Strength
He is steel
Anger flares easily
With grip so strong
yet underneath
He is gentle and kind
He makes me feel how I feel
When I feel freshly cut grass
beneath my feet
Relaxed and content

His eyes light my life
with passion and joy
when we're together
His eyes twinkle as he teases
They can quickly turn black
As the ocean at midnight
Frightening but controlled

His lips brushed mine
Tenderly, firmly, deeply
His hands hold me tight
At my hips
At my waist
At my neck
At my thighs

His mind runs rampade
Always one step ahead of mine
I can never know what he wants next

His heart pounds loudly
I can hear it over my own
It almost seems to set the pace
I have to keep up

His soul is beautiful
His mind is dark
His heart is mine

Your words cut deeper than my knife

Those five hate filled words

“I really couldn’t care less”

Made it one of the worst days of my life

No emotion in your eyes

I softly whisper my goodbyes

Nothing in this universe could make me more depressed

I’ve lost my BEST friend in the world

Now I just watch from afar

The whole sky opens like a tightly sealed jar

Pouring rain, bringing more pain.

I hate myself

I  hate my life but have no real reason to

That makes me hate myself more

I wish I didn’t give a **** about the rumors

I cry myself to sleep a lot

I can’t stand my family

Even though they don’t deserve my hate

Just that face seems to make me a terrible person

I’m doing terribly in school, not that I care

I don’t know what I want in life

Or even if I want my life

I tend to push everybody away

Even my so called “friends”

I’m afraid of life after college

I hate living here for various reasons

I don’t have any real skills

The skills I do have will get me no where in life

I cry when I’m angry

Which makes me even more angry

So I cry some more

I don’t trust myself

I complain too much

I’m petrified of change

My biggest fear besides change?

Being alone and losing everything

So how’s that?

Does that basically cover who I am?

Would it be worth it

To lose my family

The guy who says I’m his world

Daily hugs and smiles

Being told I’m amazing

All for the long wait

To truly be with you?

It would be 364 days until

My first true hug from you

Or five days until I’m in his arms again

I realize it’s not worth it

I love being somebody’s world

I rely on those daily hugs and smiles

I don’t need to wait to be with him

I don’t WANT to wait

I have what I need now

Why throw it all away?

*written for k.d.s

Life is hard

Without you here

Painful words

Countless letters

All begging for forgiveness

Hoping life might get better

Don’t you understand?

Don’t you see?

I need my brother

My best friend

I need you now

I’ll need you forever

No list of differences

Between two people

Should be able to ruin a friendship

Best friends shouldn’t turn away

You abandoned me

Turned your back

When I needed you most

You walked away

I blamed myself

Slipped into a depression

Convinced myself

That I could become somebody else

Next year I could be the “perfect girl”

Then it hit me

Why was I so determined

To change for you?

If you couldn’t accept me for me

Do you deserve me at all?

Today I’m not going to look back

I’ll smile at you in the hall

However, not one word

Shall pass my lips

I’ll always remember today

Today I’m the one who walks away

Sick of all the judgement and the rumors

If you want the truth about my life

Come and find me

Don’t go to the ******* facebook

With it’s lies and gossip

Each of the lies will cause somebody pain

Because none of it’s true!

Who the hell are you

To call me the wannabe?

Personally I think that title belongs to you