He was beautiful.
His words were too.
And when he spoke to me.
My whole body swooned.

He had such charm.
No matter what he said.
But then right after.
Bet he wanted me dead.

I took a line of coke while I thought of you.
So if I died I would've died happy too.
Took some more pain meds
And a swig of J. Beam
Listened to L. Del Rey
Hear me sing.

Yayo, Yes, You.

L'amour, L'amour, L'amour, L'amour!

Did I not tell you?

I am Carmen.

A seductress, a siren.

Singing what you want to hear.

Feigning love to entertain myself, even if I didn't want you.

But for them?

L'amour, L'amour, L'amour, L'amour!

I am ******.

Only in their arms have I no sense of being.

It's up to them to have me as who they want.

And if it's as ******, I'll be her.

L'amour, L'amour, L'amour, L'amour!

The rose once between my teeth

Now lies on your casket.

Prends garde a toi

He says he loves me.
He says I'm his favorite investment.
He says he loves spending time with me.
He says he loves how I speak my mind.
He says he's proud of me.
He says I'm the smartest kid he knows.
He says I'm the strongest kid he knows.
He says I'm the most caring person he knows.
He says that i'm his favorite daughter.
He says that I'm his favorite kid.
He says he loves me.

I don't believe him.
Neither should you.

Him.
My Savior.
The light of my life.
It was him who saved me from myself.
Dragged me out of the currents.
Divined me from my demons.
Him.
My Enemy.
The reason I'm still here.
It was him who kept me here.
He destroyed me.
Crushed my freedom and soul.
Made me want him more.
Played with me like I couldn't feel.
Him.
My Love.
My Hate.
My Angel
My Demon.
Mine.

Fire.
Such an interesting thing.
How the heat could burn anything in a matter of hours.
Dreams. Hopes. Houses.
None are safe from the scorching sparks.
The best thing about fire, is that it spreads.
And when it spreads, almost noting can stop it.
Flames could disperse and destroy an entire country as we know.
The embers of vengeance show the ability to ruin all that stands in its way.
So before you think about playing with fire,
First think about how you're going to extinguish it.