I won’t ever love anyone how I loved you,
You lit my days the way the moon does the night,
You fell into my hands and I fell into yours and
holding each other—we promised to never let go

And yet I fell,
My heart erupted. Broken
Blood gushed over my intestines until I ceased to exist

Except that I did exist,
I felt it all for months,
even now I feel blood leaking through the wounds that will never completely heal

Even now I remain the hopeless romantic I was all those years ago,
The only difference is that I now know how much weight the word hopeless holds

I not them.
I hold the secrets to all that is,
I hold the power to decide what is,
I am everything and everyone.

I hate you.
Not because of what you did to me,
But because of what it turned me into.

Once more I tread this course,
One I know far too well.
I enter with hope as well as caution,
For I hope to know your beauty as well as I do your horrors.

I am soaked in the overwhelming need for you,
Yet I still feel the burns from our last encounter,
So why do I still long for you?
Is it truly in search of your beauty?

Or maybe it’s something a bit more selfish..
Maybe I don’t want to be alone any longer.
Maybe I’ve gone insane.
But if so, then haven’t we all?

I wish I could start anew,
But with silence comes the thought of you.
The lost boy who lost his partner,
Searches all over, here and yonder.
She left so fast, left him to ponder.
Is there anyone who’s seen my partner?

Blood is red and the sky blue,
There is no length I wouldn’t go to,
If it meant that I could see my partner.

Snow days in nor Christmas joy,
There’s nothing that can please this boy,
All I want is to see my partner,

Eight years young or eighty old,
The winter nights are awfully cold,
Especially when I’m all alone,
I still have yet to see my partner.

My brother’s arm, my sister’s hand,
I forgot all about my siblings.
My mothers love, my fathers pride,
You cannot say I didn’t try,
I never did find my partner.