?
All slurred and blurred as your mind decays,
Deluded,
Always secluded,
From the place you're meant to call reality,
Psychotic,
Idiotic,
Blinded by your negative morality.

Susan my dear, you're just another cavity,
Another gaping hole in what was supposed to be your family,
You chose to cower and hide away,
From your past that caused so much pain,
Take a trip down memory lane,
Just face the guilt and face your neglect,
Because thanks to you it had a nasty effect,
On those I adore and cherish everyday,
At least we have realised old habits never change.

Susan is the cruel woman who I am unfortunately related to. She has caused so much pain and damage in our family, something that none of us could ever forgive. She's trying to get back in touch and we don't want her to. So voilà, another rant from yours truly.

LJ Chaplin Sep 2013

Thinking Of You

There are so many beautiful souls
That I have encountered this year,
All of which I am thankful to have,

The girl who lives in the North,
Slaying her dragons as they come,
Battling the tide,
Fighting strong,
And has a heart much purer than Gold.
I am thinking of you, always.

To my friends across the pond,
The girl in New York
With a breathtaking sense of creativity,
Manages to face her days despite being
Dragged down by anonymous cowards,
Appreciates every single thing in her life,
We rarely talk, but I'll always care.

The guys in Virginia,
Headstrong beyond compare,
Working hard to get where they want to be,
Love each other and have so much love to give to others,
Funny, sensitive, caring,
We exchange cultural differences,
Inquisitive minds and amazing souls.

The girl in Kentucky,
Always there,
Happily married,
Struggling to make sense of her emotions
But still smiles

I am thinking of you all.
Always

LJ Chaplin Sep 2013

Lyrics: Bad Times

Verse One
I took a chance
And now we dance deep into the darkest nights,
I love the way we dance,
Get higher than the fireworks that burn so bright,
We're just a team,
Against all odds and the courage pulses through our veins,
Torn at the seams,
We're damaged but I promise we will never be the same

Chorus
Oh, we're letting go,
It's all for show,
And we'll let the world know,
No more chasing bad times,
No more simple sad crimes,
No more being who we aren't supposed to be,
It's only you and me.

Verse 2
It's make believe,
The stories we've been told about the universe,
We're so naive,
Thinking it gets better but it's getting more than worse,
Let's make a change,
Make a vow to never face the bad times alone,
Let's rearrange,
All the crushed remains of the rules we set in stone

Chorus
Oh, we're letting go,
It's all for show,
And we'll let the world know,
No more chasing bad times,
No more simple sad crimes,
No more being who we aren't supposed to be,
It's only you and me.

Bridge
We're letting go,
We put on a show,
Making promises we know we'd trash,
Because we know these bad times will never last

Chorus**
Oh, we're letting go,
It's all for show,
And we'll let the world know,
No more chasing bad times,
No more simple sad crimes,
No more being who we aren't supposed to be,
It's only you and me.

The bad times were the times that set us free.

Thought I'd make a change. Songwriting. God I wish I could sing and play an instrument right now.

LJ Chaplin Sep 2013

Teenage Tragedy

Empty stomach and a heart full of pain,
This teenage tragedy is not the same,
His ears are closed and his eyes are blind,
To the 'perfections' that people like to find,
About his eyes, about his smile,
These lies are all too vile,
To even think or speak these words,
When all they do is make him hurt,
Make him pick out more of his flaws,
Cut them apart behind closed doors,
So much hate it is darker than hell,
Too much agony to even tell,
The people he knows will understand,
He'll lie again and again as much as he can,
And hide the truth beneath the earth,
To save the ones he loves because they're more than he deserves.

There is so much I feel, and nothing at the same time. I'm sorry if this irritates anyone, but I can't do it. I need to keep writing. I need to.

LJ Chaplin Sep 2013

Lost My Tongue

I don't want to talk to the world.
Not today.
Not tomorrow.
Never.
My words are reserved for beautiful things
And the world is too ugly,
Broken.
No friends,
No family,
Nothing will hear me speak,
Because I am done.
I've come undone.

LJ Chaplin Sep 2013

Another Night, Another Rant

It's hard to stay on top of the chaos,
To walk into college,
Smile at friends,
Laugh,
Go to work,
Smile again,
Laugh some more,
Go home,
Smile yet again,
Make conversation,
Say how good your day was,
Go to your room,
Cry,
Write,
Struggle to breathe because you're panicking
About how you might not be able to do it tomorrow,
Or the day after,
Or the day after that.
I could walk into college and say I'm leaving,
Walk into work and say I quit,
Go home and pack my bags and sneak out the back gate,
Disappear into the night,
So I can finally discard the mask,
Relax my face so my tear ducts open up,
Let the muscles uncoil in my legs
So I can just collapse onto the floor
And forget why I ever bothered pretending.

Anyway, I better stop writing.
I have to do it all again tomorrow.

LJ Chaplin Sep 2013

Never Let You Go

I refuse to let you sink below,
The heartless animals that have done you wrong,
Have dragged you to the ends of the Earth
To see you fall.
You never gave up on me when I needed you,
And I refuse to give up on you,
You are precious,
Adored,
Beautiful,
Inside and out

I'll never let you go,
Please don't let go.
I love you.