LJ Chaplin

LJ Chaplin Jun 2013

It happened again,
I allowed myself to slip,
I feel so much better

LJ Chaplin Jun 2013

Contrast

Distorted reflections,
Unwanted connections,
Chaotic reactions,
****** attractions,

Stable mind,
Clearly blind,

     I am fine,
     I always lie,

          I look great,
          Another part to hate

               I love you
               I don't think you do

                     Are you OK?
                     You know what I'll say

                          Can I help?
                          I can do it myself

                               Don't you care?
                               I wouldn't dare

                                     Are you crying?
                                     If I said no I'd be lying

                                          I'm so sorry
                                          *Oh please, you never worry.

LJ Chaplin Jun 2013

Emotional Rant

Who invented the complex nature of emotions?
The anger
The sadness
The sheer joy

Why are we subjected to the cruelty of being hurtled through walls of solid feelings?
Do we not suffer enough cruelty from the physical violence of society?

So many questions, so little time

I feel myself cascading down a staircase,
Each step:

  First, happy
     Second, sad
             Third, scared
It seems that as we tumble down this spiral staircase and descend into the abyss of the mind,
We lose ourselves in the mix and drown in the inevitable storm that rages,
Submerged into a conciousness that bears the forbidden fruits of emotions we do not dare explore.

LJ Chaplin Jun 2013

Porcelain Heart

Oh Porcelain Heart,
How did they manage to break you?
Why did you fall for their damaging ways?
Let me help you pick up the pieces,
Please, I'm begging you.

                          You soul is over here
                                                                                                  Your mind is over there
You managed to keep your sanity in place

They threw your around like a ragdoll,
Ignoring your delicate complexion
      And the inevitable china emotions
           You unwillingly carried in your head.

Don't cry Porcelain Heart,
I tried to put you back together again,
Without the King's horses and King's men,
One pair of hands tried to fasten you to reality,
But I let the rope go and let you slip into fantasy.

LJ Chaplin Jun 2013

Conflict

The battle is smaller than the bombs that shatter the tranquillity of the planet,
The war is more personal than guns spitting out their venomous bullets,
The fight is harder than fists colliding with skin and bones.

Inside, chaos rules

One scar for every insult  I thought
One more minute with my head down the toilet  I cried
One more twisted moment of despair  I prayed

Yet I am still here.
The only bullets I need are the words of encouragment,
The only war I will win is the war of self control,
The only time you will see me surrender,
**Is when I'm already dead.

LJ Chaplin Jun 2013

Fireflies

Catch the fireflies in the palms of your hands,
Let them shine and dance in the darkness that still stands,
They're free
And so are we.

Crystal infernos rage beneath your fingertips,
Lights that wither all the sadness that hides behind your lips,
They gaze into your eyes
And so do I

Hold out your hands and let those fireflies take flight,
Watch them as they give the world another sliver of light,
It needs the brightness to see
**Who it can be

LJ Chaplin Jun 2013

Beneath

Drag my sorrows
Down
Down
Down
To the bottom of the ocean,
Tie them down and leave them there,
And let the seabed devour their souls.

A siren's call can reach you from the cracks in the ground,
Collect them all and seal them in a bottle,
Sell them to God.
Fractured rays of sunlight dance from above,
I hope to feel the breaking warmth of the surface again.

Shells and pearls and treasure chests decorate the sand,
Wealth and fame had crumbled and succumbed to despair,
*Beneath the waves