I just wish things could go back to the way they used to be
Life was great
Well not exceptionally
I could be me
Except it wasnt me
I just refused to see i was bleeding
When it hurt i just stole some ****
And light it up
The fill a cup
With the lie you fed to me
Till I lit it up found the truth
And smoked up all my dreams
I went up in flames
Now I'm searching fame
Want to hear crowds chanting my names
But first I gotta make a name
Cause without it he'll come back
Blame you for all I did
When it wasnt your fault,
I acted like a kid,
A kid grown up
On insane dreams and amphetamines
Cause it gave me ambition
Enough to rule the world
But it left me there wishing
That I knew why
So I could answer my cries
But I knew all along
I would just rather die
Cause the sober dreams were always a lie
But these coked out nights always settled the fights
That I had with me
When I flipped
Changed over
To a whole new guy
Because you got me ****** up
And I feel the need to fly
Cause I already feel like I'm up in the sky
Blacked out so I can spend some time with god
Up in the light
But just for tonight
And let my body flow
Cause now he can vibe
Through life
Through pain
The only one he needs is that sweet *******
Never caring where he goes
But that ****'s not quite right
It's my own **** hide
My *** on the line
Always ready to **** myself
Bent over some dumb ****
So I wont ne smart enough to know I'm not fine
So I'll stretch myself far and wide
So I can blame him for everything I do before I die

I said I'd always care and I meant that, it's the truth even if I ain't right there I've done this all for you, I hate it as I sleep like a bed of nails but instead it's my head resting in a bed of lies cause I said we were done and I stopped feeling your pain but I lied to you so I wouldn't actually see our love wane

******* **** I can't do this anymore this makes me more depressed than I've ever known before but I keep doing it because its mature it demonstrates my ability as a thoughtful lil **** but now I just want to be happy, but not to be happy but feel happy as I let people stab my heart, like reaching for roses through the thorns so maybe I won't, ill back pedal a bit, go back to being a child, then try dumb youthful **** like ***** drugs and dirtier **** because being mature meant growing up, so I skipped a few steps and it makes it feel like **** so lets go back to a time before time became something to go back about, because growing up only makes you mature if you've taken the time to mature as you grow up

Hi im Joe but you don't know what that means
Names seem to fit types, but friendships fit yours and those are the names that stick
And I think we'll be friends but you don't know what that means because its hard to find someone who cares about you not what you do
I miss you and neither of us knows what that means because we just want the opposite of what we have and we haven't had it
And I love you without knowing what my heart means because I just don't want to lose this chance to be yours
Now im in love with you and the way our hearts play but I don't know what that is because I never figured how to make it talk and walk all together
As we fall apart I don't know what it means because even when I was angry I just threw it out to be with you
These fists fly and we don't know what they mean because you only see half of them and we can never feel the others
Goodbye but you don't know what that means because we were friends forever and life is different now, and without us we're missing everything we knew

Our breakup song is long and sweet,
I began writing it before I knew we would ever meet
You say we'll be together forever
But I think we both know that's somehow wrong
I keep myself up wondering how long
You said it yourself,
Its not long till one of us will be gone
And you say I'd get over you
While the world goes on
You've said it so much,
I almost believed it
But when youre gone for the night
I can't believe it
My heart aches for you
And I can't just leave it
So when you say you want to kiss the train
Or taste a bullet going through your brain
I guess we would be together
Because I would die forever

There are two types of suicide
Kinds that nobody sees
A coward's way out
Or a hero's last ride

Like one last high
That feels like the first time
Fixing all their struggles and blights
As they float off into the eternal night

Because the cowards wanted to die all along
Some just picked up a gun right then
Others picked up a ****
And others decided to run

They're told it makes them happy
Because they are fundamentally weak
When they always knew its a poison
That might not work this week

Or those breaking in on lightning
Because there was never reason
For those who begged to please
But were forced up to a heavenly prison

Saving lives gives a meaning
With the moral set on repeat
And you never stop to think
You can't when your always on your feet

So they all give meaning to an empty dull life
Deciding their different methods
Of walking down the scenic route
To a long suicide

When I knew her
She always did too much
she took the time to touch
Whoever's life needed it much
When she was dating him
He never did enough
Until