Why are you here with me
when you can be there
with the people
who can
make you
happy?

He spoke
things broke

Things changed
Stars rearranged

You were
the
tomorrow
I looked
forward to

Only the rain
understands
the pain
I feel
today

quadriplegic
polychythemic
a voice behind my ears
golden fields
winds I feel
eyes shed my tears
sunbeam lights
pale blue skies
vast meadowy hills
voice I listen
her tone glistens
vision disappears
heartfelt stories
of sights of glories
and yet excites all my fears
I open my eyes
smiles so wide
vision suddenly clears
sits on my lap
then a gentle tap
as I sit with much drear
I close my eyes
awake to familiar sights
my eyes cover with tears

Driving home
with 7 inebriated
at 2:30 in the morning
makes me question
what I am there for
As a man who does not
drink. smoke. do drugs.
curse
I am no more than no one
in this band of drunks
seeing how their night ends
I wonder why I was even there
more so why I even cared
to even bring them home
as it pains me to say that
it hurts to see them
break. crush. suffer.
from whatever escape
they tried to pull
I wondered why
I am like this
a man who cared
for people who never did