Wake up
Put a smile on your face
See that sparkle in your eyes
Know you're going to be alright
These hard times don't last
Eventually they'll all fade away
All the memories you made
Will no longer make you cry
You'll soon have a great time
While out by yourself
See the sky , changing by time
Listen to the surrounding sounds
Take deep breathes
Feel your heart beat
You're alive
Everything may not be right
But within time
You'll be happy again
One day at a time
Remember it takes time

Fat fat fat
Is what I used to be
spent most my life
Taking diet pills
starving myself
Working out
Anything to lose this weight
I've gained from the poor choices
I once made from younger days
Listened to the whispers
From all around
Of how big that girl is
She could lose a few pounds
Jokes and rude remarks
Of who I was
Destroyed the person I was inside
I'd cry and cut
To remove what I felt
I'd try so hard but never went anywhere
Here I am
Alive and well today
About 40 pounds down
Still unhappy with myself
Everyone sees it
The weight I've lost
All I see is this flat blob of me
Everything I eat makes me think
I'll blow up from just that bite
I'm doing everything right
Once you've been fat
Your life's been destroyed
There's no such thing
as too little to eat
Everything to me
is too much to eat
I'll continue to starve
And swallow endless diet pills
I'll sit on the curb
Hoping to be as beautiful
As all the girls I see
Cause to me
I'll always be that
Fat fat fat girl

Living life
Just doing me
Not worrying about a thing
As I proceed my life
Without you by my side
I've moved on
Sure it took long
But at least now
I can say I'm finally happy
With life and myself
That's all I've ever searched for
And I'm not sure if I I'm to thank you
Cause if it wasn't for you
I wouldn't have grown
To be this person I'm slowly becoming
That's loving life
And achieving my goals
That once meant so much to me
I've opened my eyes
Realized my worth and meaning
All thanks to you
The hell you put me through
With love unexpected
Never meant to stay
Was the best thing
And worst thing
That's ever helped me grow
I'm finally me
I am free