At this point its all on me.
Stop this madness inside me.
Go away to get better they say.
Some time will do you good they say.
But you know what....
I'm scared....
I'm scared to admit I'm different
Too scared to ask for help
Ultimately scared they are right...
I'm just another girl
Who has it bad off..
Who's parents gave up on her.
Turned her loose to the world.
Well now the world turned on me too
I'm alone in my own life..
Scared of direction
and of no direction at all...

I sit here with what's left of my life before me.
I sit here with the decisions that will change my life heavy in my heart.
I sit here wondering if you are wrong about me.
Puzzled by that notion I sit here some more.

Until I am **** sick of sitting here.
Until I am ready to capture my own dreams.
Until I come to the realization my life has been an awful awful life...
A little less than surprised I have found myself out of untils.

For all I have is this very moment.
For all I have is the rest of my life in front of me.

Now I know I have to think my own way and embark on my own adventure..

Babe I'd fold the Earth for you
Walk across the creases into your arms
Stand in front of you and say hello

Babe I'd swim oceans for you
Dry off in the presence of your love
Bathe in the warmth of your touch

Babe I'd cross universes for you
Until I found our perfect galaxy
Filled with stars shining just for us

Babe I'd fight fate for you
Tell her where to stick it
Destiny is what we make of it

Babe in the end it won't matter
If your oceans, galaxies or worlds away
Somewhere in the middle is a life for us
I intend to find it and stay there forever

So let me fold the earth, swim the oceans and cross the universe as long as your on the other side I'll go as far as it takes.

You never understood
You became my brother too
Part of my heart
Part of my life
Part of my soul
My love poured out for you
I reached out my hand to help you
I held on as much as I could
Thinking that somehow I'd be able to save you
From the hatred of others
The dull sickness in your stomach
I wanted to teach you, lead you
Protect you from everything including yourself
I wanted you to know the healing of words
Of caring and understanding
The safety of knowing somebody is there
Somebody who isn't blood isn't family
That it's possible for somebody to love you
because they grew to not because they felt forced to
Every word I say about you seems wrong now
Like it's past tense like you aren't coming home
As if you've forgotten where home truly is
I'm so angry at you for leaving like that
So livid for your lack of goodbye
For convincing me everything would be okay
Then just spiraling out of my reach
I want to pick up the phone and hear your voice
Hear you tell me you are okay
I am so sick of listening to them tell me your fine
I won't be fooled like that never again
This will not be okay until you return
Not that anything will be the same
You're now an uncle did you know that?
To a little boy named Gabe
Your brother is with another woman these days
I'm once again just the past
Maybe I belong that way
**** it Dommy....
I still miss you everyday.

I didn't mean to love you it was never in the plans
You were meant to be a remedy to ease my growing pains
Rebound from leaving home, a solace in my time of need
I found love in your little flaws and familiarity in your pain
A storm in my heart cleared and you were a bright sunny day
One year, nine months and twenty-seven days have passed since our first "together" day
It's hard to think that soon I'll be counting the days we've been apart
Time will heal your pains just as they will for mine
Please believe me when I say that I loved you with all my heart and soul
Yet somewhere along the way things fell apart faster then I could repair them
The love slowly got swept away in the frustration, tears and break ups
Love is all about giving and taking, equality and trust
I'm sorry I just have nothing else to give right now and you need more than that
You deserve somebody who has more to give then they need to take
Our time together will never be forgotten and I'll treasure your love forever
It's time now for me to go even if it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
Goodbye my love, be safe and be good I'll always watch over you.

Where would we be
Without each other
I'm pretty sure
We'd be six feet under

Me without you
You without me
What we've become
Would just be a dream

Life since you smiled at me
Has been such a joy
It should be easy to see
Just how happy you make me

Shall there come a day
When we're ever apart
I hope not a second goes by
When I'm not in your heart

You're my whole world
My boyfriend
My best friend
My protector
My true love

Forever and for always
Has new meaning everyday
Because without you
There would be no me

I walked into our classroom
As the new girl
The younger sister
I was a mess
Insecure and confused
You smiled at me
From your spot next to my sister
I smiled back as I felt
A sense of belonging wash over me

Fast forward almost a month
I'm still the new girl
We're shooting off rockets
The noise scares me
I stand behind you
You look back at me smiling
From then on you were my human shield

3 months later
We're planning out
What we want after graduation
Those plans are for the both of us
I love you