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JDK Jan 2018
"Hey, can I ask you a favor, please?"
I said, to the most supportive members of my family.
"Sure,'" they said.
"Feel free to ask us anything."
"Here," I said, handing over my pack of cigarettes.
"Please get rid of these."

"Gladly."
But I stole three before handing them over.
Just three more then I'll be free.
JDK Nov 2017
Please no more cheddar,
I feel bloated and old.

Scarfing down mozzarella with a sick stomach groan.

You're trapped in the restaurant
missing your home,
while I eat grilled cheese and soup all alone.
The cheesiest of metaphors
JDK Oct 2015
I've got a thing for steady beats and repetitious lyrics.
It's a sure-fire recipe to make it stick inside my head.
Strictly preferable to whatever insipid thing this person might have just said.

"I'm sorry,
I was thinking of something else.
Would you mind saying that again?"
I hate repeating myself, but I make other people do it all the time.
JDK Jun 2013
All of these people
Just trying to get along
And I've got my keyboard
And I've got my song
And I sing it out loud
To find out who will sing along

All of these thoughts
Now have somewhere to go
And I plant this seed
And I'll watch it grow
And somewhere in between
The most spectacular show

All of these feelings
Succumb to being overwhelmed
A desperate attempt of the lost to be found
And the trees sprout up from the soft fertile ground
And the birds give words to the sweet subtle sound
Of a life never lived giving birth to right now
"Most of what matters in your life takes place in your absence."
-Salman Rushdie
JDK Jul 2020
Poked and prodded
'til brokenhearted.
Now the game's *******.
The stomachs knotted.

Pushed and pulled;
Together, alone.
The game's not over . . .

(Pick up the phone.)
You have one unheard voice message. New message: *click*
JDK Sep 2014
Why are you so wacky?
Why can't you just be sane?
You've done a number on yourself
and the inner workings of your brain.
Take a deep breath, you'll see, for sure;
all is not so lost.
Make a path back to the shore.
Our light will guide you through the fog.

You don't understand,
I'm homeless in the sand;
my castles only ever crumble.

Then don't build them so big,
or so close to the tide.
Tame your pride,
and learn to be humble.

I'll share no reefs with bottom-feeding things.
I'll use no shells only fit for a hermit.
I'd rather spend my days in the melodic waves.
I've  got what it takes;
I know how to endure it.
Good Luck
JDK Oct 2014
Swimming in swirls.
Dancing with smoke trails.
Hung up on these girls
with their golden locks and pigtails.

Curl me around your finger.
Strung out on different pills.
Let's leave this place together
and fulfill those greater thrills.

Hear the music echo
in those ears that still ring.
Move your body to the rhythm.
I want to hear you sing.

Sweet melody.
Released free and clear.
Tonight we are in harmony,
but tomorrow I'm not here.
Roll
JDK Nov 2016
I saw him take off,
launched headlong into the stars,
with gold and orange sparks spiraling out of his arms.

I wondered if he was afraid
to be alone up there with all that empty space,
forever out of reach.

But then maybe, it's not so empty.
Or maybe, he's okay with it.
At least, that's what I wished for.
JDK Dec 2014
Bloodied noses.
Smeared makeup.
Reckless abandon.
Don't care where I wake up.

I danced.
I think I lost my ****.
I'm sorry you had to see that.
I'm over it.

Where'd I leave my shirt?
When did I get so harried?
Why am I covered in dirt?
Who did we bury?

panic attack.
Panic Attack!
PANIC ATTACK!!!

Foamed at the mouth.
Spat out several teeth.
Are we humans,
or animal beings?!

*****.
Swallowed it . . .
came back.
PANIC ATTACK!!!

I ate all the prettiest flowers in your garden.
Sorry about that.
I wanted to digest beauty.
Turn it to ****.
How's my breath?

***** fingernails.
Tobacco stains.
Coughs and gasps.
Phantom pains.

Who did I what?
How am I where?
Did I just now ******* . . .
fall up the stairs?
Why did you go?
I'm still wrong here.
"We should let this dead guy sleep"
JDK May 2021
Sand sticks to me and you, like little pieces of memories we can't be certain of ever being true.

Like something half-remembered from a dream.
The way your body glows in the sunlight reminds me of a dream I once had of you.
The way our bodies press against each other while the waves wash away the fragments of what we've tried to forget for so long,
it's just like a scene from a dream I haven't dreamt of in so long.

Back on the shore, we're drinking beer and rehashing the past.
Reliving things we swore we'd never think about anymore.
The kinds of things that never last but show up unexpectedly at our door,
right around midnight.

One last moor before this ship sails for foreign harbors.
One last meal before we shed our shells.
One last dance with the ghosts of our former selves before we drown forever beneath the swell of the ocean.

The distant waves beat down on the beach like the dreaded mundanity of tomorrow's realities.

The moon's glow slowly steals the spaces where the sun once shone down.

The persistent ocean eats away at the land until it's all gone.

Maybe it was never even there at all.
JDK Jul 2015
The first thing I can remember is that I was sitting at the table.
I couldn't sleep that night. It was very late.
Then I heard the sound - that deafening boom.
As if the skies themselves had been ripped apart.
I mean, I guess that's what actually happened,
more or less.

They stopped throwing their annual ***** nearly a decade before.
No one really knows why. A whole crowd was ready to climb those ladders that year, but they never came down.


Then a sound like thunder,
but louder than any thunder I'd ever heard before.
It shook the whole house. Then the earth started to shake.
It was from the rubble, of course.
Those massive stones falling to the ground.

Rumors began to spread.
Tales of romance, jealousy, scandal, adultery,
******.
All hearsay, of course,
if not entirely fabricated.
Truth is, nobody had any means of communication with the castle.
They stopped sending the pigeons when they stopped lowering the ladders.
The whole town was simply left to wonder what happened.    
A death in the family was the common consensus.

  
I remember being knocked off my chair from the impact of the first one.
It landed right out back; right there in the garden.
Then more came. Just a few at first,
but then the the sound quickly became constant.
A never ending barrage of thuds and quakes,
and in-between those,
the awful cracking sound of a building being smashed to pieces.
Screams could be heard after that.

The cause of the explosion remains a mystery,
just like everything else about cloud castle.
All investigations yielded nothing but wild theories,
and of course, there were no survivors.


I ran out of the house and into pure madness.
I've seen many a battle before, but none of them compared to what I saw that night.  
Death and destruction all over.
A house would get hit and burst into a thousand pieces;
splinters of wood and brick tearing into anyone unfortunate enough to be too close to it.
And the people -
they were running in all directions;
screaming, delirious.
I saw families huddled together trying to figure out where to go.
I saw many of my fellow townsfolk get crushed right before my eyes.
The whole gruesome scene lit up by the ghastly glow of that cloud on fire.  

Powder charges, atmospheric pressure anomalies, black magic -
even dragons. All have been proposed;
none can be proven.


I ran.
I could barely stay on my feet for the quakes,
but I ran nonetheless.
Through crashing stones and crowd -
through shrapnel blasts and the wails of death -
I ran.

When it was all over,
very little remained of the city
and countless were dead.
Those who lived through that night never came back to it.
Nothing was rebuilt.
That flying fortress had made that town,
and when it went down,
it took everything along with it.
It's nothing now but a graveyard of rubble;
haunted by the souls of corpses never buried.


I looked back only once.
I looked back at where the castle used to be.
I saw nothing but flames.
The smoke from it blacked out the whole sky above.
No moon or stars to be seen.
That's when I saw her;
a shimmer of white falling from the sky -
like a wingless angel.
It was a nightgown of sorts,
long and white. It flowed around her as she fell -
a cloud trying in vain to fly.
I thought I could catch her.
I wanted to catch her.
I turned back and ran toward where I thought she was going to land;
in a field behind a farmhouse that had already been smashed by a stone,
but I was too slow.
She hit the ground with a faint thud.
I was only several yards away.
When I got to her, hoping against all hope,
I saw that I was too late.
She was already gone,
but she had this look upon her face:
Serene.
JDK Jun 2015
A mother and son standing at the edge of it.*

"What happened?"

"Some say it was a fire, but I don't believe it."

"Why not?"

"Well, a fire that big would've left marks, but there's no scorched earth or anything."

"Then what was it?"

"Poor engineering, maybe. Or some great storm came and knocked it down. Maybe a combination of the two? No one really knows for sure. What do you think?"

"I think . . . I think it just fell in on itself. They built it too big. It couldn't stay that big like that. It just broke apart one day."

"Hmm. Well you know what?
I think you might be right . . . "
Kids these days.
JDK Aug 2016
I had a dream that I was rollerblading
in quick sand,
on a treadmill,
down a never ending tunnel,
but then I had to wake up.
JDK Jan 2015
Run on toward a brand new sun.
Move forward. Stop for no one.
Drop from clouds and hit the ground.
Land on your feet in full-blown sprint.

Slide into a brand new scene.
Send that dance floor spinning.
Flinging spit in every direction.
Hitting sheep of plasticine.

This race never ends,
but I'll be ****** if we're not winning.

Climb the ladder to dive again.
The water's warm and waiting.
Pity those stuck indecision.
They'd might as well be *******.

Fly through town while howling loud.
Stick out in crowds of wolves.
The wild ones are homeless now -
forced out of their woods.

I'm not one for promises,
but I'll be ****** if we're not making good.

Spiral in then pinch the seams.
Sealed inside infinity.
Circle round the center like sharks in bloodly seas:
Recyclers of misplaced energy.

Drink it up.
Blast that song.
Crack concrete.
Run on.

Run on.
JDK Nov 2014
"Everyone's dying, but we're doing it faster."
Godspeed
JDK Jul 2015
Smooth it out then shoot it off.
Launch it like a cannonball.
Sue the summer.
Sink the surf.
Wave goodbye to the waves and sky.
Drown the sun in tides of fun.
Spring break never dies.
We're not the only ones.
JDK Dec 2020
I'd rather witness one tiger deftly stalking their target than to watch two dozen of you drinking yourselves *******.
"**** the bandar-log."
-Rudyard Kipling
JDK Jun 2015
Thirty different versions
of the same kind of person.
I'm sick of repetitious conversation,
so go on and call me pretentious.
I always find grounds for contention
when it comes to dealing with this thirty-fold type of predictable person.
It's just not worth it!

Now I'm the one who's wrong,
because I've heard your whole life played out
in a four and a half minute long song.
Just let three more foreshadowed words fall from your tongue,
and I swear to god,
I'm gone.

I know when you're young
surviving seems contingent on donning a disguise,
but I've spent the second half of my life learning how to take it off.
Meanwhile, yours has only become more latched on;
to the point where your true face and the fake are one.
All you've got left is that gaudily painted on expression.
I swear to god,
I'm done.
I grew up on Goosebumps.
JDK Feb 2010
In a twisted life
In a twisted mind frame
Who's to say of who's to blame for all these twisted mind games.

I have lifted all the layers then got caught beneath
The angels blew their trumpets,
and on my head they placed a wreath.

Now stepping in tune with the sun and the moon
Then the sand falls out from under
And with the tiny grains, my body and my brains,
They all are torn asunder.

Whoever so surrenders dough to a consciousness more in need
Will find themselves farther from hell,
(but it's all just ego that they feed.)
Cause personally, I don't agree to the degree that will match my mind
Because I find the answers lie beside the mind that tries.

So try as I might
And try as I will
To find the right **** in which my mind to fill
I have an aversion to social conversion
And your opinion tastes like a pill.
JDK Dec 2013
I've seen introverts become the center of attention
I've seen extroverts go ignored
I've heard complacent well-adjusted human beings
Cry out for something more
And there's a million and one things to do with life
So don't you dare be bored

Because there are three types of people in this world:
Those who do
Those who don't
And those who didn't, but wish they had

At times it's wrong to do what's good
Sometimes you've got to be bad
So don't you go on second guessing
Lest you end up with regret
Follow your instincts
Don't look back

'Cause there are three kinds of people on this earth:
Those in the future
Those in the past
And those in the present, so make it last

At times it happens all so fast
You forget to examine the extent of the impact
But don't you worry about forgotten things
They'll find their way back to you in your dreams

And there are those who will tell you that it's false
They'll comfort you with broken arms
To drag you down to into the swamp
Trying to stop you before you even start

Now there are three sects of people on this planet:
The leeches
The dreamers
And then the true believers

Examine your head to find the truth
Don't worry about what you can or cannot prove
Nothing matters nearly as much
As the way it all matters to you

You see, there's no right or wrong way to live a life
It all depends on how it makes you feel
The miraculous fact that you exist at all
Gives you the right to determine what is real

And there are but three animals in this pen:
The sheep
The wolf
And the Golden hen
Lay some eggs
JDK Jan 2015
The part of me that knows what he's doing is hardly ever there.
Only showing up after mistakes are made.
Saying **** like: "Whatever. What do you care?"
*******, me. **** me, I swear.
You just hang back and pass judgement.
It's not fair.

You should be here helping to deal with these things,
instead of leaving me all alone.
If only you could understand.
You never will.
You live in objective, third-person, meta neverland.

It must be convenient not to feel anything,
but I resent the emptiness.
Forgive me for trying to fill that void with something.
I'm sorry if that makes us enemies.
For the record, I've tried everything to make it easy.

The part of me that knows what he's doing is always condescending.
He thinks my life's a joke,
he thinks that I'm pretending.
I say "**** that" and do what I want.
Even mistakes can have a positive way of working themselves out -
With or without your help.

I know that I can count on your abandon.
You only show up when I'm all put out.
To carry me through the ******* -
I suppose I ought to be thankful for it.

You'd **** well better,
you melodramatic fool.
Everything I do is for you.
It kills me to see you waste it on such senseless endeavors.
What are you?
Some sort of emo Dr. Seuss?
Nobody cares.
You use writing as a way of escape.
We've got a doctor's appointment tomorrow (because of you, thanks).
I wish you wouldn't tie me to your leg whenever you drown yourself in   sorrow.

The part of me that knows what he's doing is always ******* things up,
but I'll bet he'd say the same about me.
God forbid we work together
to find some sort of harmony.
******
JDK May 2015
Several different approaches,
but which to go with?
Past experience reveals the best angle.
Line it up, just a bit off-center
in an attempt at proper English.
No time for second guessing,
it's all for nothing if you don't follow through.
That hole is home. It's the fate of this sphere.
Send the others spinning,
then get out of here.
This one is about billiards.
JDK Jan 2017
Get to the car and run for your lives.
Hit the deck and call it.
Slippery when wet;
this floor's too dry for me to mop it.
Words get on my nerves sometimes, I swear.
JDK Apr 28
The dimpled back of the banshee that haunts your hollows,
as inescapable as the back of your eyelids.
The acid in your veins, the same pH as the bile you spent your youth spewing onto unsuspecting plants. Poor things.
Pouring whatever you can down gullets, gutters, toilets -
fancying yourself freed from the fiend that had been keening deep inside your bowel.
Romanticizing the expectorant as some kind of exorcist, ridding yourself of the demon you spent the entirety of your childhood feeding.
JDK Dec 2015
The first embrace was electric.
The second was on fire.
The third was cold and frigid.
There never was a fourth.
JDK Mar 2013
This song is for you
As are all the notes
Do you have a clue
Of what our future holds

We could make it together
And forever it would be bright
I could hold you close
Throughout each and every night

But some things just aren't meant to be
And I'm not that into monogamy
We have our own separate lives to lead
Two very different destinies

But still, it's nice
To think about you twice
And daydreaming a little
Before moving on with life
My brain and my heart are always bickering with each other
JDK May 21
Soft-wedged between twin expanses of amber sky,
the lemon form of the most delicate cloud I've ever seen:
ripples of cotton billows in purest white
floating high above my supine body.

Barely held within, the coalescing vapors of an imminent torrent;
a secret shower to which I am the sole divulgent.

To the south, a tower stands *****, twitching in the wind as if with anticipation. Its weather beacon gleams with a pattern indicating a sudden downpour.

Oh, dear gossamer form of cotton sweetness, how you swell and darken, distending pregnant with your promised release.
From white to translucent as the first drops can be seen,
granting a coveted glance of the inner-workings to mother nature's daily intimacies.

Drenching me in bliss that stings and blinds.
Purifying this ***** earth by choking out every stray flying thing that exists between you and me.
Mouth agape and mind blank like fowl that can't help themselves from looking away,
drowning on one divine mouthful.
JDK May 2015
If you let them,
they will try to keep you here.
In this sea where you've learned to swim,
but the water is thick.
Just treading it
is exhausting.
Stuck in muck.
JDK May 2015
Let's call it Big Fish in Small Pond syndrome.
Trying desperately to get these guppies to see the beauty of swimming against the stream.
It's all about the struggle, man.
Do you know what I mean?

Forgive me for being so angsty.
Chalk it up to a Holden Caufield complex.
Too much time contemplating what comes next.
I guess you could say I'm obsessed with death.

I'll drown eventually,
meanwhile trying to get them to believe it's not my fault.
Blame it on a flawed support system.
Blame my family, blame my friends.
Blame everyone and anything but me.

I'm starting to see it a little more clearly,
(though I'm not about to go for a psychology degree,)
but I think I now know what my problem is:
Hubris.
"The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause, while the mark of the mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one."
JDK Apr 2015
When hope and home sound the same,
then you're probably nowhere near it.
I've commandeered someone's private plane,
but I have no idea where to steer it.
Home is where you crash.
JDK May 2013
When I say "Always,"
I really mean Never
But I do mean it when I say
That we should get together
When I say "Sometime,"
I really mean Forever
I believe you hold the key to making my life better

When I say I'm content
I really mean I'm not
When I say that I am happy it means I don't know how to stop
When I say "I like you"
Or that I think you're cute
It means there are so many things I want to do to you

When I say you can help me
It really means I'm ******
If you think that you can save me then I'll say to you, "Good Luck"
If I say that I'm alright
It means I'm falling apart
And if I start to show you all my pieces you'd better hold on to your heart
JDK Sep 2017
Everything burns, pierces and tears.
My head's blown to pieces by the force of these cares.

A word not spoken.
A stare gone too long.
A perfect plan ruined.
A beautiful song.

My heart is in shambles.
It's tortured and raw,
and riddled with holes that leak until there's a pool beneath my feet.
And I drown.

What I need is to be free
of all these things that hurt so much.
What I wish for is for nothing
to ever touch me again . . .

Bam Smash Break Crash Wham Whomp Kazoo

Your wish is my command and now well how'd ya do?

Nothing can touch me.
Yes! Finally!

. . .

Nothing can touch me . . .

Oh god, no.
Etc.
JDK Dec 2013
Lost in dreams and fantasy
I love it when real life becomes a reflection of me
To see myself in so many ways
I love the beginnings of permanent change

Like getting to the best part at the end of a chapter
The present keeps me from worrying what may come after
And it may be great, and amazing, and fine
Or it could be lame, and a complete waste of time

But I'll deal with this thing, and the rest as they come up
I feel stoic, heroic, ready, and tough
Bring on the challenge
I'll show you what I'm made of

It's times like these that I feel alive
Maybe it's because I've never been afraid to die
It's hello's that I struggle with
But I've never had trouble saying goodbye

It all reminds me of this one time
Where my whole family went along for a ride
And my dad ran a red light
And we all almost died

My mom had a mock heart-attack
And my sister, she cried
My brother got angry
And my father was silent

And I just laughed and laughed
Hysterically so
Because to die you first have to be alive
And it felt so good to know

I was probably twelve years old
But I can still recall the effect
It seems all of the times I remember most clearly
Are the times I came closest to death

But now I remember feeling so stuck in life
And letting emptiness take control
Going to work was an hour long drive
I spent it wishing for the credits to roll

Directed by the world
The setting was hell
Special thanks to my mother
Guest starring myself

I'd like to thank the academy
And the rest of the cast
"I look forward to the future"
And to leaving the past

I saw it all
Superimposed over the rest
A slow pan out from my car
As I drove into sunset

But it didn't end there
And it's not over yet
I'm still alive and kicking
Don't you forget
sandwitches
JDK Sep 2024
Broke the surface with the provided bucket.
His face followed shortly after.
Proud as a father
of the fortune contained therein.

Gold-plated doubloons and dyed resin jewels
planted there by employees that very morning.
"Guess we can finally buy that beach house in the Hamptons now honey!"
JDK Apr 28
At some point you will have ridden all the rides.
Sampled all the options.
Tasted every entrée.

Your life, an archive of reviews
compiled into a guide
that led you nowhere.
JDK Jan 2017
He started stringing dollar bills along with his words to increase the odds of someone picking up what he was putting down.
"You're just trying to bait me,"
said the worm to the ******.
JDK Jul 2015
I just deleted forty lines.
I haven't snorted one in ages.
I tell them all I'm high on life.
Can't tell the difference between criminals and sages.
Not to stake a claim on anything.
Not to shake a leg or anything.
Not to say I'm not really here,
but just dreaming.
Somebody pinch me.
Wait, didn't you already say that? (Didn't I already imagine you saying that?) Haven't I already given a response to that? Why aren't we floating yet?
JDK Oct 2016
Gravity with its heavy hand would have something to say about the way you stand.
Get out while you're still upright.
Get out while you still can.
*** man
JDK Nov 2013
What price have you paid for that countenance so vain?
Besides the cost of makeup
and hunger pains

My dear, I'm afraid
You've lost more than you've gained

That army of boys all waiting in limbo
Does it please you so to have those dogs at your toes?
Sorry excuses for men who will never know respect
If you ever gave it to one of them they'd move right on to the next

Don't count me among the many trying to take you to bed
I'm more interested with what's in your head
And in yours all I can see is a complete lack of depth
JDK Sep 2017
There is a place where just the shape of the door that let you into it is the stuff of nightmares.

There is a state of mind that can accurately describe the intricacies and outricacies of what it means to be insane, but you'll never remember how to describe it. (For good reason.)

There is a plane where the trees can actually communicate with you,
and by god are they mean.
No, I mean, I know The Happening was a really dumb movie,
but like, I get it.
JDK Jan 2014
Here's the thing about a mollusk
Sometimes from a distance you can think you've glimpsed a pearl inside
So you get closer to investigate but the thing clenches tight
It's a defense mechanism; you know this
So you fight, and struggle to get the **** thing open
Your fingers bleed
Your muscles ache
You begin to believe that it will never break
Really going through something
But right when you're about to give up, it loosens
And you gaze inside to find
Nothing
What you thought was a pearl was just a trick of the light
I've had it with this girl
It's over alright
I've got to stop falling for Cancers
JDK Mar 2015
I'm getting older,
and my psychonauting days have long been over,
and the same can be said for most of my fellow explorers.
That scene we lived hasn't died yet, but it's grown tired.
And the freshness it once held for us
now tastes,
more or less,
expired.
Like a bad bean.
JDK Sep 2016
The perspective that paints things in a positive light
is the one that most often escapes me,
though I chase it through chasms and tunnels and towers and trees.
I swing through a perceived collective consciousness in a desperate attempt to grasp what's most relevant; missing nearly every branch.
Trying to convince myself that I'm not a solipsist.

If you were me, then I'd be you, and I'd choose to do the same things that I'm doing now, which I guess isn't all too surprising.
All things considered.
I keep forgetting to thank you.
JDK Jul 2010
If there was a way to you
You know that I would find it
And I still have a day for you
Where I don't try to hide it

But if those dreams do come true
It won't be as good
No it won't be so good

And if those stars never do pull through
I'll still wish they would
You know,
I really wish they would.
Fantasy > Reality
JDK Nov 2013
Caught up in the space between the first word and the next
While I'm breathing softly into my sweet lover's neck
And when she stirs I feel a burn swell up inside my chest
Of all the tales I've ever heard; I like this one the best
Playing favorites
JDK Sep 2013
Come together then fall apart
Defibrillate this broken heart
Draw lines to bridge that gap between
Where I end and you start

And break the laws you set in stone
Wind and sand and dirt and bone
Confound your own confusion
A house isn't always a home

Open your mind and forget what you know
And I'll forget that I don't know any better
Just know now that you're not alone
We are in this thing together

So show your inner deep down cracks
Share your secret inside laughs
And I swear I'll see the humor too
I feel funny when I'm with you

Then we'll go out and paint the sky
If you're my girl then I'm your guy
Can this joy be kept on ice?
"I'm just so happy right now,
I could die."

And everything's all out of order
I've called back the army that guarded my border
But you can't invade land that's never been owned
Are we together,
Or together alone?

It's never mattered
It matters not to me
When I look into your eyes
You're all that I can see
And all that I can know
And all I'll ever be
Is a man staring back at eyes
Forgetting how to breathe
Three or four lines borrowed from favorite songs, and one movie.
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