The biggest problem
About air
Is knowing when to hold your breath
Or
When to breathe

There are stars in the sky and laughter across my ears
I am smiling in my mind
So I am not prepared for the world to shatter around me
In one gasp of breath, black paint spills over all I see

My hands clutch to my core
Trying to stop the bleeding from a wound that never was there
The pain so complete, I must be dying
I'm endlessly dying

I would rip my heart from my own chest if that would stop the pain

When the world returns, I turn my eyes desperately to the stars
As if tethering myself to each one so they can't run away again
I tell myself
I could never give up this life under their watch

Please don't let the stars go out

It's always been strange for me
when the car in front of mine slows,
blinker on in the middle of an otherwise still street,
And I watch it turn off into a driveway

I am overcome by a rush of nostalgia
as I realize that, for that one car, for those people,
the house connected to that driveway, that I haven't even taken the time to look at,
To them, that house is home.

They say the friends who build you up
Are the ones who are supposed to stay
But it turns out once you make them a wall
They'll quickly be on their merry way

But you're stuck between the doorway
Because you fell halfway through
And the person who used to pick you up
Is now the laughter that mocks you

Just like I cried over you once because the thought of losing you drove me to the edge and I couldn't bear to be standing on the edge of some mountain where we'd once stood together

And then it was just me..looking up at the view of the tallest person I'd ever met alone
Not knowing how to take it and I wish you would have showed me how
You were the sister with every answer
And a lyric for every song
You had the courage to just say let it be
And I did not
But thank you for bringing me short lived peace..
And now I have love
And really that's all  you need