Loving you was like diving head first in the deep end of the swimming pool.
I did not know how to swim.

And you watched me
As I inhaled water while searching for air,
As my limbs tried to transform into paddles,
As my voice drowned in the waves that I created.

You slowly moved towards the shallow end
And somehow I followed you.

I am still choking on the water I swallowed,
But I know how not to drown.

I used to write poems about you
while waiting for you to come back.
So I can show you how I felt.

Now I write poems on paper
So they can stack up and form a wall
That you no longer have the power to destroy.

When you finally show up I will not be able to see you anymore.