I said I’d move on, let it be,
But your absence still lingers in me.
Laughter we shared, now just a ghost,
A friendship lost, the pain the most.

I wonder if you ever feel the same,
Or if I’m just a forgotten name.
I smile, I laugh, I play my part,
But deep inside, it still breaks my heart.

I fake a smile
And everyone is happy
I fake a laugh
And they laugh with me
I am so tired of having a mask
Underneath a mask
At the night I take every mask off
Smile turns into frown
Laugh turns into a scream
Shiny eyes turn into ****** red ones

Breathe your sins
Into my soul,
And be unafraid,
Because forgiveness -
From me to you,
Is inevitable -
And would undoubtedly prevail.

As the sun comes up day after day,
I just wonder when this act would halt,
wishing for the darkness to stay forever,
to wake up, only if I can see you near.

Pretending through the day is bad enough,
then comes the moon, to whom I talk,
pouring out my sorrows and breaking down,
making the nights worse, along with nightmares.

I hardly understand the ticking of the clock,
trying hard to go through each day,
wishing today would finally be my time,
to go into a peaceful sleep and not be back.

I feel light,
as if right before death
or maybe I’m already dead and writing.
Who can make sense of life?
I’ll just go out onto the balcony,
smoke a cigarette,
keep up the routine,
and act as if I’m alive.

Flowing tears pull me to the reality,
from existing thinking you are here,
some miles away or a call away,
living a joyous life everyday.

In that very warming fantasy,
wish I could remain, eternally,
or in those dreams painted in gold,
with you and the love we behold.