What does love feel like?
I feel swallowed in a sea of butterflies
That I drunk from the glass
atop his beating heart that lays in my bed
I see romance in the blank pages he has yet to complete
And I love the smile that makes me feel shattered
But head over heels in love

I know what i say
Sometimes my heart just hurts
His got a girl
And i've got a boy
I liked him once
But im in love now
Honestly im happy
But even in a crowd
I see him first i say his name
when i mean someone else
And sometimes
It hurts

I love the memories of us
The ones that kissed me on highways alone at night
The ones hugging me in bed
The memories in old songs
And at the bottom of my coffee cup
The memories of us that keep me up
That are at 2% battery
That hide in your smile
And the ringtone of us

i know i shouldn't be as jealous as i am but
seeing the heart on every profile pic hurts
and realising she wasn't just another girl
that you truly loved her
enough to say you'd **** her still
especially to me your current girl
maybe for you losing your virginty
was the same to me were you didn't care
but maybe for you it was a meant to be
so when i realise ill never amount to her
and your feelings could be lingering
it hurts
and i know im just thinking but its the thoughts
the thought that you'd go back to her if she asked that scares me more than anything

She fell from above
Gentle like a feather
Effortlessly
She was seen as the definition of beauty
She had wings that held her up
allowing her to breathe
She’s flying
Flying away
From where she sat
Upon heavens staircase.

If i was a bird i'd of been born without wings

i forget my hygiene
Like showering and brushing my hair
Sometimes it's not changing my clothes
And i don't mean for two or three days
Sometimes it's two to four weeks
Sometimes my effort leaves me in bed
And when i say sometimes i mean
I'm swallowing glass
That leaves my body though
New fresh cuts
its hanging around friends that feel like complete strangers
but not leaving because your afraid of being asked whats wrong
It's breaking down crying but not shedding a tear
Because your mascara will run
it's turning the hot tap but getting cold water
Staying in the bath until you feel something more than numb
It's getting out but sitting on your bed trying to be cold
It's staying awake till four only to sleep to four the same day
It's forgetting to eat but not wanting to
Craving something you can't have
It's knowing that you need to move
but staying still until you Can manage to drag
yourself away from the only place you feel safe
Sometimes it's forgetting how to breathe
But there's no instructions on how to breathe
Everyone says "your body know how don't think about it"
But now i'm more aware and i'm gasping for air but
It's not that i won't breathe again it's just the
"Everyone can breathe why can't you
It's easy  She can breathe why can't you"
"Nothings wrong you can still breathe
Don't ask for help just breathe"
"Why can't you be more like her she can breathe
Without making a big deal out of it"
"Stop pretending you can't breathe"
SMILE
Why can't you?
why don't they understand
"i just can't"

I wish to know if you miss me but I
Can’t ask I’m to afraid of your answer
Tell me on your own so one day
You and I will be happy together but
I know dreams are just dreams I’d
Love for mine to come true but
You will always be so far out of reach
Because someone else deserves you
I’m waiting for you but I’m
Afraid we will miss the timing.