I stopped trying to memorize your number
I figured it'd **** the sparkle and wonder
But my adrenaline did not even shudder
As I waited for next day in euphoric slumber.

Told myself I wouldn't write of you no more
This makes me feel like a tedious bore
But our time birth an intensive poetic lore
I was so sure, but now I'm no longer sore.

You brought color that has been swept
A stream of joy that has left me in debt
The obstacle course that made me wept
So when it comes to committing, I feel inept.

So should I take this experience as a sign?
That the pleasures of the flesh are malign

It was the pre-weeks of winter
Our connection was growing thinner
Leaves fell, and I began to shiver
Then, I knew my heart would need a blister.

Our time went by like a breeze
I assumed we had a tight lease
And I was mad at you for being a tease
Weren't we supposed to go for drinks?

Some doors are best left closed, I guess
But that notion keeps my anxiety worse
Like playing a grandmaster in chess
Oh, emotions and you pretty ugly mess.

Love's gone, and regret pays the rent
Talk about an ending that's nonchalant.

Your eyes, were like the coast of the sea
I chased after them till I fell on my knee
You were humble, and I fell in love with thee
As I lay on my back, you were all I that I see.

Your lips moved, and my heart skipped a beat
The cherry on top; her sassiness was neat
As you laugh, I tingled to the base of my feet
My body is at peace utop of a green sheet.

Your custard skin, dulled with a bracelet
As you danced to the tunes, I dared to duet
As feelings went, contentness was rarely felt
I unconsciously wondered under my blanket.

How I wish that this dream came true
Or to not awake from such a winter flu.

My failed interaction turned to a situationship
Now I'm consoling myself, it's not that deep.
Crazy how I thought, finally, she's for keep
In the end, what we sowed is what we reap.

I'm left wondering about my self-sabotage
Although I'm guessing I was never in charge
I fell for you by choice, and that was large
In the grand scheme of things, I'm bizarre.

How can I blame myself for being human?
For a thing that's a minority in my lifespan
This testimony is proof of life's lesson,
But I'm just not convinced enough to learn.

Mirror mirror on the castle wall,
Who's the next to make me beg and crawl?

When my eyes are closed and hear twing
I get excited with joy the sound has bring,
My thoughts whispering it's you, I feel bling
But then it turns out it was just another ring.

It's not painful, though, just dread.
Like sipping sugar water with brown bread.
I wonder if I'll forget you when I'm dead,
The idea of you keeps me warm in my head.

I have fallen victim to your elusive smile.
Still enchanted, though you're far than a mile.
Once more, I was a fool to think we had time.
Now I lie awake, thinking how you're not mine.

All surroundings have become bleak
In that center is I, who is comfortably meek.
And the only thing I feel is frost in my cheek,
As I conform to the snow, broken and weak.

I had thought our love would bring harmony
But it was never the case. Now I'm in agony.
After giving myself to you, I am unwholy,
Deprived of my being, I have become less holy

The well of my existence has been exhausted
My underlying worst fears have fully boasted,
Now I'm at a tumultuous daze feeling haunted
I guess you can say that I have been ghosted.

In the end, it's true, nice guys do finish last,
With plenty of fish at sea, but love is not vast.