Words may sound nice but they do not come close to the manifestation of love and adoration I have for you , your body , your soul, your mind, this is not just that this is respect for your grind, envisioning your potential , clearly seeing the authenticity in your worth this is not your run of the mill type of temporary thing this is a now and til death do me part kinda thing this is that I'd risk my life give you the essence of myself in which that makes me breathe because you would relentlessly do the same and just cause that's what I identify and define this as you may look at me like I'm just this great thing that you may not deserve well I have news for you ...you do. You deserve every bit of it... I. Welcome the thought of you and your imperfections you want to truly know why because if I can not accept them then I am less of a man in my own eyes  and I am not a mirror of perfection I stumbled and stagger I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders everyday yet I still have the strength and room for more because the lord blessed me with strength and eyes to see who
You truly can be with or without me

In this endless sky I find myself  
Like the cloud aimlessly floating
My purpose to pass my essence
To the world around and beneath me
as we drift in this endless sky that runs forever
Few truths are found
But when will I end
Where is my peak
Forever and endlessly
Search for the day that
My endlessness finds sleep

You even though I chased and fought any number of your demons
I was still denied that which I held most dear and prized more than
The materialistic manifestations of it in the forms gifts
Even the sweet taste of your essence and entrance into the venue you hold most sacred
Couldn't compare to that of your true affection something so pure that it could be given physical form so easily if I were to dive inside so unprotected
But to much I digress it was not my own
The journey for it grew tired
All though I put every ounce of my being in this
Emotion I call the drugs of all drugs
I am left with nothing the affection I once had for this queen has faded the oasis of love barren for an eternity
But now she tries to refill or re quinch this long forgotten thirst but now it has faded
Been petrified and wiped off the face of the earth so now she longs for something she denied herself of a long time ago and in doing that she deprived her self of the one thing she searched for all her life .this fruit she deprived of nutrients has withered. Now a seed grows waiting for another's to help it blossom in to what it had always was seen to be ...magnificently put that potency and hypnotic form of drug we call love

I question what makes you different.
sure enough you're beautiful  
and your figure is exquisite
but would you pray with me  if I ever need assistance  
Because trouble has been so rampant  minds a little damaged ,
and soul is a bit famished
but my heart remains stubborn and stagnant
full of optimism and hope  
What's a king with no queen  ?
Just another jester with jokes
Or an unrefined diamond amongst all the coals
See I met you and I'm captivated by your persistence and goals
I've been searching for depth
In the world full of shallows
May I dive into your secrets
Submerged myself in your flaws
And when I resurface I respire on the greatest truth of you
Pass you this lock and key
Never end. Up losing you

Such a beautiful light in the darkness
My sun on the days as life
Applied gravity to my heart
Constantly thrusted with pain which I ignored from the start
Focusing on you and your smile maybe it'll get me through the night and creatures of the dark
Repeated battles of depression
With you they're  normal and seem right
So many hidden battles we Each faced
Returning more scars each day
But we never really speak of them
Life has rather been sink or swim
If I die I'd rather do it drowning in your love
Instead of the broken child in me fighting for what I was
I was told every angel has their darkest secrets
But beauty in her hearts will always shed away her war with those demons
A memory never forgotten a picture forever in motion
a love that's unspoken but repeatedly implied
But you'd prefer me to say it
A love and the perfect novel unfinished
Battles of opinions
forever be my breathe of relief even my last exhale
Forever be my dream unfinished

As man of your complexion
The world around
Constantly betrays you
Even the women who are unknowing
To your struggle
Perception is a mother*
born in a different type of social and physically light
You could never understand the hype
And they could never understand your life
At young age neglected by your mother because of your fathers transgressions
But still you long for her affection
Her eldest
She loved you but not as much as the next ones
Still you struggle for her favor
Months and years go by no waving away
You got the brunt of the emotional abuse from your father neglecting to stay
Physically assaulted
Emotionally lost  
Spiritually awkward
So the truest form of love you fought for but it was foreign two decades passed
Now you just starting to know it
Just another unguided child grown adult through the pain of the smiles
They could never understand you or your thoughts out loud
You speak of pain only because you know it so well
True happiness was never found                so you reside in this hell
Question aRose about the savior
Looking for something proven
Sign your name on the dotted line
Extremely intelligent but they try to play you stupid
On the road to finer things you lost so much
Longing to live a decent life but emotionally and spiritually it cost so much
They say what's understood could never be explain
With no more tears left how do you explain the pain

Staring in the mirror
Reflection saying  ****
You were and still are everything  
No disagreements or ands
We walked through sand
I told you from that day
You held my hand
By your side I would forever stand
As time passes and all things fade
Like the unrefined diamond
I, stagnant,  will stay
Until it is my time to be perfected and crafted to the needs that best suit my wearer
Pressure ,pain, and harsh conditions made you even better
No back inside these dark mines I go until I'm graced with your presence