It's all bad

Which is worse?

Both hurt

Which is worse.

I speak too much

When I mean nothing

Loving you hurts either way
Whether you're here or not
I think I'd rather have you
Look me in the eye

Did I have to die for you to cry?
Did I have to die for you to miss me?
Did I have to die for you to come see me?
Did I have to die for you to say you love me?
Did I have to die for you?
Did I have to die?
Did I have?
You?

Because I would die for you; the ultimate death
Infinite fire my warmth
Quenching in your cold heart

He is jealous for me

To see me hurt invokes his wrath
Though, I am complicit; I am not innocent

I am fearfully made

I will search for you in outer darkness
If we both miss the light
I will hear your cries above the noise
I will smile with gnashing teeth

As we finally have eternity

However brief

Everything was okay

And I've decided to keep walking

Who's too caring
Who's too loving
Too forgiving
Too hopeful
He will die one day
One way or another
He won't be here when you

I'm obviously not meant to be in Love
Otherwise it wouldn't hurt so bad

I'd say everyone gets one
Until I met the one I gave too many
Granted
I'd say they cannot take what is
Until I gave what I could not get back
Now
I say I'm better off alone
I am

No affection
No hugs no kisses
No eyes no smile
Yes I'll listen but I'm not the one she wants to talk to
We're friends but I see nothing
I'm here where she needs me she's there and else where
I know she don't hate me but she certainly don't like me
Okay she "likes" me but I fell in love
Nothing I can write that hasn't been before
This level of lonely is the bottom
Grinding and gnashing of teeth
Hair pulling and breath held not to scream

That's where you learn to feel
Where you learn to accept
Learn to let go
Learn loss and gain
To fight and die quietly
To hold yourself
To carry your burden
To learn you don't have to
To forgive yourself
Where you learn yourself
Learn solitude and to cherish
To find hope in the dark
To learn love is not always beautiful
That sometimes its ugly and hurts
But it's there
Waiting for you
When you need it most
Like when you're alone.

Here.
Now.
You are not.
I am still

Taking steps back
I found my way home

It's time that I lack
Bare down to my bone

If this is my path
Let it not be my own

These crowns that I cast
As I run to The throne


Amen

And they're not fond of me.

Feed and storage
Filter and infiltrate
Link and inundate
Protest and demonstrate
Progress accrued hate
Starving with nothing left to contemplate


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That doesn't happen here. Only over there
You know her? and him? of course i know where
Pay me no mind just check me in the morning
Have a second? i'd like an hour cause it's boring
Taking yours and vying mine.
What to do when buying time?
You want to quit. you say you're trying.
i'd believe you but you're lying.
See my light, find your truth. It won't hide.
                
                                     - love yours truly,
                                                        Algorithm, i

My fury is cold and weeping
My hatred is remorse and sorrow full
My will, though broken is fixed
Only part of me is beautiful.
The broken bits and pieces you find yourself in.

Because I'm not beautiful

This
And
That

But it wouldn't mean a thing
From me

Is but mere moments

She's told me some stories,
what she has survived; from when she was innocent.
And I carry a lot of respect for her.
I admire her,
for the commitment to being a decent person.
It's not easy.
I know.
But, do you know how they say we should be a light in other's lives?

Well I've found mine.

My colors run and my fruits rot

I come up short but can't stop

Reaching for the stars and shoot the moon.

Nothing gratifies me instantly beyond disappointment

Letting go of expectation and desire while addicted to reward

Destroying the reward systems with drugs and alcohol

Reward the systems that destroy those addicted

Some don't see the vice we're all in, some don't want to

If I touch what I can reach and reach where I go and go where I'm needed then I've made the difference.

I am not alone in my journey

No kids
No ties
To this world
Time goes
As the crow flies.

Hadn't thunk to say it,                                
But I think today did
Enough to me to thank it.                
I mean I'm patient,
sure of what?

Every angel taught me;

Say my name and I will wake for you. 
When patient shores evaporate

Drowning in sunlight
Sol and I are burning
Gravity wisps away
A dance begins turning
The same old two feet
This time I'm learning
New ways to meet
The partner I've been yearning

An open mind and heart may never find it.

Whether it be in or up, it will not matter to them

Minding the feel
Tracing until

I draw without trying
Stall without time
Devine in design

This line of love is not thin
How deep we are drawn
When swimming in sin

Just the way I see it.


Withered Oak sun soaked
Sharing the horizon yonder
The Earth's daughter
Born of destruction
Glaring at her Father
Beaten and Burned
Alas pale knight
The wounds are fresh
No end in sight
Blackened salted seas filled with death
Sweet retribution shall be swift
When the tides swell and kiss our feet
Swaying,
Beneath the Judas Tree

When everything hurts but nothing is wrong
Your pain is acceptional


It's nice to see you, Happy.
This too shall pass,
But I'll be here waiting;
For when you need me again

The conservation of mass
If energy is neither created nor destroyed
Then negativity is a MUST
A law of nature
This is a burden I am willing to carry

To let it all go
I can't be sorry for what's best
In sleep I dream of death
And it does not wake me
But calls me comforting
Let's pray God has mercy